Its strange how no matter what everyday i just can't keep myself from crying, how every single day I break down. Its strange how someone who i barely talk to anymore knows me better than I know myself, how I play these mind games with myself, how I don't want to be okay. How i make myself believe I'm not okay. How they know I'm struggling with my ( Read more... )

I typed out an entire entry& realized i sound ridiculous & deleted the whole thing. I don't have much to say, at all. I'm content with life & everything. I probably won't be updating anymore but i'll have pictures soon, from the middle of summmer to now. yeah.

My heart can’t possibly break, when it wasn’t even whole to start with Why does it take thinking you've lost someone to realize you love them? Decisions made for the wrong reasons don't last.. Can't let impulse, jealousy, override reason... Then again, what does reason have to do with love? I don't think there's anything more tragic than bad timing ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

wow im pretty excited haha, i dont even know why, i dont feel like its my birthday one bit. Basically yesterday we had a cookout, Adam met my family, like besides my parents that was good. A few weeks ago i got my tongue peirced without my parents know, they found out yesterday, haha thay suck. They'r enot too mad and they ( Read more... )

Summer came, and just as quickly left. It had its high point but a ton of lows. I hung out with the three people I love more than life, but right now we're not so well. I said the words 'I love you' to my boyfriend that I would die for. I fell in love this summer with an amazing boy who i never knew what capable of doing such a thing to me. I went ( Read more... )

any minute im not with you
i  h o p e  i l l  s e e  y o u  s o o n
theres just something that happens
when you walk into the room
and instantly i feel so complete
it hits me right about the time you kiss my cheek
and you give me this feeling
its like no other feeling
but it knocks me off my feet
please dont ask me what i like about you
cause its every ( Read more... )

basically summer is over, fuck that. It wasnt even that good. Yeah i had some amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend, but my vacation wasnt even that good, and i feel like i accomplished nothing, i made over 2000 dollars, so what? fuck work, fuck school fuck friends fuck life ( Read more... )

Wow, i am so fucked up from the medication. I'm addicted to it. I've taken over 30 pills within about 5 days or less. My mom is worried, & is trying to hide them. I'm a wreck & i cant do without them. The side effects suck like your mom. Go away bipolar, I fucking hate you. I'm happy remember? Get away from me. My stitches ripped out, my face is ( Read more... )

The first two days after getting my wisdom teeth out were completly normal. Now, im just a complete wreck, if the pain would go away i would be happy. I'm addicted to these pain killers, & can't stop taking them, I take way too many way too soon ( Read more... )

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