Take me back when everything made sense
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So I spent my weekly allowance early. I had to ask my mom for money while she was bathing because the school bus was already there but she shouted at me and refused to give anything simply because she was bathing.
I only ate junk food and a slice of pizza today until I got home and ate. Shortly after I ate, my mom came with lots of food so I unpacked the package which included spring rolls and its dip. I was looking forward to dipping into it after presenting to my mom formally my certificates for being an academic and conduct awardee as well as the other certificates concerning the CEM test and the ICAS test. Then I brought up the issue of me not eating decently before I returned back to hell....home and she said "Never talk to me when I'm bathing." and that fucking pissed me off because I would've forgiven her if there was at least a BIT of remorse.
Shortly after, our househelp threw the UNTOUCHED dip into the drain and I was angered to know of its present non-existence.
I got mad.
Why all the stress, you ask?
It started when I was called to the Vice Principal's Office for a meeting which purpose was not indicated. Fearing nothing, I went into the room 15 minutes late only to be greeting by an empty chair. I waited until the secretary came back and she indicated me to go into the room immediately. In doing so, I saw the other 4 top students of my sophomore year and we were given the application forms for the AJSS(Ateneo Junior Summer Seminar) and frankly I didn't know what to make of it. I was briefed and I was wondering how I should shape the future of this application...
Oh wait. Why all the pressure to join a summer seminar? Ateneo is one of the colleges I would compared the "Ivy League" to in the Philippines. Aside from the very well perceive University of the Philippines, Ateneo probably is one of the best colleges in our country.
Also, I would be pressured by the family to join either UP or Ateneo and I would choose Ateneo because of its better facilities if and only if the course I would pick is available there. In short, I wanted this. But it comes with a hard qualifying exam including fourth year HS topics we don't even care about right now. The test is on January 2010, deadline for the applications are on December 2009. Yes, Next month.
.
I should be happy I was invited right? I was also tentatively invited into the Social Studies inter-school contest on Wednesday and I need to study the WHOLE Philippine History as well as the CAPITALS and probably FLAGS of all ASIAN countries. ON TOP OF THAT The Long Test 2 occurs on next week's Friday and Thursday.
OH JOY
Now for some MORE woe. I miss my aunt. She's in either Thailand, Vietnam or Myanmar right now. She's the only thing keeping this 3-man family sane and frankly, without her, I feel that the balance was broken by the weight of my *dictator* mother.
God, help me.
More input:
Why do I have this weird complex to think that I can do whatever I can and do it well? Dear self, you are NOT perfect, stop trying to pretend you are and suck all of the failures up. But I won't do that. That's not me, at least right now. Why is help overseas when I need her most?
So I spent my weekly allowance early. I had to ask my mom for money while she was bathing because the school bus was already there but she shouted at me and refused to give anything simply because she was bathing.
I only ate junk food and a slice of pizza today until I got home and ate. Shortly after I ate, my mom came with lots of food so I unpacked the package which included spring rolls and its dip. I was looking forward to dipping into it after presenting to my mom formally my certificates for being an academic and conduct awardee as well as the other certificates concerning the CEM test and the ICAS test. Then I brought up the issue of me not eating decently before I returned back to hell....home and she said "Never talk to me when I'm bathing." and that fucking pissed me off because I would've forgiven her if there was at least a BIT of remorse.
Shortly after, our househelp threw the UNTOUCHED dip into the drain and I was angered to know of its present non-existence.
I got mad.
Why all the stress, you ask?
It started when I was called to the Vice Principal's Office for a meeting which purpose was not indicated. Fearing nothing, I went into the room 15 minutes late only to be greeting by an empty chair. I waited until the secretary came back and she indicated me to go into the room immediately. In doing so, I saw the other 4 top students of my sophomore year and we were given the application forms for the AJSS(Ateneo Junior Summer Seminar) and frankly I didn't know what to make of it. I was briefed and I was wondering how I should shape the future of this application...
Oh wait. Why all the pressure to join a summer seminar? Ateneo is one of the colleges I would compared the "Ivy League" to in the Philippines. Aside from the very well perceive University of the Philippines, Ateneo probably is one of the best colleges in our country.
Also, I would be pressured by the family to join either UP or Ateneo and I would choose Ateneo because of its better facilities if and only if the course I would pick is available there. In short, I wanted this. But it comes with a hard qualifying exam including fourth year HS topics we don't even care about right now. The test is on January 2010, deadline for the applications are on December 2009. Yes, Next month.
.
I should be happy I was invited right? I was also tentatively invited into the Social Studies inter-school contest on Wednesday and I need to study the WHOLE Philippine History as well as the CAPITALS and probably FLAGS of all ASIAN countries. ON TOP OF THAT The Long Test 2 occurs on next week's Friday and Thursday.
OH JOY
Now for some MORE woe. I miss my aunt. She's in either Thailand, Vietnam or Myanmar right now. She's the only thing keeping this 3-man family sane and frankly, without her, I feel that the balance was broken by the weight of my *dictator* mother.
God, help me.
More input:
Why do I have this weird complex to think that I can do whatever I can and do it well? Dear self, you are NOT perfect, stop trying to pretend you are and suck all of the failures up. But I won't do that. That's not me, at least right now. Why is help overseas when I need her most?