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[chuchama]

Title: As Wisdom Grows (3/3)
Characters/Pairing: Kurt/Mike, Mr. and Mrs. Chang, Burt Hummel, Glee club, Mr. Schue, Miss Pilsbury
Rating: R for swearing and references to rape.
Word Count: 7,107 for this part, 22,000 in total
Summary: Mike gets raped. Kurt just tries to help him through it.
Warnings: There are references to rape.

Notes: For the Mike

Comments

[m3aculpa]

I went back and read this entire thing. I think I actually stopped breathing a few times because I wanted to know what happened next. I think you did an amazing job on such a difficult topic and the way Kurt and Mike ended were cute. It was also very realistic how Mike was not fine immediately, that they're taking it slow.

It was really well-written, is what I'm trying to say. I just feel like that if I was speaking out loud, I would do it really quickly without breathing because this was amazing :)

[chuchama]

The fact that you went back and read the whole entire thing in one sitting is kind of impressive because this thing is ridiculously long, which is 100% due to them taking it slow. The sad thing? I sort of feel like they could have taken it even slower but did not have the time to write it like that. Then this thing would be, like, 60k, oh my god. So it's all for the best, since this is already drawn out enough as is. Thank you for reading!

[whitearchmage]

I'll be honest; I had to stop reading several times and read some comedy because it was literally leaving me breathless. It was really good, like, have my heart in an insanely tight hold and not letting go.

The whole scene where Mike's confessing that he may have feelings for Kurt, that they may be romantic but probably are just very dependent; that, and almost all their interactions afterwards, almost made me cry. Love how you handled their relationship at the end; baby steps, never forcing anything and no super-magic-healing-powers-of-love(or cock, as the case may be; really, sex would be the worst idea there; great thing you mentioned that), I'd like to add in my head that they got through all the issues and eventually got to make out and more, but that's neither here nor there :P

[chuchama]

It wasn't...that good. Like. I don't even know, I'm just flattered. I am also really glad that Mike's feelings and the whole fragility of the relationship translated. It was my biggest worry that it wouldn't convey well and then everything would just be confusing. Ha ha, and I like your happy ending assumption in your head.

[momoda6]

This story is amazing. <3 The whole recollection of the audition I kind of half stopped breathing I think. I kind of want to hug Mike even though it'd make him freak a little bit.

[chuchama]

Thank you. I wasn't sure if an explicit audtion recollection was needed for a while there, I kept arguing over the matter with myself, but finally decided that it was because it sort of tied everything together and explained all the little problems that had been plaguing Mike throughout the whole story. Good to know that it was effective and not just pointless angst lumped in there like I had originally feared it'd become before writing it.

[momoda6]

I think it was good. You kind of needed to clarify what happened to clear up the loose ends, and because it's kind of a breakthrough for Mike. You needed to explain things like the link of the sound of the drink and the belt and stuff, and really how Mike managed to fall for it all. Because it kind of does sound like a normal audition, and it's clear that he really didn't make any mistakes, but the way that Mike is recalling it and saying that he should have realised and stuff kind of tell us that he doesn't know that.

And yeah... I don't think it was really that explicit, since it was more focusing on the mental aspect of it rather than the more uncomfortable details. It was still pretty hard-hitting though.

*is rambling* Conclusion: The whole thing was awesome.

[chuchama]

I enjoy rambling analyzing comments, they're fun to read. But yeah, exactly what you said, it was needed, I had to stop being a wuss and just do it. And no, it wasn't explicit in the sense of what was happening physically, you're right, and that just wasn't what I wanted. I actually, very briefly, started a scene like that and hated it two sentences in because the tone was so awkwardly unblended with the rest of the story and it couldn't touch on what Mike was thinking. And that's been this whole story, Mike thinkingSo. Yeah, whew, practically three million edits later and I suppose it was worth it. As for Mike's self-blaming...yeah, he still has a long way to go towards recovering, even if he doesn't realize/want to acknowledge it

[nakotaco]

Oh ;; I almost don't want this to be the end, just because I'm loving the way you're having their relationship develop and I really want to see Mike heal.

But also this is wonderful amazing and it's kind of painful, but in a good way, and I just want to keep it forever ♥

[chuchama]

I thought it'd be best to just end on a hopeful note because that's where they are right now, just hopeful and waiting to see if they can really work out such a tentative relationship. I understand where you're coming from though, I keep pondering over all the what ifs of their relationship and the psychological importance of it to Mike and his recovering. Which is stupid since it's my own story and I should be a little more clear as to where the fade to black goes, you know?

Anyway, that aside, thank you so much for reading and thinking so highly of it.

[dipenates]

This is just fantastic. Beautifully written, and paced, and you handled a million characters and their completely plausible reactions without it ever feeling like too much.

This is my very favourite kind of angst, which tackles its subject with real emotional honesty and a light touch, and ends with some hope. And, as much as I could have read another ~200k words of this, I think that you stopped in a very good place.

I love this to pieces, and will be saving this to read it again. Amazing, amazing job and thank you for sharing!