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[fumbling_for]

confustion has been everything that has been on my mind, losing touch of what i want through a mess of things i hate, i am having a moment of clarity right now and i know my feeling are true for what i have held close to my heart for so long, for the past week or two i have lost sight of all that....jessica, and i know you have seen this too and i

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[recitemysadness]

new lj: deadchinadoll_

[fumbling_for]

i got it already <33 =)

[scissor_quiz]

oh dear. *hugs* girls bring to much trouble...

<3

[fumbling_for]

yeah well so does life and i live through that.....

[chemical_partyx]

aww

[dreamstigmata]

poor cookie. *pats*

dear, it confuses me so much that your hair is black now. yeah. i'm like "wtf is that pic...oh. right."

<333 audri and gi have a two shows today, and two tomorrow. you should call me so we can chill. 3109236634 (since you never seem to know it, no matter how many times i give it to you.)

[fumbling_for]

well i dont even know who i am anymore

[dreamstigmata]

okay my ickle drama queen. <333

*sigh* what are we going to do with you, trevor?

hee! i didn't notice your pants before, in the pic. whee. cute. i like them.

[injectluvstouch]

trevor,
i am so confused. this entry caught me completely off guard and i don't know what direction you were intending on leading my heart to, but its all up in the air now. i'm receiving all these mixed signals from you and i can't make sense of it anymore. you've become so distant from me, even when you're only an inch away. and lately i've been pouring out my feelings to you and they just haven't been reciprocated. i've been biting my lip, trying to hold words back and choking down my pride everytime you would say soemthing hurtful to me. i felt like i needed to accept every word you said and with every word followed my millions of sorries.... and i'm not happy anymore, trevor. everyday with you has become a struggle to just get you to stay. i don't know what you want from me anymore , but i'll continue to fight this battle until the bloody end (if it had to come down to that). i love you to death, trevor. i really do.

panda bear

[fumbling_for]

this was actually a positive thing, it was showing that i finaly realized and am confronting my feelings for you instead of ignoring them and making things worse.....things are going to be ok. just give me some time to get everything in order =)

<33333

Trevor

[fumbling_for]

never mind, i take those hearts back and trade them in for daggers that you will peirce through my heart.....