SO the more I think about things the more I just wanna hate the world, and really just hate myself. I mean I let myself get into another situation where the guy said i was amazing, smart, beautiful and just perfect, and believed it. From there you know months or so go by and then finally start to date. Then the fun begins. I mean thats when ( Read more... )

I don't know where to really start. It has been a long time since I have written anything here and so much has changed. I honest to god have no love life. I am not trying anymore I am finally bettering myself instead of hoping someone will come around and want me. I have lacked so much respect for myself that I let certian people just walk all ( Read more... )

So to start I got a second job!! So all you people who complained before about never seeing me will definately have something to complain about now. I will now be working Monday - Friday 8am-5pm, Monday - Thursday 6pm-10ish, and Saturday's 8am-5pm. I will be working at Best buy again, only this time I am going to be working in the Magnolia Home ( Read more... )

SO today is my Birthday, but i am just not feeling it. I mean it just doesn't seem all that great. Normally I am all into them and all excited about them, but this year not so much. I mean it just kind of sucks to be spending it alone. I am not used to spending them alone. I guess things could be worse, but its just like all of my friends have ( Read more... )

I have never had so many issues in my life. mainly money issues right now. I just dont know what to do anymore. I also know that I have been changing. I know its a good thing and what I am going through is normal. I can't help but wonder if all this changing is really good though. I thought when you fall in love and think about having this ( Read more... )

I have been sick for over a week now. Last week I had the stomache bug that was going around and this week I have got the head cold that has been going around. This really sucks. Corey has also been really sick too. He has been sick longer then I have. But damn it really sucks we have been hurting units. I honestly just want to curl up and ( Read more... )

In the past few months since I wrote a real entry alot has happened. I have been trying to get things back on track, but realizing that I am slipping very quickly down a very steep slope into a depression that I just might not come out of right away without commiting myself first. That is definately in all honesty the way that it is going. Now I ( Read more... )

well the title says it all...I am feeling better, but still feel a little like i am last on the list...I know things are tight, but also know once things settle down it will be better...Just busy busy busy....

Right now I am just kind of feeling like last on everyones lists and it just kind of sucks...I dont know...

The beginning of the year has gone great with a few exceptions. I moved into my new place. It may not be the greatest but it is affordable and my little place to call home. Corey and I are doing fantastic. HIs band is doing AWESOME!!!! They have a show on sunday which is going to be awesome. I hope a certian girl (Miss Traci will email and ask ( Read more... )