im a danger to myself

for some reason, i feel alone right now, really alone.

im a confused young man. I have no direction right now. Its sad really that i can go from someone so sweet and responsible to someone who doesnt give a shit about alot of things. 20 and already given up on most things. The recent death of one of my closest friends has made tons of thoughts circulate in my mind. i feel like i should spend some more ( Read more... )

he was a god among men. Vic was more than just a friend. he would make you feel like you were family to him. he was my bumble bee. I was his right hand man. i miss you already dog. I love you and will never forget your voice or especially your laugh. We will meet one day again. and we ll be a family just like you always wanted it ( Read more... )

im hoping to become more and more lucid each day.
im going to miss that red devil.

this one felt oddly familiar, unfortunately old wounds never heal right for me.

Ive decided tonight, im staying alive. Just kicking and screaming.

fun weekend. smoked a bunch. saved the world while being high. had a jam session/smoke session, thats right i was high. went to a crowded ass party with a grip of hynas while being high. played alittle stick ball while being high. went in a hot tub with 1 girl and a grip of guys while being high. noticed i definately need to lose lb's while being ( Read more... )

i miss alot of things, i was never a good son to begin with i guess.

i need to get up off the floor
but its hard with a lead heart.
so heavy and worthless.
worthless, oh how i know that word inside and out now.