Day 462, 24 left
Very slow day, i didn't practice at ll, tried to meditate in the morning but came back to the bad. Went out just once, to the shop which is three minutes from home.
A lot of computer. The search is going on. Asking questions and receiving answers about places to study. What do i want to study? Therapy, somatics, martial arts, performance?
Now the picture of possibilities which exist is a bit more clear, but still there is a lot of work to be done. I had almost enough of simple going with the flow, i feel that more discipline and aims are needed, but now differently. Not alone. Only with friends, with people who make the music play in my body.
So there are a lot of possibilities, lots of interesting courses in US, Europe, South America... and here i realize that there are questions of money, visa and language (it is ok with English, but what if the studies are gonna be in Spanish or Portugues?)
If i really want to enter any of this spaces, some proper work should be done. Suddenly i think that it is not such a bad idea to live in the city. City brings the movement and the challenge.
There are different directions of development. I am opening so much last months. I didn't tell, but i sing a lot, i play drum more and more. At the end of the lab we had a party, and spontaneously a kind of talk-show started. Everybody took a microphone and did something. And they called me. I was scared, but i came and took the microphone, and singed with it in front of about 25 people. I singed a couple of Russian songs. And it was really really strong and beautiful. And they were touched. Because i singed from the heart, i singed about what i feel. My voice is strong, my spirit is strong...
haha, is it going to help me to receive visas and scolarships and to learn languages?)))
The answer is yes.
What moves us is love.
Today finally did few exercises from the portugues book. It's still the beginning of the book, so exercises are very simple. I adore portugues. It is extremely beautiful.
So , the resume is:
-i am lacking for the aim, for the plan, for the structure, for the collaboration.
-i am happy when my body has a good exercises. I am even more happy when it is a dance. And i am the happiest person ever when it is an improvisational dance with someone.
Gratitude.
A lot of computer. The search is going on. Asking questions and receiving answers about places to study. What do i want to study? Therapy, somatics, martial arts, performance?
Now the picture of possibilities which exist is a bit more clear, but still there is a lot of work to be done. I had almost enough of simple going with the flow, i feel that more discipline and aims are needed, but now differently. Not alone. Only with friends, with people who make the music play in my body.
So there are a lot of possibilities, lots of interesting courses in US, Europe, South America... and here i realize that there are questions of money, visa and language (it is ok with English, but what if the studies are gonna be in Spanish or Portugues?)
If i really want to enter any of this spaces, some proper work should be done. Suddenly i think that it is not such a bad idea to live in the city. City brings the movement and the challenge.
There are different directions of development. I am opening so much last months. I didn't tell, but i sing a lot, i play drum more and more. At the end of the lab we had a party, and spontaneously a kind of talk-show started. Everybody took a microphone and did something. And they called me. I was scared, but i came and took the microphone, and singed with it in front of about 25 people. I singed a couple of Russian songs. And it was really really strong and beautiful. And they were touched. Because i singed from the heart, i singed about what i feel. My voice is strong, my spirit is strong...
haha, is it going to help me to receive visas and scolarships and to learn languages?)))
The answer is yes.
What moves us is love.
Today finally did few exercises from the portugues book. It's still the beginning of the book, so exercises are very simple. I adore portugues. It is extremely beautiful.
So , the resume is:
-i am lacking for the aim, for the plan, for the structure, for the collaboration.
-i am happy when my body has a good exercises. I am even more happy when it is a dance. And i am the happiest person ever when it is an improvisational dance with someone.
Gratitude.