my eyes shift out of focus ( Read more... )

too much caffeine and nicotine to sleep

high on misery that runs too deep.

cut across my mind's eye

see what hides inside.

nightmares and tales you wouldn't dream

sickening sights that would make you scream.

each one with their own desire

laid out in open would set a fire.

walk away from my delirious mind

they'll suck you in from the spine.

leave me drowning ( Read more... )

desecrated.
ruins of sacred altars,
gods of our desires
all left to crumble
in our infinite wake.

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i hear you packing.
first drawer screaming,
socks and shirts
shuffled into duffle bags.
buried under
a facade of sheets,
my eyes closed tight
i couldn't bare to see your face.
are you looking at me?
are you angry?
are you crying?
i am. silently.
i feel your heat
drifting by the moment.
clinks of keys
you're returning mine,
on the dresser
next to our picture.
i hear ( Read more... )

crack and burn,

see the flames engulf

the pale of my skin.

snatched up in misery

i lay with deliriums

and watch my own flesh

peel and twist

in the fire you set.

retract your hand

its too harsh for you,

you can't imagine

the whispered voices

scorching my screams.

don't touch me

don't try to save me.

look with wicked eyes

at the solemn inferno

you condemned me to.

let ( Read more... )

when the letter came,

i fell to the floor

breaking my soul on it's descent.

letters so cruelly

twirling on the page,

played out my demise

with each strum of goodbye.

my eyes swelled and blurred

trembling over the words,

crafted so carefully

to drive the knife deepest

and with cold steel,

it filled me.

when the letter came

a piece of me died

on that cerulean floor ( Read more... )

my throat closes down,

my mind screams till it bleeds,

fingers rip through my chest

spilling all the atrocities.

tattered organ beating so

faintly, lean in to hear.

see the sighs and lies

escaping?

no of course not.

your eyes were branded

seared shut long ago.

i have a collection

of daggers so grand,

piercing silently that heart

the piece of me that's left

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look at you

all dressed in black

with crimson around your neck.

my fingers run along

your gleaming suit,

it might as well be armor.

i feel your heart beat

'neath my trembling hands.

the chapel's filled to the brim,

this is the event

everyone waited for,

this moment of delight,

of finality.

the music starts.

my heart breaks

just a little more

as the doors open.

i ( Read more... )

i stagger out of bed ( Read more... )

                     You know that kind of pain when your eyes are constantly teary and all you can do is rock back and forth? You've already cried all you could and yelled until your lungs burned. You know it won't get any better but you foolishly hope anyway, for just one moment somewhere in the day when you forget about all the pain you're ( Read more... )