So at work today i was think and this was kind of pissing me off. i work twice as hard as any of my friends or explorers. I fucking work two jobs, working 13 plus hours fricken 4 times a week. Do I bitch? Do I moan? No I dont say shit. I keep my mouth shut and i do my work and I dont say shit. I try and make the best of things I really fucking do. ( Read more... )

So I have friends that tell me I need help, I know Im depressed, but i feel there is nothing i can do about it. I dont want to seek help and have them label me "Clinically Depressed" and have it go in some record somewhere that the fire department can find it and not wanna hire me because i could be a liablity or something along those lines. So ( Read more... )

Yeah same shit, different day. Im getting better about my ex. I still miss her alot, but i dont hurt as much. Im heading to a paramedic competition on tuesday in orlando which is going to fun, hopefully we score high in the student devision. My parents have been out of town for about a week now and Im so fucking bored, I mean my friends have been ( Read more... )

So its been awhile since i wrote in this stupid thing, the great girlfriend that i wrote about in previous entries has now left me, about a month and half ago....I just found out last night she is sleeping with another guy, but she also is dating him....2 years didnt mean shit to her...So I guess i went out and did somethings with a friend of hers ( Read more... )

I just got done watching "The Guardian" Very good movie. Kind of makes me glad that I choose the right career. Coast Guard is a crazy thing. I have a new respect for The Coast Guard. Well it got me thinking alittle, and I wrote this ( Read more... )

I feel like there is something missing in my life, and I have no idea of what it could be. Its a mild depression and I dont like it. I have everything i need right now, A great girlfriend, a job, about to start my EMT class again. Maybe I feel like Luis and Randy wont hang out with me anymore, I dont know. Im changing my Life, I have stopped ( Read more... )

So The NREMT has screwed me over, fucking bastards. because of them i know have to go back and take all of my EMT class over again. I failed the state test once for my lisence and the NREMT was suppost to send a re-examanation packet, but they failed to do that. I had one year from the time i completed the EMT class to take my test and that ( Read more... )

So last night I went out and got another tattoo with lizz. It was quite entertaining. Mine hurt like hell, but it comes from the heart

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Well I just signed up for my NREMT- which is Naiontional Registered Emergency Medical Technician, June 29th So hopefully I will pass. So Im going to start putting alot of time into studying. Im getting my new tattoo tonight....But shhh Dont tell my parents they might get mad, but if I already have it they will be mad but can do nothing about it. So ( Read more... )

Waz Happen everyone? Not much here just working waiting to take my EMT refresher class so I can get my state license. You know gotta do what I gotta do, So Im going to get a another tattoo tomorrow with Lizz, Its going to be a bleeding heart with a banner that says "Live and Let Die" and i want it to have a small little pool of blood under it, Im ( Read more... )