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[fredboy]

Sometimes i feel so confused. I think things should be one way, and they dont turn out that way. I've been very depressed lately, and im beginning to think that those feelings are beginning to affect not only my actions, but the feelings of other people. I wish i could find a proper solution on how to fix these feelings. It sometimes feels that i am in my own shell and nothing i can do will get me out. Its annoying. I also feel very alone, as if no one really cares about me, and since i dont really care for myself either, it makes it all the worse. I dont want to hear anyone saying that they care about me...i just want to know if anyone knows how to make this feeling go away. I want to be able to be happy with my own friends, and not rely on relationships that some people have called "unhealthy" or "not right". I want to go back in time....i hate college life.....
I'm going to go read about the only person i feel would understand me right now from the book Catcher in the Rye