I might hate you 8/12 (?) part 1
Title : I might hate you.
Author : fuckyeahshinee
Pairing : Jongkey
Genre : fluff, kindofnotreally!angst, drama
Rating : PG - PG-13
Disclaimer : shineeowner owns them, lol.
Summary : must read. (kind-of prologue)
A/N : Lol, like I promised. My finals are over, so I'm going to concentrate on this fic.
I also have other idea's for We're different.
I hope you like those one shots, lolololol.
Btw, I found a beta, (kpopbiased ~ ♥) soo ~ no more engrish-warning.
I'm so happy I found one *sigh* it really frustrated me that I had to make my updates public knowing that it had so many grammar mistakes whatsoever in it.
lol, so yeah, this chapter contains drama. uhuhu ...
I'm sorry for chapter 7, I totally rushed the last part of that chapter since it was already darn late and I had to go to sleep, but I just had to add the last part. ♥
Krystal was silent the last couple of days. She was still hurt because of me leaving her hanging. Though we didn't bring up the subject anymore, I still felt the awkward tension between us. She was very suspicious about me and Kibum, and it's not that I wasn't scared of her finding out what we had. I just didn't bother trying to be even more discrete since that was kind of impossible. And besides, it's not like Kibum and I really had something going on. It's only because of the fact that he was a Sophomore and I was a Junior that people would freak out.
"You know, you should come to my place some weekend." I suggested to him while we were taking a walk in the park.
He nodded in agreement, "That'd be fun. It would be such a relief to be somewhere else instead of school." He emphasized the last word with a roll of the eyes and an exaggerated sigh.
I chuckled, "Yeah ... But not this weekend because Heechul is probably coming over."
Kibum nodded, "Okay ... But ain't there a chance he would be standing in front of your door while I'm there ?"
I shrugged, "I'll hide you."
Kibum snickered, "Deal."
###
"Hey, what's up with her ?" Taemin asked, nudging his head to where Jessica was sitting at the table, with her hands in her hair.
Donghae was standing next to her, one hand on her back giving her reassuring pats, "Kibum missed practice for the third time this week,"
"What ?! Again ?" Taemin's eyes widened.
"Didn't you notice then ?" Donghae asked, one eyebrow higher than the other.
"I wasn't at practice either, I had a doctor's appointment." He admitted, looking at Jessica with a concerned expression.
Eunhyuk plopped down in the seat beside Jessica, "Wassuuupp ~" He grinned, giving the girl a playful push.
Jessica slowly turned her head in his direction, giving him one of her deadliest glares.
Eunhyuk flinched a bit, "wow ..."
Taemin shook his head, "She's pissed off. Kibum missed practice again."
Eunhyuk dropped his fork, "What !!?" He looked at the two boys in front of him with a disbelieving look on his face.
" ... Didn't you notice ?" Dongae asked once again.
"No !!" Eunhyuk knitted his eyebrows together.
"Hm ... well, it's already the third time this week that he didn't show up. And we always end up talking to his voicemail when we call him so ..." He responded.
"What's up with this guy !! If he's going to ruin the dance battle, I swear, he's going down !!!" He raged in frustration.
"Yeah, I know ... and it's already within 2 weeks." Taemin added.
"Oh god, I swear ..." Eunhyuk started, clutching his fist.
###
A couple of days passed by and Kibum and I always met up at the main entrance to go to the park or to take a walk whatsoever. We never let a chance for us to be together slip through our fingers, or actually, I never did. I didn't know what his feelings towards me were but I had a pretty good premonition. He never complained when I held his hand, he never looked at me awkwardly when I told him he was cute or pretty, and blushed instead, he smiled when I kissed him even when there was no intention of kissing him. He never asked me about my feelings, and I don't really think I was ready to tell him already. I don't think I could give more hints than I've already given. And I didn't want to be so obvious. But I just couldn't seem to stop acting so damn love struck when he was in my presence.
I was always walking on clouds and I wasn't aware whether anybody was suspecting anything. I was aware that Krystal suspected something but I have never thought that maybe Jinki or Sulli would have noticed. I always used homework as an excuse to skip eating lunch in the canteen. If not, I would just tell them that I wasn't feeling well and decided to stay in my room. Jinki always shrugged. Sulli always asked if she could help me with anything, which I refused politely. And Heechul just ignored me.
But time after time, it indeed became a bit suspicious. Well, I couldn't care less. As long as I could spend time with Kibum, everything was all right to me.
It was, right ? I thought that everything went just perfect, me and Kibum friends even through all the resistance. Sophomores, Juniors ... Juniors, Sophomores. I didn't care anymore.
Kibum was much more than just a Sophomore to me now.
###
"That's it !!!!" A yell could be heard through the canteen.
Jessica forcefully pushed open the heavy doors, stomping to the table where the rest were seated.
"I can't take it anymore !!!!" She shouted in frustration.
The students in the canteen suddenly talked to each other much more silently, some of them whispering things in other's ears while looking at the girl. She sat down, but immediately jumped up again, too angry to sit still.
"Kibum ?" Taemin asked her without looking up from his tray.
She grumbled in response, hands on her hips.
Nobody dared to guess what was going on in her head right now. It was probably the most inappropriate ideas of Kibum disappearing in a mysterious way, to never be found again.
"What happened this time ?" Eunhyuk raised his eyebrow as he handed Donghae a tissue so that he could wipe away the drops of water, or what he preferred to call as "bacteria", he created when he drank from his bottle.
Jessica turned around, pursing her lips together and ravaging her hair as she tied it roughly in a ponytail.
"I offered him private lessons so that he could keep up with practice, but he missed it again !!!!!" She groaned, letting out another yell of frustration.
"What ?!!" Eunhyuk responded in disbelief, "I thought he went to practice yesterday !!"
Jessica stomped over to him, placing her palms flat on the surface of the long table with a bam, hovering over the trays and bringing her face closer to Eunhyuk, "No. he. didn't." She hissed, leaning back.
Minho joined the table with a tray in his hands, raising his eyebrows at Eunhyuk who clutched his fists and slammed them against the table forcefully.
"If this guy is going to ruin our dance battle, I swear he's going to regret it !!!!" He eventually got out angrily, standing up and walking to the folded doors with big strides.
"What's with him ?" Minho asked unsurely, not really sure if he wanted to know.
Taemin sighed, looking up to the taller boy, "Kibum,"
That name already said enough. Minho sat down quietly, eyeing Donghae who was cleaning his hands with a couple of wipes, it was like he wanted to say something, but couldn't bring out.
###
"Where's Jonghyun this time ?" Sulli asked, disappointed because of the boy's absence.
"He said he wanted to practice," Heechul said matter-of-factly.
"Why does he practice that often all of a sudden? I don't recognize him anymore," The girl sighed, poking her chicken.
"I bet he just realized that he's a lousy student," Jinki snickered at his own remark, stuffing a piece of meat into his mouth.
Heechul shrugged, "He's acting really weird these days. He seems off world."
He looked at Krystal who was silently eating, "I kind of have to agree with Krystal, he really acts weird now."
Krystal slowly looked up, giving him an awkward smile. She knew all too well what was going on with Jonghyun these past days, but she couldn't tell the others. For hers and Jonghyun's sakes, that is. If she would tell them, Jonghyun would ignore her forever, and Jonghyun would also be in big, big trouble. And she didn't want to ruin it for her everlasting crush, even if he left her hanging for their walk in the park.
"The only thing that's weird about him is that he doesn't join us for lunch anymore," Sulli shrugged, standing up to throw the leftovers of her lunch away.
Jinki stopped her, "You don't want it anymore ?"
The girl shook her head, and motioned with her hand if the elder would like to have her chicken.
Jinki took the offer gratefully, and told her she could throw the rest away.
Heechul spoke up when Sulli sauntered to the other side of the room, "You know," He took a sip of his juice, "That Sophomore kid, the girly one, hasn't been in the canteen for weeks too." He remarked, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, looking over at the table where he normally sits with the other Sophomores.
Jinki was too busy munching on the piece of meat in his mouth to actually care, and Krystal sighed, seeking for something that could grab her attention.
###
"Wow, how old were you back then ?!" Kibum giggled, stumbling through the main entrance. There was nobody around in the corridors so we thought that it would be okay if we just entered the building there instead of sneaking in through the back door.
"Hm, seven I think ?" I answered him, throwing my arm comfortably over his shoulder.
"God, you jumped off a cliff when you were seven! that's weird!" He snickered, giving me a playful push.
"It wasn't that high," I laughed, bumping my hip against his, "and I actually just fell off it."
Kibum stopped in his tracks, "but you just said that you jumped off it," a cocky grin plastered on his face.
"that sounds cooler," I shrugged, sending him a suave wink before going further down the corridor. He held his hand in front of his face as he laughed at my pathetic attempt of acting all cool and awesome in his presence, which made him look like a girl even more. But it didn't make him any less cute.
###
"Where did Eunhyuk go?" Taemin asked curiously, and he got three shrugs in response.
He huffed because of the lack of enthusiasm at the table, but eventually decided to bear with it.
Donghae wandered around the canteen with his eyes, looking a bit helpless. And Minho looked at him with a questioning look.
"Yah, Donghae, what are you holding back ?" He asked a bit confused.
Donghae locked eyes with him and Jessica slowly turned his head to the boy, her rage already calmed down.
"Well, ..." He started, a bit insecure, "Kibum just acts really different, and he has been asking me weird questions too." He got out.
Taemin raised his eyebrows along with Jessica, "What kind of questions ?" The girl asked.
Donghae looked at nothing in particular, just staring in front of him, "He ... He asked me yesterday what boys do when they're in love with ... another guy."
Jessica's eyes widened, "What ?!!" She exclaimed.
The boy shrugged, "I don't know what's up with him,"
"Could he be gay ?" Taemin asked, emphasing the word gay with a frown, "I do have to admit that he looks like a girl, but could that make him gay ?"
Minho kept silent, poking his vegetables with his fork, "Well ..."
Jessica was still astonished by what Donghae just told them, standing at the head of the table so that she had a view of everybody sitting by it. She cocked her head to the side when Minho started talking, "I'm not sure, but Taemin and I saw him with Jonghyun a few weeks ago,"
Donghae narrowed his eyes, jerking his head to the table where Jonghyun's friends were seated.
He noticed the blonde's absence, dropping his fork at what Minho added, "And we kind of saw them kissing ?"
Taemin nodded enthusiastically, not that he was happy about it, but he wanted the others to believe what Minho was saying.
"What in the world ..." Jessica's eyes widened even more, if that was even possible, and placed her hands on the table, leaning on them.
"Well, not kissing like a couple ! But I think Kibum gave the other a kiss on the cheek," Minho added hesitantly.
"Are you sure it were those two ?!" Jessica asked, her voice raising.
Taemin nodded heavily, "They were both blonde and that's kind of rare in this school, so yeah !" He exclaimed.
Jessica looked to her right, just like Donghae, noticing that the boy wasn't there.
Donghae knitted his eyebrows together, "Yeah ... Kibum is in love." He said out loud, reminding back to the Friday night when he was with Kibum in their shared bedroom.
"Have you ever felt that tingly feeling ... when you see someone ?""Well ... yes."
"What does it mean."
Dongae frowned, why in the world was he asking this ?
"Uhm ... that's called love, Kibum." He snickered.
Could Kibum be ... in love with Jonghyun ?
part 2 here
Author : fuckyeahshinee
Pairing : Jongkey
Genre : fluff, kindofnotreally!angst, drama
Rating : PG - PG-13
Disclaimer : shineeowner owns them, lol.
Summary : must read. (kind-of prologue)
A/N : Lol, like I promised. My finals are over, so I'm going to concentrate on this fic.
I also have other idea's for We're different.
I hope you like those one shots, lolololol.
Btw, I found a beta, (kpopbiased ~ ♥) soo ~ no more engrish-warning.
I'm so happy I found one *sigh* it really frustrated me that I had to make my updates public knowing that it had so many grammar mistakes whatsoever in it.
lol, so yeah, this chapter contains drama. uhuhu ...
I'm sorry for chapter 7, I totally rushed the last part of that chapter since it was already darn late and I had to go to sleep, but I just had to add the last part. ♥
Krystal was silent the last couple of days. She was still hurt because of me leaving her hanging. Though we didn't bring up the subject anymore, I still felt the awkward tension between us. She was very suspicious about me and Kibum, and it's not that I wasn't scared of her finding out what we had. I just didn't bother trying to be even more discrete since that was kind of impossible. And besides, it's not like Kibum and I really had something going on. It's only because of the fact that he was a Sophomore and I was a Junior that people would freak out.
"You know, you should come to my place some weekend." I suggested to him while we were taking a walk in the park.
He nodded in agreement, "That'd be fun. It would be such a relief to be somewhere else instead of school." He emphasized the last word with a roll of the eyes and an exaggerated sigh.
I chuckled, "Yeah ... But not this weekend because Heechul is probably coming over."
Kibum nodded, "Okay ... But ain't there a chance he would be standing in front of your door while I'm there ?"
I shrugged, "I'll hide you."
Kibum snickered, "Deal."
###
"Hey, what's up with her ?" Taemin asked, nudging his head to where Jessica was sitting at the table, with her hands in her hair.
Donghae was standing next to her, one hand on her back giving her reassuring pats, "Kibum missed practice for the third time this week,"
"What ?! Again ?" Taemin's eyes widened.
"Didn't you notice then ?" Donghae asked, one eyebrow higher than the other.
"I wasn't at practice either, I had a doctor's appointment." He admitted, looking at Jessica with a concerned expression.
Eunhyuk plopped down in the seat beside Jessica, "Wassuuupp ~" He grinned, giving the girl a playful push.
Jessica slowly turned her head in his direction, giving him one of her deadliest glares.
Eunhyuk flinched a bit, "wow ..."
Taemin shook his head, "She's pissed off. Kibum missed practice again."
Eunhyuk dropped his fork, "What !!?" He looked at the two boys in front of him with a disbelieving look on his face.
" ... Didn't you notice ?" Dongae asked once again.
"No !!" Eunhyuk knitted his eyebrows together.
"Hm ... well, it's already the third time this week that he didn't show up. And we always end up talking to his voicemail when we call him so ..." He responded.
"What's up with this guy !! If he's going to ruin the dance battle, I swear, he's going down !!!" He raged in frustration.
"Yeah, I know ... and it's already within 2 weeks." Taemin added.
"Oh god, I swear ..." Eunhyuk started, clutching his fist.
###
A couple of days passed by and Kibum and I always met up at the main entrance to go to the park or to take a walk whatsoever. We never let a chance for us to be together slip through our fingers, or actually, I never did. I didn't know what his feelings towards me were but I had a pretty good premonition. He never complained when I held his hand, he never looked at me awkwardly when I told him he was cute or pretty, and blushed instead, he smiled when I kissed him even when there was no intention of kissing him. He never asked me about my feelings, and I don't really think I was ready to tell him already. I don't think I could give more hints than I've already given. And I didn't want to be so obvious. But I just couldn't seem to stop acting so damn love struck when he was in my presence.
I was always walking on clouds and I wasn't aware whether anybody was suspecting anything. I was aware that Krystal suspected something but I have never thought that maybe Jinki or Sulli would have noticed. I always used homework as an excuse to skip eating lunch in the canteen. If not, I would just tell them that I wasn't feeling well and decided to stay in my room. Jinki always shrugged. Sulli always asked if she could help me with anything, which I refused politely. And Heechul just ignored me.
But time after time, it indeed became a bit suspicious. Well, I couldn't care less. As long as I could spend time with Kibum, everything was all right to me.
It was, right ? I thought that everything went just perfect, me and Kibum friends even through all the resistance. Sophomores, Juniors ... Juniors, Sophomores. I didn't care anymore.
Kibum was much more than just a Sophomore to me now.
###
"That's it !!!!" A yell could be heard through the canteen.
Jessica forcefully pushed open the heavy doors, stomping to the table where the rest were seated.
"I can't take it anymore !!!!" She shouted in frustration.
The students in the canteen suddenly talked to each other much more silently, some of them whispering things in other's ears while looking at the girl. She sat down, but immediately jumped up again, too angry to sit still.
"Kibum ?" Taemin asked her without looking up from his tray.
She grumbled in response, hands on her hips.
Nobody dared to guess what was going on in her head right now. It was probably the most inappropriate ideas of Kibum disappearing in a mysterious way, to never be found again.
"What happened this time ?" Eunhyuk raised his eyebrow as he handed Donghae a tissue so that he could wipe away the drops of water, or what he preferred to call as "bacteria", he created when he drank from his bottle.
Jessica turned around, pursing her lips together and ravaging her hair as she tied it roughly in a ponytail.
"I offered him private lessons so that he could keep up with practice, but he missed it again !!!!!" She groaned, letting out another yell of frustration.
"What ?!!" Eunhyuk responded in disbelief, "I thought he went to practice yesterday !!"
Jessica stomped over to him, placing her palms flat on the surface of the long table with a bam, hovering over the trays and bringing her face closer to Eunhyuk, "No. he. didn't." She hissed, leaning back.
Minho joined the table with a tray in his hands, raising his eyebrows at Eunhyuk who clutched his fists and slammed them against the table forcefully.
"If this guy is going to ruin our dance battle, I swear he's going to regret it !!!!" He eventually got out angrily, standing up and walking to the folded doors with big strides.
"What's with him ?" Minho asked unsurely, not really sure if he wanted to know.
Taemin sighed, looking up to the taller boy, "Kibum,"
That name already said enough. Minho sat down quietly, eyeing Donghae who was cleaning his hands with a couple of wipes, it was like he wanted to say something, but couldn't bring out.
###
"Where's Jonghyun this time ?" Sulli asked, disappointed because of the boy's absence.
"He said he wanted to practice," Heechul said matter-of-factly.
"Why does he practice that often all of a sudden? I don't recognize him anymore," The girl sighed, poking her chicken.
"I bet he just realized that he's a lousy student," Jinki snickered at his own remark, stuffing a piece of meat into his mouth.
Heechul shrugged, "He's acting really weird these days. He seems off world."
He looked at Krystal who was silently eating, "I kind of have to agree with Krystal, he really acts weird now."
Krystal slowly looked up, giving him an awkward smile. She knew all too well what was going on with Jonghyun these past days, but she couldn't tell the others. For hers and Jonghyun's sakes, that is. If she would tell them, Jonghyun would ignore her forever, and Jonghyun would also be in big, big trouble. And she didn't want to ruin it for her everlasting crush, even if he left her hanging for their walk in the park.
"The only thing that's weird about him is that he doesn't join us for lunch anymore," Sulli shrugged, standing up to throw the leftovers of her lunch away.
Jinki stopped her, "You don't want it anymore ?"
The girl shook her head, and motioned with her hand if the elder would like to have her chicken.
Jinki took the offer gratefully, and told her she could throw the rest away.
Heechul spoke up when Sulli sauntered to the other side of the room, "You know," He took a sip of his juice, "That Sophomore kid, the girly one, hasn't been in the canteen for weeks too." He remarked, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, looking over at the table where he normally sits with the other Sophomores.
Jinki was too busy munching on the piece of meat in his mouth to actually care, and Krystal sighed, seeking for something that could grab her attention.
###
"Wow, how old were you back then ?!" Kibum giggled, stumbling through the main entrance. There was nobody around in the corridors so we thought that it would be okay if we just entered the building there instead of sneaking in through the back door.
"Hm, seven I think ?" I answered him, throwing my arm comfortably over his shoulder.
"God, you jumped off a cliff when you were seven! that's weird!" He snickered, giving me a playful push.
"It wasn't that high," I laughed, bumping my hip against his, "and I actually just fell off it."
Kibum stopped in his tracks, "but you just said that you jumped off it," a cocky grin plastered on his face.
"that sounds cooler," I shrugged, sending him a suave wink before going further down the corridor. He held his hand in front of his face as he laughed at my pathetic attempt of acting all cool and awesome in his presence, which made him look like a girl even more. But it didn't make him any less cute.
###
"Where did Eunhyuk go?" Taemin asked curiously, and he got three shrugs in response.
He huffed because of the lack of enthusiasm at the table, but eventually decided to bear with it.
Donghae wandered around the canteen with his eyes, looking a bit helpless. And Minho looked at him with a questioning look.
"Yah, Donghae, what are you holding back ?" He asked a bit confused.
Donghae locked eyes with him and Jessica slowly turned his head to the boy, her rage already calmed down.
"Well, ..." He started, a bit insecure, "Kibum just acts really different, and he has been asking me weird questions too." He got out.
Taemin raised his eyebrows along with Jessica, "What kind of questions ?" The girl asked.
Donghae looked at nothing in particular, just staring in front of him, "He ... He asked me yesterday what boys do when they're in love with ... another guy."
Jessica's eyes widened, "What ?!!" She exclaimed.
The boy shrugged, "I don't know what's up with him,"
"Could he be gay ?" Taemin asked, emphasing the word gay with a frown, "I do have to admit that he looks like a girl, but could that make him gay ?"
Minho kept silent, poking his vegetables with his fork, "Well ..."
Jessica was still astonished by what Donghae just told them, standing at the head of the table so that she had a view of everybody sitting by it. She cocked her head to the side when Minho started talking, "I'm not sure, but Taemin and I saw him with Jonghyun a few weeks ago,"
Donghae narrowed his eyes, jerking his head to the table where Jonghyun's friends were seated.
He noticed the blonde's absence, dropping his fork at what Minho added, "And we kind of saw them kissing ?"
Taemin nodded enthusiastically, not that he was happy about it, but he wanted the others to believe what Minho was saying.
"What in the world ..." Jessica's eyes widened even more, if that was even possible, and placed her hands on the table, leaning on them.
"Well, not kissing like a couple ! But I think Kibum gave the other a kiss on the cheek," Minho added hesitantly.
"Are you sure it were those two ?!" Jessica asked, her voice raising.
Taemin nodded heavily, "They were both blonde and that's kind of rare in this school, so yeah !" He exclaimed.
Jessica looked to her right, just like Donghae, noticing that the boy wasn't there.
Donghae knitted his eyebrows together, "Yeah ... Kibum is in love." He said out loud, reminding back to the Friday night when he was with Kibum in their shared bedroom.
"Have you ever felt that tingly feeling ... when you see someone ?""Well ... yes."
"What does it mean."
Dongae frowned, why in the world was he asking this ?
"Uhm ... that's called love, Kibum." He snickered.
Could Kibum be ... in love with Jonghyun ?
part 2 here