Pretend

[freeko]

Maybe I should make it easier if I pretended to smile and say I was happy all the time instead of indicating that I am angry, agitated, aggravated and pissed off.

Just a thought

Comments

[az_starshine]

Not necessarily, but when you say "I'm not an angry person" but seldom come across as anything but, it's hard to see otherwise.

Just sayin'. :)

[freeko]

Still I would never do what was done to me?

*edits for clarity*

[az_starshine]

See, that's what I don't really get. Other than the obvious things (being raped, so on and so forth) what exactly DID Robin do to you that got you so up in arms?

I'm just seeing a lot of style and not much substance.

Re: *edits for clarity*

[freeko]

I would not have dropped Robin as a friend nor would I you or anyone else as a friend. Robin is free to do what she wants, I can't make her or anyone else by my friend. But that being said? I would never do it.

[freeko]

Thus is the crux of the problem. I don't want to be negative. But the thing is trying to be honest and not drag people down. I am not trying to be a *downer* Seeing my father dealing with existential dread when I was 16 was not fun at all and now I am about the same age he was? I feel a lot more empathy for him then when I was 16.

[freeko]

I have always been a loyal friend and the irony is that I would be a loyal friend to this person. But hey? where I come from loyalty counts. But I have said all I can already regarding this person.

And yeah existential dread is a tough one.