:Is it bad that I don't really want to see my boyfriend, even though I haven't seen him since Sunday night ( Read more... )

Here I go again ( Read more... )

They look so pretty when I sleep ( Read more... )

But I don't give a shit. I need some sort of record of my life that isn't just on paper, even though this site will probably be shut down some day ( Read more... )

It all happened one pre-Halloween night ( Read more... )

Feeling alone when you're all alone... is perfectly acceptable. Realizing that most the men you date are lying sacks of douche isn't. Fuck, man. You'd think I'd have that figured out by now...

my eyes sting with rings of disappointment.

Fuck the holidays.

Last time, you heard from me, I was still living with my sister.
Much has changed:

1. I live in my own apartment
2. The D-douchebag is no longer in my life.
3. I'm not a virgin anymore.
4. I have a good friend up here.
5. I had sex with a second person and.... guh, it was not smart.
6. I got drunk by myself today and cried.

The biggest lesson I need to ( Read more... )

My life has slowly been deteriorating, as if it were left soaking in lemons.

I fucked up and almost killed my car yesterday, then had to pay close to $400 to get her running again. That's money I had saved for my apartment. I'm not exactly sure if I'm even going to get the apartment. I have to be out by the end of the month, so I'm kind of fucked if ( Read more... )

And it's all downhill from here.

Life's been crazy. I'm sorry I haven't posted, but... yeah. A lot has happened and maybe one of these days I'll feel up to letting it all out on here.

The gyst of it; I'm tired. Really fucking tired.

...moutain tops level like parking lots...