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[kidorhi]

My name's Tab. I'm 22. Immersed in college life though not actually attending at the moment. I live in Oregon. I've transitioned socially (masculine pronouns and references, use the men's room, bind, always shirt and tie in dressup situations, etc.) and am generally seen as a guy by folks who don't have any reason to go deeper, and I like that

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[stronger_still]

I had a hysto in 97, getting rid of that was the most important thing to me. Legal name change in 2000, started testosterone in October of last year. Spent many many years agonizing over it. Best thing I have ever done. I don't care if I get anymore physical changes, just the addition of the right hormone for me has made all the difference in the world.

For sure.

[meat_cookies]

Wonderful! I'm glad to see you'll be one of the many great performers on the eastern leg of this year's Roadshow.

[blisteringherb]

I'll definitely be seeing you perform in PHilly when the show gets here.

[happy_jack_2005]

I'm not that invested in "trying to be a man"

Interesting comment: care to elaborate? With T, are you expecting to take it for a little while and then back off, or will you go full throttle with a full dose?

With the latter, you can't help but be seen by others as a man--even after just a few shots. Is that something you want, or are you more interested in living with a gender-fluid identity?

I think it's interesting to see that Generation Y (for lack of a better term) seems to be more open to gender fluidity. I feel like I'm getting old--even as a Gen X'er--because I don't hear as much of this among my groups. Binary thinking seems to be the typical thought process.

[kidorhi]

At this point, joining/upholding any monolith of "man" is not my personal goal. I am who I am, and I want to change my body. I know that T will also affect the way I think, feel, react. More on what I'm aware of: http://kidorhi.livejournal.com/174807.html

With T, are you expecting to take it for a little while and then back off, or will you go full throttle with a full dose?

I'm thinking I'll start slow (topical, as mentioned above, or "lower" dose injections, as mentioned in the linked post) and see how it goes. And right now, yeah, I could see myself stopping at some point, if I don't think it's right for me anymore.

With the latter, you can't help but be seen by others as a man--even after just a few shots.I'm already seen as a man (well, young man), or assumed to be on T around folks in the know. Masculine pronouns and references are consistent. I grow some visible facial scruff (chest and belly too) and have been shaving for a few years now. My voice is passably

[happy_jack_2005]

I must say, you've got it together and are really self-aware and aware of where you're going. I wish my thought processes had been that developed at your age: could have saved me a lot of heartache later.

I hadn't heard of the Tranny Roadshow before your post. What will you be doing on the tour?

[kidorhi]

Thanks. I feel like I'm finally able to state my reasons concisely without just shrugging and mumbling. I've been on a couple of panels and fell into the "I've always felt like a boy trapped in a girl's body" type of talking because it was easy and understandable for other people, but noticed that I felt uncomfortable with claiming that as my story, which was more like "I'm not a girl and I'm not a boy, but I'm closer to boy, and better than either." LOL I thought that up in elementary school, and it still holds true now. It's open-ended enough for lots of exploring, but narrows it down a bit.

I'll be telling stories and reciting poetry on the roadshow. I may even pick up a guitar. We'll see.