so i tried...i thought there may be somin there, but it was made very clear that there is absolutley nothing (on your part) it hurts, but i guess i deserve it.

"i just never thought you could leave me, i thought i was the one... but i understand your sadness so i guess i'll just bite my tounge"

i hate this city......fuking hate it ( Read more... )

the hardest part is dreaming...i dream like nothing has changed....and then wake up every morning expecting to be by you...and im not, and it still kills me ( Read more... )

finally got a chance to update here. been working 6 days a week for the last 2 weeks and it looks like i will be for the next 3 or so...it's fucking getting to me now, i'm having deja vu everyday! Bruce is still crashing at my place, for another 11 days too, i'll miss him when he's gone lol, it's nice to have some company around ( Read more... )

hey, so havent been on in a lil while. working like mad lately...moving up more at work to, in about a week or so i'll be the head bartender for the daytime shift...which is pretty sweet! except i have to be there at 10 a.m. blah ( Read more... )

back again, no new news. got a letter from my mom though. she's still just as crazy as ever and a lil senile i think as well now ( Read more... )

wow...i missed that voice. it was great to hear from you, although a little emotional but good. im glad things are going well for you. you deserve it. and do what makes you happy and what you want... dont waste time/money on something that isn't challenging you or fun, look into the Restaurant management...i'm sure you'd love it ( Read more... )

oh my ( Read more... )

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I have to block out thoughts of you so i dont lose my head, they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed. Dropping little reels of tape to remind me im alone, playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home. Theres a burning in my pride a nervous bleeding in my brain, an ounce of peace is all i want for you, will you never ( Read more... )