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"this is the time of year i will mess up all of the good things i have going for me.
i will screw up every relationship i am in.
and i wont notice until at least January.
i go numb.
and i don't know how to come back."
i love that i know myself.
i knew this was coming.
i know the effect.
i just wish i knew the cause.
i wish i was in tawas.
i need to give Brittany a huge hug.