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[frozen_girl]

Hello to everyone. I'm back in Cairo, back online. It's been..colorful these past few days. Goodbyes with friends. Graduation is done with. I'm feeling a mild depression coming my way. It's all over, I've left for good this time. And you never know just HOW strong your feelings for someone are until you leave them. I was unpacking some stuff this

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[divine_dreams]

Thanks Amra. I know she's with God now, so everything is okay. She doesn't have to suffer through her cancer anymore.

I'm glad you're back, I missed ya! I know it never does any good to say it, but I do know how you're feeling. I was very good friends with the guy I liked and I got up the guts to tell him. After that, we never talked again. I think I scared him really. I dunno, but I never got to say good-bye either. You know what though? Now you know what you want in a boyfriend. It's okay to hold guys up to your standard, which has probably been set partially by the other guy (LH). You are not nothing either. You're a wonderful person who will find someone just right for you. If you and that guy were meant to be together, than something would have happened. I don't know how religious you are or what religion you practice, but I believe all things happen for a reason. There was some reason behind this, even though it may not feel like it now. Anyway, keep your spirits up! *smile*

Love ya, Ashley

[frozen_girl]

I've missed you too! Gosh, I was only gone from LJ for a few days but it felt like forever lol. Thanks for your words, it helped a lot. I am feeling better now. I think moving this time was the hardest for me yet because I really do love the friends I had to leave. And him..well I'll always keep the memories but it's really time I moved on. It's just so bloody hard. I love what you said, that things happen for a reason. I consider myself very religious but not conservative. And I believe in what you said so strongly! I don't see it right now but I know things worked out for the best. Love you so much! <33

[kinky_nuts]

Why don't you write to him?

[frozen_girl]

I would..I want to..but I know it's best to leave it behind me. It wouldn't change anything. If I ever see him again, I promise myself to tell him how I feel heh. Who knows, I'll probably have long forgotten him by then. xxx

[kinky_nuts]

But if you write to him you could say the goodbye you couldn't/didn't say when you left...its not like you are going to be contining writing letters, just one to say goodbye

[frozen_girl]

Heh I don't have his address..lol. When we wrote letters to each other before, we gave them in person. I'd love to get another chance to talk to him actually, so I can see his reaction, a response, just something.

[_fallenxdreams]

goodbyes are tough. and esspecially if u love them. i really hope things get better and they will. with time. if u guys are meant to be, it will happen <33

[frozen_girl]

Thanks. I know it'll get better, it always does. I was just surprised at how poorly I was handling this. <33

[dizzy_freak]

Hey sweetie. I kinda know what you mean. It's hard to let go of people when you know you have to.

Now atleast you know what your looking for in a guy.. and I'm sure the perfect one for you is out there somewhere. It'll be hard trying not to compare them to him, but to be honest you don't need to. LH was special to you and he probably always will be but everyone is special in their own way. It might not seem like you'll find someone better, but I know you will.

If things were meant to be between you both it would have happened by now. I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if that reason isn't apparant right now.

Anyway chick... keep smiling. :o) xxx

[frozen_girl]

Aw hun, thanks. I never imagined this would be so hard but I know I'll be ok. I've been through some tough times before. I really do hope to find someone new, that's why I can't wait to start uni. But honestly, I think it'll take ages before I fall for someone this deeply again.

Heh I'm imagining myself 5 years from now when none of this will matters. I'd like to see him then, maybe at a reunion or something. It would just be cool to see where are lives would stand then and I'd probably go "Me in love with him? What was I thinking??" lol.
Luv ya sweetie! :D

[dizzy_freak]

lol.. its always great when that happens. I feel like that when I see or speak to Rhys now. I just stand there thinking 'what was I thinking!!?!'

I know you'll find some perfect guy who'll take care of you... the problem will be keeping all the others away. (I'm sure there a so many guys that 'like' you!!)

xxxx

[delicatexflower]

Hang in there. I know how it's like to hide emotions from the ones you truly want to show them to. I try and hide my emotions when my best friend talks about the girl he's in love. It's so heartbreaking when your in love with the guy and he's in love with someone who treats him so coldly, and while you treat them so well. *shakes head* I'm sorry. I got into that too deeply. just hang in there and know that I care for you ;) x x x