Sometimes I get jealous of people who have found each other. I hate the way they look at each other. Those fucking eyes. I know it's jealousy because I find myself wishing to God it was me. Then later I feel really pathetic. My heart doesn't stay in one place for long and that is the most depressing thing of all. I have ADD of the heart. ( Read more... )

Some things bother me when they shouldn't. Then there are things that break me in half because I really didn't want to know that I've been succeeded. That kills me more than you would believe. People happier than me... pisses me off.

I am frantic. I can't shut my eyes for more than a second because I've got too much energy. I am wired beyond anything you can imagine. I think too much and I think that may be part of the problem. But I am starting to lose it fast, so I may be going to sleep rather quickly. I think I need someone to help me maintain my grip on reality. Take ( Read more... )

The clear skies are depressing. I am inverted to the point where I cringe when I walk out in the sun. I want a veil to cover the earth, to protect me from that burning cross in the sky. I no longer welcome the days and I pray for rain daily because that's how I feel. Sunny days strike me like a needle to my weather vein. About my pale skin, ( Read more... )

Desert Eagle

You preferred a weapon with 40% power over speed and 70% range over melee.

You use a Desert Eagle
.
One of the most powerful handguns in production, the Desert Eagle is a heavy punch in a small package. Its reliability and speed are remarkable for a gun with such high caliber. Your enemies won't stand a chance as you ( Read more... )

Slave to repitition
rep it tition
[Live?] Eat.Sleep.Work.Repeat.[/Die/]

There's nothing here today
the walls painted grey
The faces on the screen
glow bright tonight
begin the scene
Lights, camera,
inaction for me.
[Cut!] Take two

Distance

DistanceWe are not who we say we are ( Read more... )

Life plays with your mind simply for sadistic pleasure. You think one thing only to see another, to be betrayed by things you should've seen in the first place. The world doesn't revolve around me so I should figure that there's no way in hell. I never have the luck I feel I should, but I always expect disappointment anyways, so I'm not quite ( Read more... )

I tried my best not to reap from the past
not to repeat the facts
that were presented to me.
I wanted to give you myself, nothing more
But instead I found
it was the past I was giving to you.