Does It Ever Get Better?

[frgottenshadows]

When can I be free
From these memories
When can I look at you
And not come unglued
You've done it well
So why can't I? Saw PJ today. And saw his girlfriend waiting in the car. I felt like I got punched in the gut. I thought I was over that. And it fucking sucks

Comments

[pharaohslove]

Sounds like Lyric is doing great! I wish Caydi was doing more of that stuff...seems like she is getting a bit behind now :\
I'm sorry things stink between you and Lyric's father. That sucks so bad. :(

[frgottenshadows]

Well, Lyric has been getting all this stuff crammed into her since she came home at 2 days old. All it is, is that Grams and I take a certain amount of time everyday and do all kinds of stuff with her, and she just advances quicker than most babies do. Most everyone who sees her can't believe all of it because of her age. Theyall say she's WAY beyond other kids.
Yeah, it sucks serious ass, but there's nothing I can do about it. He made his choice, now I've got to live with it... ~Jp

[pharaohslove]

Yeah, I take time out of my day to play with Caydi. My grandparents & Chris do the same...plus Matt & my mom when they get home from work... but she's just taking her sweet time. As long as she gets there, that's all that matters though.
Does he even care to be apart of Lyric's life? Someone should seriously kick his arse

[frgottenshadows]

I'm sure everyone takes time. Like I said, Lyric is way ahead of the game.
Oh yeah, he wants to play Daddy as long there's an audience and he doesn't have to lift a finger or buy a diaper. Everybody tells me he probably just got scared. Not so. He got pissed because I didn't fall right into marriage and become his good little wife.
I think hed rather have a girlfriend without stretch marks anyway. He just fails to remember that he helped put those marks there! ~Jp