an act of apparition

[frecklestars]

LJ idol week 29: disappear

Like every little kid, I dreamed of being invisible. Other kids wanted to be invisible to steal cookies or stay up past their bedtime. But I wanted to be invisible so I could sneak out of the house to explore what a desert night was like without my parents, or so I could live in the natural history museum to hang out with

Comments

[genesisdesire]

Powerful and evocative. I love the flow between the comfort of circular logic and the fear of math class.

"A full recovery requires faith that you will still be someone you like once you get better."

This speaks to me. Thank you for being brave and honest.

[myrna_bird]

Facing your fears and writing about this was so brave.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

I had a very good friend in college who had an eating disorder. This reminds me so much of her way of thinking, including the circular. It's been years since we've been in touch, and I often wonder if she did indeed beat it.

I have faith that you will beat it.

:hugs:

[jacq22]

Please keep writing, keep thinking and beat this thing. It is a horrible demon to have.

Beautiful simple writing, clear statements. Liked it.

[rrie_selavy]

Dearheart, you're already spitting in that anorexia parasite's eye by being so much you, and fighting her so hard.

And speaking from the other side of recovery--I think you'll like her. Really. Having an anorexia monster that wanted to play with me (and who still plays ring-and-run with my psyche) took so much of my energy, my passion, the fight in me. And now? Well, people seem to like what was left when she packed up her Barbies and went home.