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[freshmowngrass]

this space is private now.

so i can learn to write for the sake of writing again. so i can remember the way words are used for me, for my day, for the people in my world; for all the right reasons that i have ignored for so long. i need some space, some privacy so i can heal and re-align my priorities.

Comments

[acidcrys]

I think it makes a lot of sense, and i hope you do heal and re-align your priorities. I've been thinking a lot about the same thing..I feel like I'm someone I really shouldn't be.

But does this mean no more public at all? I'll miss your words.

I'm going to answer your interview questions in an entry right now :)

*hugs*

[freshmowngrass]

thankyou.

i don't know. it's funny because after doing this, shedding this skin, a great flow of words has come, like in the old days - when i used to do it for myself and not as show-pieces which is what i feel has happened. i still think though that it's good to leave off any form of entry writing for a while, just to wean myself off that need for applause and approval.

ah! i hope they wren't all too geeky/silly/etc!

[flexuous]

I hope doing that makes it your own space again. I'm sorry I haven't replied to your last email- things have been kinda crazy here and I am certainly going to in the next few days.

xo

[freshmowngrass]

me too.
that's ok. i've been so busy/tired that i haven't really noticed - started a new job this week - all evening work, so my finishes are either 9 or 10pm plus travelling time. to boot, my pay from work hasn't gone through the last 2 weeks and following that my rent has been/is going to be late for 2 weeks thanks to it. i'm lucky that the folks i'm living with are really decent but it frustrates the life out of me because here i am behind through no fault of my own.
oh well, we all need our angsty rants don't we?!
take care xo.

[tile]

i have some intoxicating fear of being judged but then i need to be? yeah well i am stupid sometimes. and i hope you find this

[freshmowngrass]

no. i am like that. that is what has brought about this withdrawal from the public domain, i need to learn to give, to be satisfied without the praise of others. you are not silly at all.

[bloom_within]

i admire you.

[freshmowngrass]

likewise.

[tigerose]

i hope you find that space, and more.
we are made to heal

[freshmowngrass]

me too.
i agree with you so whole-heartedly.