so i'm going to SUNY Purchase you guys
i get free flip flops at orientation
i'm pretty kind of nervous
annnnd
REALLYexcited.
at the same time

everyone is pretty shy when you get down to it

rockclimbing tomorrow for sure
olivia's tomorrow for maybe?
i've been busy all week
and today i hung out with ellenbelon
and painted my toenails
i'm extra tired

and i hope i ( Read more... )

i guess this orange juice is making me feel better
but there's something else
something i can't touch that just keeps still in my stomach
growing
and it's not an illness or a physical weakness
it's something
something sad
something i can't contol and it really makes me sick
whenever i look in his eyes

 my lovely favorite second cousin is getting married in three weeks ( Read more... )

i have recently accepted the fact that i don't give a shit about anything anymore. sunday night i went to go see brand new (FINALLY) and it was probably one of the best expirences of my life. i cried when they got on set. i was so happy, i can't even begin to descibe it. play crack the sky, the no seatbelt song, millstone, you won't know...amazing ( Read more... )

westminster is in utah.
utah is very, very far away.

but, there's skiing...
and nice people.
and wide open spaces.

my dad would never let me go to utah.

EDIT-
i officially hate my dad
officially
officially

i'm sorry this whole thing couldn't work out crystal
let's make superduper plans in advance this time

so this week has been pretty busy.
i hung out with ellen melon:D and we did the word jumble and went to the y. 
i hung out with liviepooh and we went out and saw Atonement, which was an amazing movie. then we went out to bombers and i slept over at her house, which was fun. 
i hung out with dan and we saw juno and had dinner together, which was really ( Read more... )

sooo
guess what?
i got into college [Green Mountain] hurraay :D
now i can waste thousands and thousands of dollars on an education that probably won't even be worth the effort!

but whatev
idk if i wanna go there
or anywhere

i hate waiting for college
and
waiting for ouas to magically be better

: /

7-3=4
8-4=4
15-11=4
2+2=4

4 days until i get to see my favorite band everr:D

i just wish the next 4 days didn't have to be packed full with some much bullshit.
i aboslutley can not wait until christmas break because this really is
just
too
much.

my great grandmother died last night.
i haven't told anyone.
i don't know how to tell anyone.

i feel like i should be crying.
but i can't.

i don't think i understand what it means to be dead.

 so ( Read more... )