Comments | fresnawsuprchck: To conquer death you only have to die, you only have to die....

fresnawsuprchck

To conquer death you only have to die, you only have to die....

Oct 05, 2003 21:57

Tonight i am swirling around in the mystery of what is and what isn't. i'm so fucking sick of hanging on by one single thread onto my feaith that a god even exists. I keep outlining excuses as to why God Must exist, but they are nothing beyond just excuses if they have nothing to back them up. I need something to ignite within myself again, it's ( Read more... )

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ogodcomequickly October 5 2003, 22:05:11 UTC

dude, that was amazing kim...so honest and well written.

i have felt like that my whole life...i've tried so hard to bring everything i want to believe together...

but i guess i've come to a point that this life is all that i have...and i had better make it worth it every day. and if that means i curse and have pre-marital sex and get really drunk and live my life the best i know how...then thats what i will do. you, my dear, are a beautiful, wonderful, compassionate person...you enjoy life and revel in the good and bad...i think you seem to be doing a damn fine job.

so thats not helpful, but just know i think you are amazing and excellent whatever you do.

ogodcomequickly October 5 2003, 22:07:00 UTC

ugh i always leave the lamest sounding comments in your journal...but i have good intentions :)

fresnawsuprchck October 5 2003, 23:16:13 UTC

<3

thank you, that did help, actually. kyle came over and i told him my plight and he was all "U R Weird" (he's one of those people that YOU KNOW thinks in shortened internet slang... esp when he says N-E WAYZ you can hear the separate n and e)

it was realy nice to see your comment and know that im not just "weird"

I miss seeing you about! I need to go wander around chapman for you. it would be most triumphant.

hmm, I think I'm gonna post this..... paul4psycho October 6 2003, 00:00:11 UTC

This is gonna sound really weird, so just stay with me. If you want to see what faith in god has done for people, go to an AA meeting. most of them are open to the public, so don't feel like you can't go just because you're not alcoholic.

I just saw this guy get his 6 month chip last night. The story he told effected me deeply, and a good deal of it was how his faith in god helped him.

If nothing else, just go, sit in a corner and listen. It really is an incredible experience.

BTW, through this whole internship experience, your concerns about my drinking have floated through my mind a lot. But I came to a realization, I'm not an alcoholic. The guys refered to me as a "social drinker." One's guys comment still rings in my head "When the only way you can start your day is with half a bottle of JD, then you can call yourself an alcoholic."

But I am a ball's to the wall nicoteen addict. One day, when I'm ready, I'll deal with that for good.