A Gift for My Boyfriend :: My Wish (Sungmin’s Birthday Special) ::
Title: A Gift for My Boyfriend :: My Wish (Sungmin’s Birthday Special) ::
Author: fumiyo92
Pairings: Kyumin, !Brotherly Teukmin
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, angst
Summary: On his birthday, Sungmin just wish that Kyuhyun was there, with him. Would he get what he was wishing for?
Warning: There will be a lot of flashback in this story ^^
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Sungmin open his eyes when he feel the sunlight on his face. He see to the window and find that someone was standing there, opening the closed curtain. ‘Kyunie…’ he smile with his own thought but it vanish as soon as he saw who it was.
“You awake?” Leeteuk said, smiling at him while approaching him, “Sorry to wake you up, hm?” he caress his hair lovingly, “It’s breakfast time. Now get ready… everyone was already waiting for you outside” he pull him up and push him to the bathroom before leaving the room to meet the other member.
Leeteuk get out from Sungmin room and find the other was already on the dining room, waiting for the birthday boy to show up, “Where is Sungmin-hyung?” Ryeowook asked, preparing the breakfast for all of them, ”We can’t start if he wasn’t here”
He smile and sit on the dining chair, “He’s on the bathroom now”
“Hyung…” he look up only to find Donghae look at him hopelessly, “Do you think he can be happy today? I’m tired seeing him like this…”
“Yeah… hopefully he can be the old Sungmin again…” he said, looking at the pink cake on the dining table. “We have to be happy today, maybe he will realize that he still have us”
“Ah Sungmin-hyung…” Siwon approach him and sit him on the dining chair. Sungmin eyes widen slightly when he see a cake and a lot of food was on the dining table, “Happy Birthday!!” the other member shouted happily.
Eunhyuk and Shindong were come out of nowhere holding a banner with his photo on there and a happy birthday letter in it, Leeteuk lit the candle and Ryeowook was placing the last food on the table. “Now… blow the candle and make a wish…” Leeteuk holding the cake in front of him, with wide smile plastered on his face. Sungmin look around the room, all of Super Junior member was there smiling at him, signaling him to quickly make a wish and blow the candle but his eyes watered when he realize that someone was missing. Kyuhyun wasn’t there…
Seeing the tears that fall from Sungmin eyes, Leeteuk place the cake on the table and hug him tightly, whispering some comforting words to him. Sungmin buried his face deeper on his hyung chest, clutching at the older shirt tightly, “I… I want him to be here, hyung…” Leeteuk look at the other member hopefully but he try hard to hold his tears when he see that the other member were do the same as him.
***
Sungmin sit on his bed, knees pull up to his chest and he hug it tightly. His birthday party was fail, he couldn’t bring himself to blow the candle and smile happily to the other member. After crying on Leeteuk chest, he hurriedly walk into his room and locked himself.
He look at the made up bed near his bed, that bed was empty since 6 months ago, signaling that te owner of that bed was not there. He get up from his bed and lie on the other bed, he buried his face deeper on the pillow, trying to smell the faint scent that left on the pillow. ‘Kyunie… I miss you…’
“Busan?” Sungmin place the book that he was reading before, he get up from his bed and approach his lover, “Why so sudden?”
“I don’t know… manager-hyung told me that I have to go to Busan today” Kyuhyun put some of his clothes to his bag hurriedly, not even look at Sungmin face when he was talking.
“When are you going?”
Kyuhyun look at the clock on the night stand and let out a frustrated growl, “In 1 hour. That manager-hyung didn’t tell me earlier” he curses while packing his things.
“How long?”
“I don’t know… maybe for 2 or 3 days”
“But Kyunie…” Sungmin sit on the edge of Kyuhyun bed, holding his boyfriend hand tightly make Kyuhyun to stop packing his things and sit beside him, “You promise that we’ll go on date tomorrow”
Kyuhyun smile at him, pulling him to his embrace, “I’m sorry, ne?” he kiss Sungmin forehead softly, “But we will go on date after I come from Busan”
“Promise?”
“Ne… I promise”
“Liar…” Sungmin whispered, hugging himself tightly, “You a liar, Kyuhyun…!” tears once again fall from his eyes, dampen the pillow underneath him.
“You’ll come back tomorrow?” Sungmin was lying on Kyuhyun bed holding Kyuhyun pillow tightly to his chest, “Really?” he said happily, he couldn’t help it… finally after 5 days without Kyuhyun, his lover would come back to his side.
“Ne, hyung… I’ll come back tomorrow…”Kyuhyun said on the other side of the phone.
“Finally~~” he let out a relief sigh, “You said it would just 2 or 3 days… and you never pick up my call even for once” he pouted when he remember how he call him every day and night just to know that Kyuhyun didn’t answer his call again and again.
“Sorry about that, hyung… manager-hyung take my cell phone from me. He said that no one could disturb me when we are on the location”
“But you are not on the location every time, right? Beside what this show about? You didn’t tell me about it. Is it that important until manager-hyung has to take your cell phone away?”
“Important eh? Not really… it just a normal show but yeah… there were some senior and politician too, well maybe for manager-hyung it was something important” Sungmin let out a chuckle when he hear his lover tone, “Don’t laugh Minnie…”
“I’m not…” he said, trying to hold back his laugh.
“Ne… after I get back, let’s have a date”
“Of course… you promise me that” Sungmin pout his lips, “Don’t tell me that you are forget about your own promise, Cho Kyuhyun”
“No… it’s not like that… I just want to ask you, where do you want to go, hm? I canceled it on the other day, so maybe I’ll let you pick the place”
“Where…?” Sungmin muttered, tapping his lips lightly, “I don’t know… well the one I could think right now is dinner. Ah! How about you pick the place as your punishment, eh?”
“Game center then. I couldn’t play a game since I got here”
“Aa~ how could you pick game center for our date, Kyu~” he whined, “You can always play a game once you get to dorm” he pout his lips again when he imagining his dating on the game center, “Beside… you will have a date with that game machine… not me”
He can hear Kyuhyun laugh after he said that, make him pouting his lips more, “I just want to tease you, hyung…” he laugh again, “I never know that it’ll work on you”
“Yah!! Are you make fun of me?”
“Don’t be mad, okay? I promise to take you to the most beautiful place in this world, ne?”
Sungmin seems to think for a while, ”But it has to be a real place… don’t bring me to your game world…”
He can hear Kyuhyun laugh once again, “No hyung… I’ll tell you when we got there tomorrow. Hyung… did you have any schedule tomorrow?”
“Yeah… I have one in the morning…”
“Go to sleep. It’s midnight already” Sungmin look at the clock just to find that it was midnight already. ”Let’s have a bet, hyung… I bet that I’ll be there when you woke up in the morning”
“How is that possible?”
“Let’s see it tomorrow, hm? I’ll be the one who wake you up from your sleep”
“You said that you’ll come back… you promise me that you’ll be here when I woke up… but why…? Why didn’t you come back…? Why are you leaving me…? You liar…” He buried his head deeper on the pillow, trying to muffle his sobs. “You know that I can’t live without you, Kyunie…”
Leeteuk POV
I shut the door softly and locked it quietly, trying not to disturb Sungmin from his mourning. A few months ago, we decide to copy the key of Sungmin room, in case he did something when he locked himself up. I don’t know what should I do anymore… we try everything we could but he didn’t want to move on… he seems didn’t have the will to live again. The lively Sungmin disappeared along with Kyuhyun on that day…
“Kyuhyun come back today?” I ask Sungmin who was busy eating his cereal. If Kyuhyun was come back today, why did he pouting his lips like that? Is there something wrong between the both of them?
“Ne hyung… he’ll comeback today”
“So… why are you look annoyed like that?
“He said that he’ll be here when I woke up but he didn’t. That Cho Kyuhyun always promise me something and then he was the one who broke it”
I chuckled slightly when I see his childish look, “Maybe there was something that made him couldn’t be here in the morning, Sungmin-ah…” I sit beside him, ruffling his hair playfully, “At least he’ll come home today, right?” he lowering his gaze before nodded his head slowly.
“Hyung!!!” I see Ryeowook come to dining room hurriedly. “Hyung!! Come!! There’s something important!!” he pull our hand and drag us to the family room.
Everyone was there, watching some news on the television and somehow seeing this make me feel uneasy, I look at Sungmin who was standing beside me. He bring his hand to his chest and clutch it tightly. Seems like it wasn’t just me who feel that way.”What happened?”
He ushered us to sit on the couch, as if telling us to see it by our self. Aircraft hijacking? I see at the headline on the news. Korean airlines? From Busan? The uneasiness growing on my chest. Isn’t that was supposed to be Kyuhyun plane?
I look at my side, Sungmin was biting his lips hardly, tears already gathered on his eyes. Sungmin… “Kyunie…” he whispered, clutching his chest tightly.
“We got a report earlier from our reporter. Korean Airlines from Busan to Seoul was crash in East China Sea earlier at 08.24 a.m. Earlier in the morning a group of people hijacking the plane and change their destination from Seoul to Jeju. We still don’t know what the cause of the plane crash but the police already try to find the cause of this plane crash. Rescuing team already sent to the location where the plane was drown to find the victim of this plane crash…”
“No…” I look at my side, tears were fall from Sungmin eyes, “It’s a dream” he muttered while slapping his cheeks hardly. “It just a dream… Kyunie will wake me up from this dream… it just a dream…” he keep muttering it again and again, hugging his body tightly.
I shift to his side and hug him tightly, not long after that I feel that the other member was doing the same. we keep our hopes high, we keep telling our self that Kyuhyun will manage to survive, that he will come back to us… he will be with us again… singing together, dancing together, doing everything together but it was become a loud cry when we hear the news…
“No one survive from the plane crash… the rescuing team were still trying so hard to removed the victim from inside of the drowning plane. Here is the list of the plane passenger… 128. Cho Kyuhyun…”
“How is he, hyung?” that question bring me to reality, I turn around and found Eunhyuk was there, holding a glass of water on his hand, he looks really worried about Sungmin… everyone were worried about him. He never smile again… even though when we were on stage, his smile was forced and it will vanish as soon as we left the stage. Everyone know about it, and they were worried about his well being.
“He’s crying again…” he walk closer to the door but before he open it, I hold his hand, “Don’t…”
“But hyung…”
“Let him alone for a while… I’ll talk on him when he was calm enough” he seems unsure about that, but he nodded his head.
“Let’s eat hyung… you’ll get sick if you don’t eat beside we couldn’t help Sungmin if we don’t have energy right?” I couldn’t help but smile when he show me his gummy smile. I ruffled hair lightly, letting him to drag me to the dining room.
***
I was sitting on the family room, watching some reality show with the other member when I see Sungmin walk out from his room. He was wearing Kyuhyun jacket and his favorite hat, “Where are you going, Sungmin-ah?” I asked him when he walk across the family room.
He stop for a while didn’t even look at me when he answered my question, “I’ll go out for a while” he said before put his shoes on and walk out of the room.
“Hyung…” I turn to Ryeowook who was looking at the now closed door worriedly, “Should we follow him? I’m afraid if he has to go alone”
I look at the other member who seems to agree with Ryeowook suggestion. What should I do? I know that he want sometime alone… I know that he want to be left alone. But I just couldn’t stay here and do nothing, right? He is my member… he is my brother… I… we don’t want to see him like that again… we just want to see him smiling again…
“What are you doing Lee Sungmin!!” I yelled when I see him drinking his soju on his room once again. A lot of bottle scattered around his now messy room. It was 2 days after that plane crash… 2 days after Kyuhyun left us… everyone was sad but Sungmin was the one who take it worst. He keep drinking soju and wine everyday until he passed out because of drunk.
“Hyu*hic*ng~~” he look at me, his eyelids dropped signaling that he was drunk. He pour soju to the glass and give it to me, “Let’s*hic* drink*hic*”
“Stop it Sungmin” I hold his hand when he was about to drink again, “You’ll hurt yourself if you keep drinking like this” I take his glass and put it somewhere, far from his reach.
“Give*hic* back*hic*” he struggle from my hold, trying to reach up from his glass. I hold him tighter than before when he struggling more, “Give back*hic* give it*hic* back*hic*”
“Stop it, ne… don’t drink it anymore… you haven’t eat since yesterday… Let’s go” I pull him to his feet but he can’t keep steady, he let go of my hand and reach out for his soju.
I slap him hard, hoping that it would put some sense on him. He look at me, covering his red cheek, tear glistening on his eyes, ”Yah!! Le Sungmin!!! Do you think he would be happy seeing you like this?! No!! He want you to move on!! To continue your life!! Not keep drinking and throw away your life like this!! Do you think everyone didn’t sad because of this?! They sad!! As much as you do!!” tears fallen from his eyes, his feet couldn’t hold his weight anymore as he fall to the floor. He covering his face, sobs could be hear from him. I can feel my eyes start to watered but I can’t cry… not here… I kneel in front of him, pulling his body into my embrace, “Everyone was worried about you, Sungmin-ah… we know that it was hard but you can’t be like this… we know you are strong… Kyuhyun wouldn’t want to see you like this…”
He circling his hand to my back and buried his face deeper on my chest, “I… I just want him to be here, hyung…”
“Hyung…?”
“Get ready… we’ll follow him… I know that he still around this dorm” everyone was quickly go to their own room. I quickly grab my jacket and wait for the other on the family room. Everyone was already gathering on the family room when we hear our doorbell rang. “I’ll get it” I quickly go to the door and open it. What I see make my body freeze, my eyes widen and I could hear the other member gasped behind me, “You stupid!!”
***
Sungmin POV
I sit on the swing in the park near our dorm. This swing held a lot of memory for me… for us… this is where Kyuhyun ask me to be his boyfriend 2 years ago.
Remembering about that day make tears fallen from my eyes freely. I never think that I would spend my birthday alone like this… even though everyone was trying so hard to make a birthday party for me but it was different if he wasn’t here… heck, Kyuhyun was always by my side everyday in my life… thinking that I have to continue my life without him make my heart ache.
Didn’t he know that my life was revolving around him? He was the one who can make me happy… he was the one who make my life whole… he is my life…
I clutch my chest tightly, it hurts here… when I thinking about him make my heart hurt. I just want him to be here with me, is it wrong for me to wish something like that?
“Hyung…” I close my eyes tightly when I hear his voice. I have to get over this… I couldn’t keep mourning like this… Kyuhyun wouldn’t happy if he see me like this. “Sungmin-hyung…” I cover my ear, I hoping for the voice to go away. “Minnie-hyung…”
“Stop bugging me!! You aren’t here!! Stop bugging me!!” I yelled desperately. Maybe I’m crazy now… I chuckled slightly… look what you did to me Kyu…
I feel warm hand wrapping on my cold one and uncover my ear, “Minnie-hyung… don’t be like this…” my eyes snapped open when I feel hand caressing my cheek. I couldn’t stop my tears, he is here… he is here with me… he kneeling in front of me with smile plastered on his handsome face, he tighten his hold on mine when I couldn’t stop the sobs.
‘Don’t be stupid Sungmin. He died 6 months ago, how come he will be in this place, huh?’ a voice in my mind said. But he is here, he is holding my hand. He caressing my cheeks, ‘How come a dead person doing in here, huh? Think Sungmin, is it possible?’ I chuckled slightly when I realize that. Kyuhyun was died 6 months ago and he couldn’t be here again, “Look what you did to me, Kyu… now I’m imagining that you are here, holding my hands…”
***
Normal POV
Kyuhyun look at the crying man in front of him. His messy hair, his puffy and red eyes, his now hollowed cheeks. He look at him with a sad look, ‘I never want to see him like this…’ he bring his hand and caress the now wet cheek, “I’m here, hyung…”
Sungmin shake his head desperately, “No… it’s not right!! Kyunie is died!! He can’t be here!! It just an illusion!! I’m crazy… I’m crazy…” he bring his hand to cover his ear once gain but Kyuhyun stop him.
Kyuhyun bit his lips hearing Sungmin whispering that words for himself, he pull him to his own body and embrace him tightly, “Listen hyung…” he bring Sungmin head to his left chest, ”You can hear my heartbeat, right? I’m alive… I’m here, hyung… I’m here with you…”
Sungmin focusing his ear to the steady heartbeat of his boyfriend. He encircle his hand on Kyuhyun torso and hug him tight, letting out his sadness in these past 6 months. Kyuhyun, knowing what his boyfriend was getting through embrace him tightly, rubbing his back while whispering some comforted words right in Sungmin ear.
After crying his heart out, Sungmin pull away from Kyuhyun embrace, look at him asking for his explanation, “How…?” he asked hoarsely.
Kyuhyun hold Sungmin hands tightly, “I don’t know what happen exactly. All I can remember was when the plane was shaking so hard, everyone was busy screaming, some of them even crying when we saw fire was start to burn the plane. The stewardess told us to put on our life vest and they told us to jump to the sea. And we do that, but it was too late. When I reach the sea and try to swim away, the plane crash and drown to the sea. I couldn’t remember after that” Sungmin lean himself to Kyuhyun body, wrapping his hand around Kyuhyun body. Kyuhyun wrap his hand back, letting Sungmin to lean his head on his shoulder, “When I woke up, I was on the hospital. Doctor said that I was in coma for 3 months. They couldn’t find my ID card or recognize me because my face was badly injured. They even said that I was paralyzed and couldn’t walk again forever”
“Why didn’t you call me? I could be there with you… supporting you…” Sungmin whispered, he clutch at the back of Kyuhyun shirt. Imagining what his boyfriend was going through make tears start to fall from his eyes once again.
“I don’t want you to see me like that, hyung… I was so useless, I couldn’t do anything without someone help. After that, I decide not to tell anyone that I survive, I even didn’t tell the doctor about my name. I decide to keep 'died’… to let you go, hyung… because I don’t want to be your burden”
“Stupid!” Sungmin hit Kyuhyun chest hard, “How could you ever think something like that! You can’t be my burden, Kyu! I… I could never live without you…”
Kyuhyun smile hearing that, he tighten his hold and continue his story, “But when I see you on television… I want to hold you again, hyung… I can’t see your forced smile every time you are on stage… I can’t see you quiet self when you are on some reality show. I couldn’t keep myself to be ‘died’ again… so I try so hard to be healthy again… to be able to walk again…. I do the therapy even though doctor said that it was no use but it didn’t make me give up because I always see you every time… and finally after a few months of trying… I can walk again… and here I am … holding you in my arms…” Kyuhyun kiss Sungmin temple deeply, “You always support me, hyung… you are the one who make me trying so hard”
“Kyunie…” Sungmin buried his head on the crock of Kyuhyun shoulder, his hand on Kyuhyun chest to feel the steady heartbeat, he inhale Kyuhyun scent to make him sure that it was his Kyuhyun. That his Kyuhyun is alive…
Kyuhyun lean his head on Sungmin shoulder, inhaling his scent that he miss so much, “Happy birthday, hyung… I’m sorry I didn’t bring a gift for you”
“It’s okay, Kyunie… knowing that you are here, with me... it was the best gift in my life”
Kyuhyun smile, kissing his boyfriend temple once again, “I’m sorry for make you wait for a long time, hyung…” Sungmin just tightening his hug as an answer.
***
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!” every member shouted when Sungmin and Kyuhyun step into the dorm. The birthday boy look surprised, his mouth wide open and his eyes were teary. Kyuhyun put his hand on Sungmin waist and walk into the room together.
Sungmin lowered his gaze and bowing deeply, “I’m sorry…” he said, “I’m sorry for make you all worried about me… I’m sorry for being a selfish prick… I’m sorry for make you have a hard time… I’m sorry… I’m sorry for everything…” the other member come to him and hug him tight. Whispering that it was okay… that they are understand.
After done with the group hug, Ryeowook come out from the dining room, holding the forgotten cake on his hand, he approach Sungmin and stop in front of him, “Now blow the candle and make a wish, hyung…”
Sungmin look at Kyuhyun, a genuine smile plastered on his face, he hold Kyuhyun hand tightly before blow the candle, “I already get what I’ve been wishing for” he stand on his tiptoes and peck Kyuhyun on the lips, “Welcome home, Kyu…”
“I’m home…”
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I supposed to post it on 1st January but~~ my internet connection was cut off... sigh...
I don't know what to say anymore~~ I'm so nervous right now~
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and even though it's late
I want to say Happy New Year~~ and Happy Birthday for Sungmin-oppa~~
hope you always be happy and healthy~~
comment are always loved and appreciated~~~
See you on the next story~~ *wave hand and vanish like ninja*