OMG, Livejournal you SUCK. It totally fucked up my entry and then deleted half of it. SO, yeah, you guys don't get the rant about mental disorders, sorry.
You have PCOS, yes? That disorder unbalances masculine and feminine hormones. Unless you have your PCOS totally under control, I don't think you can make judgments about your sexuality. I'm just sorry you feel so out of place, hon.
Yes, and I do take female hormones to "balance" me out and force a period. My hormone tests show me having the proper amount of both testosterone and estrogen for a woman, the last time I had them done anyway (last year in Feb.).
I think that's part of why I haven't exactly labeled myself. Everyone one around me forces a label on my sexuality (my friends call me a lesbian no matter how much I talk about guys), which can get really annoying, but that's people for you. The world isn't happy unless things are placed in little boxes.
Yeah, I shouldn't filter myself. It's just so automatic, ya know? I filter EVERYTHING that comes out of my mouth, so I tend to do the same online.
The way I see, I don't have much else to do other than do some "soul searching". And I spend so much time in my own head, ignoring the outside world, I should at least know my environment, so to speak. :P
You shouldn't have to filter yourself in your journal. I don't think people have the right to judge you in such a space either. You are who you are and even if someone doesn't like it, it's not going to change anything, except maybe upset you.
Have you ever heard of the term genderqueer? It's a relatively new term for me, but that's what like what you are.
I'd say just be who you are, and screw anyone that doesn't like it. :)
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I think that's part of why I haven't exactly labeled myself. Everyone one around me forces a label on my sexuality (my friends call me a lesbian no matter how much I talk about guys), which can get really annoying, but that's people for you. The world isn't happy unless things are placed in little boxes.
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Be yourself, as young as you are, it's very impressive that you're already searching, inquiring, and learning so much.
(((hugs)))
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Yeah, I shouldn't filter myself. It's just so automatic, ya know? I filter EVERYTHING that comes out of my mouth, so I tend to do the same online.
The way I see, I don't have much else to do other than do some "soul searching". And I spend so much time in my own head, ignoring the outside world, I should at least know my environment, so to speak. :P
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Have you ever heard of the term genderqueer? It's a relatively new term for me, but that's what like what you are.
I'd say just be who you are, and screw anyone that doesn't like it. :)
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Thanks. :P
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