Long Time No Post
Hello, sorry for the long wait between now and the last proper post, I'd like to say I've been busy but I think I've just been procrastinating from this, as usual. My ankle continues in its merry way of hurting at the most vexing times and I continue to grin and bear it. In the gumpf I was given by Mary, it says that women who are on the Pill (not me) should stop taking it six weeks before. I decided that, while this was probably due to clotting issues, it may also be so that they can exactly predict what the painkillers will do when they use them in the hospital. So, to carry on along that vein (unintentional pun), I stopped taking any painkillers at all (whether for ankle pain or anything else) about a week after the appointment with Mary. This has added to the issue of not being in control of the pain, though I haven't been for quite a while now, tablets or no tablets. However, now that I've got past the first couple of weeks of cold turkey (not very pleasant), I can understand what my ankle is doing, how it's doing it, where the pain is and what measures I should take to stop the pain.
One thing that has been a bit of a problem has been trying to lose weight. When I was unemployed, I went swimming 4 or 5 times a week and was doing well. Now I have a 9-5 job and am exhausted by the time I get home (I don't have enough spoons to get through a day, basically) so haven't done any proper exercise in, well, weeks. I don't feel good about it, but I know that if I attempt adding swimming or cycling to my routine I will completely wipe out at work and I don't want that to happen. Exercise is a completely double-edged sword for me anyway, the more I do the more my ankle hurts so I do less and my ankle hurts less. Sigh. Mum is, of course, trying urgently to get me on a diet, any diet, to lose weight. I have never been a fan of them, and the latest one is a Paul McKenna book. Even my dad has shown more interest in this book than I have. I don't want to see it, or listen to the CD it came with. This is because I know the 'diet' that works for me is the same one that everyone who is overweight should do: eat less, move more. I'm trying to do the first one, but my monthly cycle has a habit of giving me two days where I just want to eat all the time which is not useful, and I really like food. And the second part of the 'diet', as discussed, is very difficult without the required spoons.
Anyhow, the date is crawling ever closer and I'm beginning to feel Not Ready For This. I know I will be. I just don't feel it right now.
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One thing that has been a bit of a problem has been trying to lose weight. When I was unemployed, I went swimming 4 or 5 times a week and was doing well. Now I have a 9-5 job and am exhausted by the time I get home (I don't have enough spoons to get through a day, basically) so haven't done any proper exercise in, well, weeks. I don't feel good about it, but I know that if I attempt adding swimming or cycling to my routine I will completely wipe out at work and I don't want that to happen. Exercise is a completely double-edged sword for me anyway, the more I do the more my ankle hurts so I do less and my ankle hurts less. Sigh. Mum is, of course, trying urgently to get me on a diet, any diet, to lose weight. I have never been a fan of them, and the latest one is a Paul McKenna book. Even my dad has shown more interest in this book than I have. I don't want to see it, or listen to the CD it came with. This is because I know the 'diet' that works for me is the same one that everyone who is overweight should do: eat less, move more. I'm trying to do the first one, but my monthly cycle has a habit of giving me two days where I just want to eat all the time which is not useful, and I really like food. And the second part of the 'diet', as discussed, is very difficult without the required spoons.
Anyhow, the date is crawling ever closer and I'm beginning to feel Not Ready For This. I know I will be. I just don't feel it right now.
comment(s) so far! You can comment on the original entry here and the whole thing can be found here. Whew!