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Thoughts on limits of emotion
When I was young, I would feel too much because I was ignorant, afraid, and vulnerable. If caused me no end of pain for many years, at one point nearly overwhelming me as I stood with my toes hanging in the free edge over a chasm of my own making that I was entirely ready to drop into forever ( Read more... ) -
An observation concerning trust
When someone trusts you, if you are smart, you understand the responsibility you have to uphold that trust. If someone has been damaged in the past, and you make the effort to draw them out and help them heal, make no mistake that if you betray that trust the damage you do will be exponentially worse ( Read more... ) -
Lifestyle people really do rock.
One thing that was always a pain in my ass was the whole STD/STI testing thing. The average reaction is "I'm not dirty, why would I get tested?", or "I'm not a slut, I don't need to be tested" (someone I'm chatting with online about hooking up for random sex). Sine I/we got away from messing with vanilla people, even the BIFs, it has been a ( Read more... ) -
This is the new shit
So, lets see where. Where to start,...
Old biz: Still on and off with my friend, she is in a new living situation that neither Jamie or myself are real fond of. Since she is living in other peoples space on their property, we don't feel we can justifiably drop in whenever, and due to lack of funding for fuel she is no longer able to just get away ( Read more... ) -
And theeeen?
So it was just over a year before we talked, kinda, after Jamie had to tell her what was up. Silly bitch thought I hated her. I do not nor did I ever *hate* her, just got tired of giving of myself and be unappreciated.
Our relationship is beyond damaged, but not beyond salvage. We shall see.
She did leave me with a serious sweet tooth for hot ( Read more... ) -
Dodging bullets
You ever see someone you used to be involved with, someone who at the time you loved and were sad to lose, but you see them now and it's like whoah! Thank you sooooo much for dumping me!!
I don't want to cone off as mean, but damn, wtf??
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That didn't end well,...
Haven't talked to her in 9 weeks now.
I was made to feel uncomfortable, unwanted, and when I questioned it, I was rebuffed severely. She was going on like *I* was treating the aituatuon as a "breakup", that we didn't have a relationsgip per se, not seeming to understand that being close friends *is* a relationship. In reality she was treating it as ( Read more... ) -
Where we are, an update.
So, to be honest, things have kind of normalized. About as normal as things get for me I suppose ( Read more... ) -
No easy days,...
Sometimes I just say the wrong things.
Other times I don't know *how* to say the right thing, and it just comes out wrong.
It doesn't really matter in the end, because if I don't get my thoughts across properly it causes all kinds of problems.
My friend has a unique way of doing a lot of things, it's not that she's doing it wrong, it's just how she ( Read more... ) -
She's absolutely right I used her,...
We will take away the fact that this whole arrangement was specifically for her to *use* me to curb her needs, her uncontrollable carnal urges, that were driving her to take risks. Yes, in return for that use I did get the bennefit of getting laid, quite well in fact (I will always praise her abilities), but the whole thing was that she bulldozed ( Read more... )