A Whole New Level (Part 2 of 1st Trip)
Summary: ‘Oh hell no!’ thought Donghae, ‘Look at her shamelessly flirting with my Hyukkie, no way!’ he thought.
Hyukkie felt this sensation in his heart which made him know that he was right, as if his heart was confirming something his brain wasn’t getting until now.
A/N: So here’s part two finally. Thanks to everyone who reads and comments, and I hope you enjoy!
(Part 1)
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Summary of part 1: Hyuk and Hae are out alone in a cabin in the middle of the woods. It is there second day out there, they are having a great time together, Donghae plans to confess later that night. Hae falls asleep waiting for his monkey to come home from gathering fire wood.
A Whole New Level
(A Continuation of 1st Trip)
‘When did it get this dark?’ thought Hyukjae as he quickened his steps.
Soon he saw a light off in the distance. He started jogging to it, his own personal Northern Star, the one that would lead him to Donghae, to his fishy.
“Please be ok, please be ok” whispered Hyukkie as he got closer, remembering how the younger boy hated being left alone. How Donghae would panic if he was left by himself for too long.
‘Finally’ he said as he ran the last couple of yards to the door and opened it. He stood at the door frame, shocked, relived, and a little disappointed by what he saw. There on the floor was Donghae curled up into a tight little ball.
‘Didn’t even wait up for me, I could have been lost or kidnapped and he’s sound asleep without a worry in the world’ thought Hyukjae.
“Honey I’m home!” yelled out Hyukjae as he slammed the door hard.
Donghae jumped at the sudden noise he heard. He looked around and finally saw the cause of it.
“Hyukkie your back” said the boy as he rounded to hug the dancer.
“Yeah” said Hyukkie as he embarrassingly let Donghae hug him roughly. ‘I guess he really was worried after all’ thought Hyukjae as he took a look at his friends face and saw a dry shiny tear tracks. Seeing the now dry tracks on his friends face he quickly tighten his grip on the other boy.
“I’m sorry I took so long” said Hyukkie.
Donghae’s eyes widened and he gripped his monkey tighter, after he heard what he said.
“Did I scare you?” asked Hyukkie. And Donghae nodded.
“I’m sorry, forgive this stupid monkey hubby, ok” he said as he pulled them apart so that Donghae could see him pouting. Donghae giggled and hugged his monkey again, he was just too cute.
After a few more moments they separated and Hyukkie went to check on things in the kitchen.
“What took you so long Hyukkie?” asked Donghae as he followed the boy to the kitchen.
“You did all this while I was gone” remarked Hyukkie, pointing to the cut and marinated meat and veggies on the kitchen counter, ignoring the boy’s question.
“Yeah, you were gone a long time, where’d you go?” asked Donghae again.
“Oh, I didn’t think I was away that long”
“You were” answered Donghae getting a little annoyed at the dancer.
“Sorry, and sorry you had to do all the work again” said Hyukkie while he moved the tray of meat.
“That’s ok, did you get enough wood?” asked Donghae
“Yea I got plenty of wood…in fact while I was collecting the wood when I me-“Hyukjae was stopped by a sudden knock at the door.
They both looked at each other and then at the door. Both were not expecting anyone until tomorrow. Wondering who it could be Donghae went to answer the door, as soon as he opened it he regretted it.
“Umm hello… may I help you?” asked Donghae to a very pretty girl with milky white skin, shiny long black hair, who was wearing an extremely short skirt that showed off her very pretty legs.
“Yes, I was looking for-“she started looking into the cabin, “Hyukjae oppa” said the girl as she waved at his Hyukkie.
“Oh you’re here” said Hyukkie amused as he walked toward the door.
“Hyukkie, you know this girl?” asked Donghae
“Yea, this is Katie, I met her while I was out collecting the wood. She’s a dance major and she and her two friends are in the cabin next to ours only a couple minutes away,” he said smiling. Donghae didn’t like this, this girl had already kept his Hyukkie away longer than he had to be, while he was waiting at home alone, and now here she was invading the cozy little bubble they’ve created over the last two days.
“Oh” was all he could respond.
“What are you doing here Katie?” asked Hyukkie as he noticed that Donghae did not like the sudden appearance of their visitor.
“Oh, I just came over to see if you and your friend wanted to come over to our cabin, were having a bon fire, but an adult bon fire” she said with a teasing smile.
“Yea, what’s so adult about it?” asked Hyukkie playfully.
“Nothing really, you’ll have to come to find out” she said.
‘Oh hell no!’ thought Donghae, ‘Look at her shamelessly flirting with my Hyukkie, no way!’ he thought
And Hyukkie looked at Donghae for a sign to accept or decline the offer. Of course Donghae was dead set against it, and Katie could sense that Donghae was leaning toward no so she quickly added, “Please oppa, you’d really be doing us a favor, we really don’t know anything about a building a fire and we brought a lot of drinks, too many and we need to finish them, so please come tonight” she finished by giving the most vomiting puppy-dog face, so Donghae thought.
“Well,” said Hyukkie looking at Donghae, “We already made plans to build a pit ourselves and cook dinner…” said Hyukkie and Donghae smiled brightly.
“But I guess we could just combine everything together and have a party” said Hyukkie.
“Really” said Katie happily, “Honestly we’ve been living on ramen and snacks since we got here. Are you sure there’s enought though?” she asked.
“There’s more than enough food, right Donghae” asked Hyukkie with hopeful eyes to the boy who had been standing completely still out of shock till Hyukkie spoke to him. Hyukkie kept looking at him with hopes of an approval, Donghae could tell that he really wanted to go. Donghae was always a sucker for a pretty face and answered, “Yea there’s plenty to go around”.
“Great” said the girl, “So we’ll see you at our place in a little bit” said Katie as she waved and left.
Hyukkie continued to linger at the door for a little while, watching the girl get smaller and smaller, until she disappeared.
“I guess we better pack up the meat up so we can bring it over,” said Hyukkie.
“Donghae,” said Hyukjae when he noticed the younger boy looked like someone who had sucked all the energy out of his body. “It’s okay that I said yes right?” asked Hyukjae. Donghae looked at him and wanted to yell at the boy.
‘Of course it’s not ok! We had plans, we were suppose be spending time together but then you go and meet that girl and her friends and leave me all alone here, worrying where you were and the whole time you were out with her! I wanted to spend a nice night together, like yesterday, me and you, your fishy wife and my monkey hubby, I wanted to tell you how I felt tonight, but now that’s all shot to hell. Why, do you want to go so badly? Are you bored after only two days of being just with me? Are you interested in that girl? Why don’t you just want to stay here with me? Aren’t you happy, just the two of us?’ he thought but of course didn’t say out loud.
“Yea of course its ok, I mean you really want to go right?” asked Donghae and Hyukkie nodded breaking Donghae’s heart a little, but he wasn’t going to let that girl ruin his plans. “Hyukkie…”
“Hmm”
“You mind if we don’t stay too long though”
“Sure, but why?” asked Hyukkie
“I just want to get back so we can spend sometime together just the two of us, I wanted to talk to you about something” he said to the floor
Hyukkie laughed, “This whole trip has been just the two of us Hae,” he said but quickly added on when he saw Donghae’s face drop, “I’ll make sure were back early okay, we’ll be in and out of there, then we’ll do whatever you want ok”
“Really” said Donghae eagerly
“Yea of course, so what is this something you want to tell me and why haven’t you told me earlier?” asked Hyukkie.
“Later” said Donghae flushing a little as he tried to be coy. Hyukkie couldn’t help but to smile up at him, ‘He’s definitely up to something’ thought Hyukjae.
Finally after packing up everything they thought they’d needed they headed over to Katie’s cabin. Donghae still felt very apprehensive over the whole thing but he tried to reinsure himself, telling himself that he and Hyukkie would be back in no time and back to their own little bubble where Donghae could confess to the boy he loved, who he hoped felt the same way.
After a couple minutes of walking the pair finally made it to the girl’s cabin. Donghae looked around and saw that it was the exactly same as theirs as they walked through to the back yard.
“There here” announced Katie to two other girls as they walked up to them. “You guys know Hyukjae oppa, and this is his friend, Donghae, right?” asked Sandy
“Yea, Donghae, Fishy” said Hyukkie
“But only Hyukkie’s allowed to call me that” said Donghae quickly, the last thing he wanted was to hear a bunch of girls calling him fishy, that was Hyukkie’s pet name for him and he would only allow him to call him that.
“Ok then, I’m Alex” said the first girl who was taller than him but who was pretty in her own tomboy-ish way. “Just Donghae, not Fishy” she said as she shook his hand roughly.
“I’m Mary,” waved another girl seated in a chair, she was the shortest of the three but Donghae could tell that on the dance floor she had an elegant presence and he could tell that she was the quite shy type.
Soon the bbq/bonfire went underway. Everyone was getting along pretty well, but Donghae noticed that Katie kept crowding around his Hyukkie and he didn’t like it. They all ate and drank happily as the night started getting darker and colder. And after they drank they drank some more, well all expect Donghae, he was never one to drink, he didn’t see the point. And Donghae also didn’t want to confess under the influence, he wanted to do it in a conscious state where he could say everything he wanted to say and not have the whole thing written off as, oh well he was drunk, what do you expect. He didn’t want Hyukkie to be drunk either, to his happiness he was hardly drinking that night. Donghae smiled, he’d like to think that Hyukkie wasn’t drinking because of him, because he knew that he wanted to spend time with him afterward and that he knew it wouldn’t be fair to him if he was drunk.
“Just Donghae oppa, why are you smiling so happily?” asked Alex as she saw that he was smiling and looking at Hyukjae. And she could tell that this oppa was in love with Hyukjae but she also knew that Katie had a major crush on him as well, ‘I think I’m in love’ might have been the exact phrase Katie used, so naturally like any good friend and wing man she got to work on making sure that her friend got the guy and no one else did. “So Donghae oppa I hear you and Hyukjae oppa are pretty good dancers” she said giving a fake smile.
“Oh, I’m pretty good I guess, but I can’t compare to Hyukkie, he’s a dancing machine” he said blushingly.
“Really, you know Katie is the best dancer in our class,” she said and Donghae nodded politely, “Katie, you should really show us some of your moves, I don’t think Donghae oppa doesn’t believes me”
“What?!?!” she said wide-eyed and embarrassed that her friend wanted her to suddenly dance.
“What are you embarrassed, Hyukjae oppa will accompany you, right oppa” said Alex and before he could answer yes or no she said, “Good, you should do that dance you did last quarter” she said with a smirk.
And Donghae saw Katie get red in the face and knew that whatever the number was she did he was absolutely not going to like it.
“Alex I can’t, we can’t,” she said horrified trying to plea to her friend
“Your probably right, Hyukjae oppa doesn’t know the number and he isn’t classically trained like us, who knows if he can keep up with you” she purposely said knowing that as a man Hyukjae wouldn’t be able to stay quiet and not dance.
“What, just because I haven’t been classically train doesn’t mean I haven’t been trained, if I were you I would be worried about trying to keep up with me” he said a little annoyed, they didn’t know him, he had been practicing dance since he was in elementary school, he’ll show them. “Do you have the music” he asked as he stood up and quickly stretched.
“Yea I do,” said Alex getting her ipod and turning it to the right song.
“Okay Katie you go first and then Hyukjae oppa just enter when you think you’ve got it” said Alex.
Donghae was not liking this, Alex was obviously setting something up. Donghae now knew that Katie absolutely liked his Hyukkie or why else would her friend go all this trouble. He began to get nervous and mixed himself a drink to calm himself down and then another when he saw Katie asking for the music.
The music started, it was low and sensual. Donghae’s eye’s doubled in size when he saw Katie move. She dance so well, elegantly and like the song very sensual, if Donghae wasn’t one hundred percent in love with Hyukkie and only had eyes for him then he would definitely be turned on, and so he reached for a bottle and started drinking so that he could have something to do other than just stare. Thankfully the beat started to speed up but so did her erotic dance moves. Donghae didn’t know what to do, he could only watch, gawking as he started drinking the contents of the bottle like it was water. Watching Katie was strangely stimulating and very intimate, like he shouldn’t be watching but couldn’t help it, Donghae just kept hoping that his mother didn’t walk in on him. And then to his horror he saw his monkey moving in closer and closer, his whole being changed the way it usually changed whenever he seriously danced, when he transformed from the goofy, kind-hearted monkey into a passionate, charismatic, intense man.
‘It’s only a dance, it’s only a dance’ thought Donghae as he saw his Hyukkie moving in sync with Katie, and he grabbed another bottle out of the cooler. ‘There only dancing, it means nothing, it doesn’t mean Hyukkie likes her, he just loves dancing too much’ he thought as he cringed at the sight of his Hyukkie practically making love to Katie on the dance floor, their bodies moving as one to the beat. Donghae couldn’t take much more of it, he thanked the heavens when he heard the song slowly die down and the two dancers awkwardly but quickly moved away from each other.
“Woooo” yelled out Alex as she loudly clapped and Mary followed suit. “You guys were…wooo” she said as she fanned herself.
“Yea you guys were great, Hyukjae oppa you’re a great dancer” said Mary shyly, still blushing at the dance she just saw.
“Thank you” said Hyukjae a deep shade of red as he realized what he just did.
“You really are oppa” said Katie getting an even brighter shade of red.
“You’ve been awfully quite Donghae oppa, what’d you think, I bet you never dreamed that Hyukjae oppa could move like that” said Alex grinning, “You got to admit the way they moved together, the chemistry, it’s like they were made for one another…sure to be a great dancing couple” she said. “That is of course if you two decided to take this show on the road and compete, I’m sure you’d blow the competition away”
Donghae stared at the girl and she was right, even a blind person would be able to sense the chemistry they shared on the dance floor. And Donghae had never seen his Hyukkie move so well with anyone else ever before. And he was sure that if they wanted to they could become professional dancers and win every award out there, they were just that good together, there was no denying it. Donghae kept staring at the girl wanted to make her disappear when Hyukkie came into his line of vision.
Hyukkie walked over to him and placed his arm over the younger boy, and looked at him with a questioning look.
“You were great Hyukkie, the both of you” was all Donghae could say as he looked from Hyukkie to Katie and sadness came over him.
“You guys should really think about maybe teaming up, you’d do great in competitions” said Mary
“Yea” said Alex
“Yea” said Donghae in agreement not being to lift his head, already thinking of how he would probably be seeing a lot more of Katie.
“Really?” asked Hyukjae as he shook Donghae under his arm so that the boy would look at him, “Then what about us”
“Us?” asked Donghae
“Yea, am I or am I not already committed to what is sure to be the greatest group this country’s ever seen” he finished with a gummy smile.
“Hyukkie…” said Donghae, he was so touched he could have cried but he told himself he couldn’t.
“Unless you plan to divorce me and debut without me” said Hyukkie with his a cute pouting face. Donghae shook his head. “Good, because I don’t want any kind of future or career if your not there… or the other members, okay” said Hyukkie as he wrapped his other arm around the younger boy and pulled him closer so that Donghae’s back rested on his chest. As he swayed himself and Donghae from side to side he wondered why he had just said all that. He hadn’t meant to say such sappy things but after one look at Donghae and the venerable state he was in, he couldn’t help himself. But he wasn’t thinking such things though, ‘So sappy… If there not coming out of my brain then where are these thoughts coming from’, thought Hyukkie.
“Aww” said Mary as she watched the scene in front of her.
Donghae and Hyukkie both blushed, and Hyukjae went back to having only one arm around his friend, not wanting to let go of him just yet.
As for Alex her eyes grew twice there size as she saw the way the two boys were acting, she wondered if Hyukjae felt the same way she thought Donghae felt. And she decided to find out.
There was an uncomfortable silence for a while and then Mary suggested that they make smores and sit around the bonfire and just have a free talk. So all five gathered around the bonfire, somehow both Katie and Alex ended up sitting next to Hyukkie, so Donghae had to settle on sitting next to Alex. They all started roasting their marshmallows and started drinking as they started to talk about their childhoods and the last time any of them had roasted marshmallows. Well everyone expect Donghae, he didn’t feel like drinking at the moment, he was actually starting to feel a little tipsy from the drinks he inhaled earlier and he was never a fan of the marshmallow, mini marshmallows yes, but big fat ones like the ones they were using now, no. Donghae sat there politely nodding, laughing when everyone else was laughing, trying not to get caught that he really wasn’t paying attention because his mind was somewhere else.
Donghae was thinking about him and Hyukkie, how later on tonight he would finally tell the other boy that he loved him. He could feel the adrenaline pumping and his heart racing, just of the thought of it but he knew he was making the right decision and he was pretty sure that Hyukkie felt the same way he did. He looked over at his Hyukkie and smiled, he thought that hopefully after tonight he will finally be able to say those words out loud, my Hyukkie. He giggled but abruptly stopped when he saw Katie lean over and whispered something in his Hyukkie’s ear. How glad he would be after tonight when he could finally be able to tell everyone to back off, not to touch his Hyukkie, that he was his and only his. He sighed looking up at the sky, he was starting to get impatient, he was just waiting for everyone to finish their smores so that he could excuse himself and Hyukkie, I mean after they ate their smores (dessert) what else was there to do.
Hyukjae looked over at Donghae and smiled, he wondered if the boy was looking to see if he spotted any aliens.
“Hyukjae oppa what are you doing?” asked Katie as she watched the dancer take the marshmallow he was roasting into his hands, she laughed, the marshmallow must be scolding his hands but he continued what he was doing. Finally once was finished he looked up and smiled his gummy smile that she thought was so cute. She looked down at his hands and saw that they were red allover, he had burnt himself doing whatever he had wanted to do.
“Oppa your hands” she said horrified, and that got everyone’s attention, as they stared over at him, “What are you doing, you have to be careful, the marshmallows are smoldering hot, why would you do such a thing to yourself” she said as she took her napkin and dabbed it in water and started cleaning his hands.
Donghae watched on, angered that she was touching his Hyukkie so freely.
“I’m ok” said Hyukjae as he pulled his hand away from Katie.
“What do you think your doing?” asked Katie again. She was really starting to annoy Hyukjae, who was she, his mother, scolding him like that in front of everyone, besides he had a good reason for doing it.
“I was just trying to cut the marshmallow in half, I didn’t realize how sticky and messy it’d be though” he said laughing at himself, biting his palm, getting the excess sugary treat off his hands.
“Why would you cut it in half?” she asked again in a belittling tone.
“Because” said Hyukkie still biting his palm
“Because…” she asked again only a little more annoyed.
“Because Hae doesn’t like marshmallows that much, only in small amounts,” he said getting up walking over to the stunned boy who didn’t think the dancer would remember such a trivial thing. “So I had to cut the marshmallow, so I can make my fishy wife the perfect smore” he said as he extended his hand containing the smore to Donghae.
“Hyukkie…”said Donghae as he took the smore and now saw how red his hands were. He quickly grabbed his Hyukkie’s hand looking at it, he was outraged and he was surprised Katie didn’t make a bigger deal over his hands, he knew he would have. How he wished he could just kiss his hand until it stopped being red, he wanted to lick and gently bite away all the bits of marshmallow that still clung to his beautiful palms. But most of all he was mad at Hyukkie for mistreating his hands so carelessly “Hyukjae” said Donghae in an angry tone and expression. But it had no affect on Hyukjae, he just smiled down at him, “Hae your cute when your mad” he said taking his hand back, “Hae aren’t you going to eat the smore I made you” he asked as he walked back to his seat and gave him a pout. Donghae smiled and took a bite of his special monkey made smore, “It’s really good, thank you Hyukkie” he said blushing as everyone was looking at him.
“Awww” said Mary, “You guys are so loving”, which only made Donghae and Hyukkie blush deeper.
“Pssh…all that just so you can give him a smore” said Alex bitterly, but Donghae didn’t pay any attention to her, because for him this was another testament to how much his Hyukkie cares for him and another piece of evidence that proves that Hyukkie felt the same way he did.
“Can I ask you something Hyukjae oppa?” asked Mary
“Sure” said Hyukkie smiling silly as he stuck another marshmallow to the end of his stick and began to roast it.
“Earlier I heard you say something about divorce and right now you called Donghae oppa your fish wife, what is up with that?”
“Fishy wife, my wifey” he corrected the girl, “It’s just a nickname that I gave Donghae yesterday after he kicked me out of the kitchen, and it reminded me of those old shows where the wife is carefully preparing dinner and then the husband comes in just to see what she’s doing because he’s curious and misses his wife but she ends up kicking him out of the kitchen, saying he’s distracting her,”
“Is that what happened?” she asked genuinely intrigued
“Yea, my wifey even banished me to the living room” he said and they both laughed, but the other two girls didn't.
“Donghae oppa” said Mary, and he was quickly pulled out of the happy memories of the day before.
“Hmm” he answered
“If Hyukjae oppa calls you his fishy wife, what do you call him” she asked giggling.
“Oh,” he started to laugh and looked over at Hyukkie to see if he could say it, since he didn’t see any protest he told the girl, “Hyukkie’s my monkey hubby” he said. And Mary’s lips curved up, she tried not to laugh but when she looked over at Hyukkie she couldn’t help it, she exploded with laughter and so did everyone else.
“Oh, I’m sorry Hyukjae oppa, it’s just you have to squint and imagine the reasons why you call Donghae oppa your fishy wife but monkey hubby suits you too perfectly” said Mary as everyone started laughing again.
“Mary, don’t be rude to Hyukjae oppa, you’ll hurt his feelings” said Alex, “Besides some people find monkeys to be very cute, right Katie” she said arching a brow at him.
“Yes, I think monkeys are very cute, they were always my favorite animal to visit at the zoo, I always wanted to cry because I thought it was sad that they were always had to be locked away” said Katie
“Really that’s very interesting” said Hyukkie.
And slowly Katie and Alex were monopolizing Hyukjae’s time again. Donghae was left there by himself, waiting and hoping that Hyukkie would remember that they still had plans. Donghae was getting frustrated by the other girls, so he got himself a drink. And when they were still all over his Hyukkie he got himself another drink and then another.
Finally Hyukkie noticed that Donghae was acting strangely, and that he was drinking an awful lot, which was very strange since he never saw Donghae drink before.
In the middle of his drinking Donghae came up with an excellent plan, he was going to pretend to be drunk, that way he and Hyukkie could finally leave and he could get on with finally confessing to him. But at this point in time Donghae didn’t even need to pretend that he was drunk, he practically was drunk, he had been drinking since the middle of their gathered, but then again he did have a high tolerance so he was still pretty coherent.
“Hae, Hae” said Hyukkie interrupting the conversation when he saw his friend twitching around in his seat. “I’m sorry,” he said as he got up and walked over to his friend. He bent down to get a good look at his friend and he could smell the alcohol right away, he sighed, ‘Idiot, I thought we were going to hang out after this, your going to have such a hang over tomorrow’ thought Hyukjae.
“I’m sorry, I think he’s drunk, I should take him home now,” said Hyukkie poking his cute fishy’s face.
“What, already, it’s still early,” said Katie while she looked on to Alex for help. And Alex looked over to the said drunken boy and he saw that a smile could be plainly seen on his face, and knew that he was faking it.
“Oppa if he’s out, then you could let him rest in the bedroom while he sobers up a bit, that way you could stay a while longer and you wouldn’t have to be stuck all alone in your cabin,” she said with a smirk as she saw Donghae’s smile disappear.
“Yes oppa you should let him rest a while, that way he can sober up and you won’t have to carry him the entire way back all by yourself,” she said with hopeful eyes
“Well,” said Hyukkie, not sure whether he should let Donghae rest a while before he tried moving him.
“Great”, said Alex making the decision for him. She smirked at Donghae but of course he couldn’t see it, he’s eyes were still closed pretending to be drunk. So Hyukkie carried Donghae over to the living room and laid him on the couch, affectionately running his fingers out of the boys face until the girls called him out again. As Hyukkie left him on the couch, he cursed those thrifty girls for coning him into staying longer.
Luckily/Unluckily for Donghae, Hyukkie left the door open so he could hear all that they were saying, there were also more bottles of alcohol around the living room. ‘How much booze did these girls buy, they seem to have spent as much as we do (Super Junior) on food’ thought Donghae as he grabbed a bottle and began to drank as he heard Hyukkie laughing happily at something one of the girls said.
As more time went on he could tell that the girls were drinking more and more as well, they grew louder and laughed more erratically, and they kept interrupting one another.
“Actually I once went to-“started Katie but was interrupted by a now drunk Alex.
“Hold on!” she yelled, “I’ve been wondering something every since you got here tonight,” she said pointing at Hyukkie. Hyukkie said nothing and just stared at her, hoping that she didn’t throw up on him.
“You and Donghae are weird, not normal…relationship,” she slurred, and Hyukkie just stared at her, trying to see where she was getting at. “This whole night Katie has been all over you…and you don’t even do anything, make a move!” she yelled at him. And Hyukkie just stared at her, embarrassed, Hyukkie was never good at telling when someone was into him, obviously. Alex saw the look on his face and yelled out again, “Seriously…seriously, you couldn’t tell…man I feel bad for him,” she said now angrily,
“Him?” asked Hyukjae
“Yea Donghae,” she spit out, and Hyukkie didn’t like the way she said his name, he started getting angry. “Aren’t you guys together, aren’t you two gay for each other” she spat out, and Hyukkie was taken a back, not because she thought that they were an item but because the way she said and looked when she said gay.
Hyukkie had never seen such hate and disgust put into any word. He started getting very angry, ‘So what if I was gay, is there anything wrong with that, if two people loved each other then why would it matter if they were both male or of the opposite sex’ thought Hyukkie, but he only got more angry, thinking about it, ‘What’s so wrong about two people loving each other, so what if I love Donghae, who is she too make such a face, like its wrong, like its something to be ashamed of’ he thought. And he went over what she said to him again and finally erupted in anger, “Gay, Gay!” yelled out Hyukjae, “Me and Donghae…” and he got in closer and whispered “You should be so lucky to find anyone to love you as much as I love Donghae, bitch” he finished as he heard glass shattering coming from inside the cabin, and he immediately ran over, hoping that Donghae hadn’t hurt himself.
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Donghae was still drinking listening intently when he heard Alex loudly say his name
“You and Donghae are weird, not normal…relationship,” said Alex and Donghae didn’t like the way she was talking to his Hyukkie but he kept still because he was suppose to be passed out drunk and he started listening again.
“This whole night Katie has been all over you…and you don’t even do anything, make a move!” she yelled out and Donghae about charged the door, he knew it, that this whole thing was just a way to get his Hyukkie with that girl but he stopped himself when he heard Alex talk again.
“Seriously…seriously, you couldn’t tell…man I feel bad for him,” she said and Donghae’s heart started racing, he wanted to go out there and yell at her, he knew where she was getting at and he hoped that she would stop, he wanted to tell Hyukkie, he didn’t want some drunk bitch to reveal his secret.
“Him?” asked Hyukjae
“Yea Donghae,” she spit out, “Aren’t you guys together, aren’t you two gay for each other”, Donghae gasped, he could hear the hate and disgust even from inside the cabin and he waited to see what Hyukkie would respond.
“Gay, Gay!” yelled out Hyukjae, “Me and Donghae…” Donghae listened and he had never heard Hyukjae so angry, was the thought of him and Donghae really that angering. Did he too feel disgusted thinking that someone thought they were a couple, his heart started to ache, not only had he misread all of Hyukjae’s actions toward him, he actually believed that the other boy loved him back. He couldn’t take it anymore, his heart was making things unbearable for him, he needed to leave. So Donghae downed the rest of the bottle in his hands and threw it across the room in a fit of sorrow, and he ran out of there before Hyukkie came in to check on him.
~*****~
“Hae, Hae” said Hyukkie as he ran in to see that Donghae was no longer in the living room and he saw that the front door was wide open. Without a second thought he ran out and went to search for his fishy. But wasn’t long until he found him, Donghae was staggering around, trying to get some distance between him and Hyukkie, but being drunk doesn’t help when trying to run away.
“Hae, what are you doing?” asked Hyukkie as he caught up to the younger boy. Donghae said nothing, he just kept trying to walk to their cabin, he wasn’t sure what to say. He staggered again and fell to the ground. Hyukkie reached over and tried to help his friend up but as soon as he touched Donghae he yelled out at him, “Don’t touch me!” But Hyukkie ignored him thinking that he was just an affect of the alcohol, so he grabbed his friend again only to feel Donghae flinch and pull away.
“Don’t touch me Hyuk” he yelled out. And Hyukjae staggered back in shock and pain, it felt as if he had been slapped in the face, how could Donghae reject his help, his touch.
“Hae, what’s wrong? Are you mad at me?” said Hyukkie as he walked beside his friend, making sure that he didn’t touch him. When Donghae didn’t say anything he continued, “Hae I’m sorry, whatever I did, please forgive me” pleaded Hyukkie, he didn’t know what he did or that he had even done anything wrong but he knew that he didn’t want Donghae to flinch away from him, he felt his throat closing and his tears swelling in his eyes. Still Donghae didn’t say anything and soon they saw the light from their own cabin up ahead and Hyukkie was happy that they were almost home and out of the woods were Donghae couldn’t fall and hurt himself on anything hard.
“Hae, Hae please talk to me!” he yelled out as soon as they walked through the door.
Donghae stopped dead in his tracks, he was hurting but he hurt even more after he heard Hyukkie call to him. He quickly wiped his eyes and turned to look at Hyukkie. As soon as he saw him he fell to his knees and sobbed.
Hyukkie rushed over to him and hugged him. “Hae I’m sorry, I’m sorry” he said and he was, he was sorry that he didn’t look after him and stayed longer with those girls, he was sorry that Donghae wasn’t talking to him, and he was sorry that Donghae was obviously hurting. Going on his gut feeling he then asked, “Donghae didn’t you want to tell me something?” he asked and Donghae sobbed harder. Hyukjae didn’t push it any further. After a few more minutes Donghae fell asleep in his embrace.
Hyukkie picked him up and placed him on the bed, he watched Donghae sleep for a while, brushing his hair out of his face. He was memorized by his face, he took in each of his beautiful features until he ended up staring at his flawless pink lips. That’s all he could see as he went over the last two days in his head, Donghae making dinner, his fishy wife kicking him out of the kitchen, finding Donghae on the floor asleep with dry tears on his cheeks and fixing his dinner, watching how happy Donghae was when he thought had cooked the meal well, and then today how happy they both were eating breakfast going on a hike and having a picnic on the trail. Hyukkie didn’t notice how truly happy he was, just the two of them, so he kicked himself when he thought how he ran into Katie and how he agreed to go over and have their little gathering, when he had it so good when it was just him and his fishy wife.
He continued to stare at those beautiful lips, and thought about what Alex said to him and then he thought about he said in return. And it wasn’t until then did his words really sink in, “You should be so lucky to find anyone to love you as much as I love Donghae…” ‘As much as I love Donghae’ thought Hyukkie, ‘I love Donghae’ and Hyukkie felt this sensation in his heart which made him know that he was right, as if his heart was confirming something his brain wasn’t getting until now. And he looked over at Donghae and gave a small smile, he thought maybe he should be in shock or be freaking out that he was in love with one of his best friends but he wasn’t, everything was like normal only now his rose colored glasses were off and he could finally see and appreciate Donghae on a whole new level.
This new level made him see his fishy better now and he saw how beautiful he truly was, and how his lips seem to call out to him. Hyukjae couldn’t control himself anymore as he bent lower and lower, brushing his fingers through Donghae’s hair and he closed his eyes and met the others lips. He stayed still for a while, his lips still on Donghae, how he loved the way his lips seemed to fit Donghae’s perfectly, how warm and soft they were, but something was wrong. And he felt Donghae stir underneath him, and that’s what was wrong, Donghae shouldn’t be asleep not knowing he was kissing him, Donghae should be conscious, kissing him back, letting him tell Donghae how much he loved him.
Pulled back and got up and left to get dressed for bed. When he got back he watched Donghae again before he crawled into bed. As if Donghae knew that Hyukkie needed him, he cuddled next to the man. Hyukkie smiled and thought that for now their embrace would have to do, until he knew what to do and how to go about it.
The next day Donghae woke up with a horrible head ache. He felt like shit, and then he looked over to see his Hyukkie’s arms holding him tightly. ‘This is new’ thought Donghae as he was always the one who draped himself all over Hyukkie. He tried to get up but his head was spinning, he tried to remember what had happened yesterday, but he could only remember snippets of the night. He knew that he should be upset with Hyukkie, but he wasn’t sure why, ‘Judging by how hung-over I am we he probably forgot that we had plans to leave early and which means we probably stayed there way too long, which means I didn’t get to confess’ he thought and got upset, he was now getting angry at his Hyukkie, he was hung-over and felt bad because of him and he didn’t get to spend time with him and confess because of him.
The rest of the morning was spent in silence, Donghae was angry and felt bad so he ignored Hyukkie and Hyukkie was avoiding Donghae, he didn’t want the boy to know that he now was thinking of him as more than just a friend and he couldn’t stop staring at those lips, so he kept his distance.
Around mid-morning they heard a bus pull up and saw their members filing out. Everyone came in and greeted Donghae and Hyukjae. They all told them that they missed the two boys every much.
“So you guys were stuck here all alone, how’d that go?” asked Teukie with an arched eye brow. And both Hyukkie and Donghae looked at each other, then looked away and blushed.
“Do you think something happened?” asked Hankyung in his broken accent
“I hope so, they need to do it and get it over with, can’t stand all this will they ever crap” said Heechul with a rotten smile.
Hyukkie felt this sensation in his heart which made him know that he was right, as if his heart was confirming something his brain wasn’t getting until now.
A/N: So here’s part two finally. Thanks to everyone who reads and comments, and I hope you enjoy!
(Part 1)
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Summary of part 1: Hyuk and Hae are out alone in a cabin in the middle of the woods. It is there second day out there, they are having a great time together, Donghae plans to confess later that night. Hae falls asleep waiting for his monkey to come home from gathering fire wood.
A Whole New Level
(A Continuation of 1st Trip)
‘When did it get this dark?’ thought Hyukjae as he quickened his steps.
Soon he saw a light off in the distance. He started jogging to it, his own personal Northern Star, the one that would lead him to Donghae, to his fishy.
“Please be ok, please be ok” whispered Hyukkie as he got closer, remembering how the younger boy hated being left alone. How Donghae would panic if he was left by himself for too long.
‘Finally’ he said as he ran the last couple of yards to the door and opened it. He stood at the door frame, shocked, relived, and a little disappointed by what he saw. There on the floor was Donghae curled up into a tight little ball.
‘Didn’t even wait up for me, I could have been lost or kidnapped and he’s sound asleep without a worry in the world’ thought Hyukjae.
“Honey I’m home!” yelled out Hyukjae as he slammed the door hard.
Donghae jumped at the sudden noise he heard. He looked around and finally saw the cause of it.
“Hyukkie your back” said the boy as he rounded to hug the dancer.
“Yeah” said Hyukkie as he embarrassingly let Donghae hug him roughly. ‘I guess he really was worried after all’ thought Hyukjae as he took a look at his friends face and saw a dry shiny tear tracks. Seeing the now dry tracks on his friends face he quickly tighten his grip on the other boy.
“I’m sorry I took so long” said Hyukkie.
Donghae’s eyes widened and he gripped his monkey tighter, after he heard what he said.
“Did I scare you?” asked Hyukkie. And Donghae nodded.
“I’m sorry, forgive this stupid monkey hubby, ok” he said as he pulled them apart so that Donghae could see him pouting. Donghae giggled and hugged his monkey again, he was just too cute.
After a few more moments they separated and Hyukkie went to check on things in the kitchen.
“What took you so long Hyukkie?” asked Donghae as he followed the boy to the kitchen.
“You did all this while I was gone” remarked Hyukkie, pointing to the cut and marinated meat and veggies on the kitchen counter, ignoring the boy’s question.
“Yeah, you were gone a long time, where’d you go?” asked Donghae again.
“Oh, I didn’t think I was away that long”
“You were” answered Donghae getting a little annoyed at the dancer.
“Sorry, and sorry you had to do all the work again” said Hyukkie while he moved the tray of meat.
“That’s ok, did you get enough wood?” asked Donghae
“Yea I got plenty of wood…in fact while I was collecting the wood when I me-“Hyukjae was stopped by a sudden knock at the door.
They both looked at each other and then at the door. Both were not expecting anyone until tomorrow. Wondering who it could be Donghae went to answer the door, as soon as he opened it he regretted it.
“Umm hello… may I help you?” asked Donghae to a very pretty girl with milky white skin, shiny long black hair, who was wearing an extremely short skirt that showed off her very pretty legs.
“Yes, I was looking for-“she started looking into the cabin, “Hyukjae oppa” said the girl as she waved at his Hyukkie.
“Oh you’re here” said Hyukkie amused as he walked toward the door.
“Hyukkie, you know this girl?” asked Donghae
“Yea, this is Katie, I met her while I was out collecting the wood. She’s a dance major and she and her two friends are in the cabin next to ours only a couple minutes away,” he said smiling. Donghae didn’t like this, this girl had already kept his Hyukkie away longer than he had to be, while he was waiting at home alone, and now here she was invading the cozy little bubble they’ve created over the last two days.
“Oh” was all he could respond.
“What are you doing here Katie?” asked Hyukkie as he noticed that Donghae did not like the sudden appearance of their visitor.
“Oh, I just came over to see if you and your friend wanted to come over to our cabin, were having a bon fire, but an adult bon fire” she said with a teasing smile.
“Yea, what’s so adult about it?” asked Hyukkie playfully.
“Nothing really, you’ll have to come to find out” she said.
‘Oh hell no!’ thought Donghae, ‘Look at her shamelessly flirting with my Hyukkie, no way!’ he thought
And Hyukkie looked at Donghae for a sign to accept or decline the offer. Of course Donghae was dead set against it, and Katie could sense that Donghae was leaning toward no so she quickly added, “Please oppa, you’d really be doing us a favor, we really don’t know anything about a building a fire and we brought a lot of drinks, too many and we need to finish them, so please come tonight” she finished by giving the most vomiting puppy-dog face, so Donghae thought.
“Well,” said Hyukkie looking at Donghae, “We already made plans to build a pit ourselves and cook dinner…” said Hyukkie and Donghae smiled brightly.
“But I guess we could just combine everything together and have a party” said Hyukkie.
“Really” said Katie happily, “Honestly we’ve been living on ramen and snacks since we got here. Are you sure there’s enought though?” she asked.
“There’s more than enough food, right Donghae” asked Hyukkie with hopeful eyes to the boy who had been standing completely still out of shock till Hyukkie spoke to him. Hyukkie kept looking at him with hopes of an approval, Donghae could tell that he really wanted to go. Donghae was always a sucker for a pretty face and answered, “Yea there’s plenty to go around”.
“Great” said the girl, “So we’ll see you at our place in a little bit” said Katie as she waved and left.
Hyukkie continued to linger at the door for a little while, watching the girl get smaller and smaller, until she disappeared.
“I guess we better pack up the meat up so we can bring it over,” said Hyukkie.
“Donghae,” said Hyukjae when he noticed the younger boy looked like someone who had sucked all the energy out of his body. “It’s okay that I said yes right?” asked Hyukjae. Donghae looked at him and wanted to yell at the boy.
‘Of course it’s not ok! We had plans, we were suppose be spending time together but then you go and meet that girl and her friends and leave me all alone here, worrying where you were and the whole time you were out with her! I wanted to spend a nice night together, like yesterday, me and you, your fishy wife and my monkey hubby, I wanted to tell you how I felt tonight, but now that’s all shot to hell. Why, do you want to go so badly? Are you bored after only two days of being just with me? Are you interested in that girl? Why don’t you just want to stay here with me? Aren’t you happy, just the two of us?’ he thought but of course didn’t say out loud.
“Yea of course its ok, I mean you really want to go right?” asked Donghae and Hyukkie nodded breaking Donghae’s heart a little, but he wasn’t going to let that girl ruin his plans. “Hyukkie…”
“Hmm”
“You mind if we don’t stay too long though”
“Sure, but why?” asked Hyukkie
“I just want to get back so we can spend sometime together just the two of us, I wanted to talk to you about something” he said to the floor
Hyukkie laughed, “This whole trip has been just the two of us Hae,” he said but quickly added on when he saw Donghae’s face drop, “I’ll make sure were back early okay, we’ll be in and out of there, then we’ll do whatever you want ok”
“Really” said Donghae eagerly
“Yea of course, so what is this something you want to tell me and why haven’t you told me earlier?” asked Hyukkie.
“Later” said Donghae flushing a little as he tried to be coy. Hyukkie couldn’t help but to smile up at him, ‘He’s definitely up to something’ thought Hyukjae.
Finally after packing up everything they thought they’d needed they headed over to Katie’s cabin. Donghae still felt very apprehensive over the whole thing but he tried to reinsure himself, telling himself that he and Hyukkie would be back in no time and back to their own little bubble where Donghae could confess to the boy he loved, who he hoped felt the same way.
After a couple minutes of walking the pair finally made it to the girl’s cabin. Donghae looked around and saw that it was the exactly same as theirs as they walked through to the back yard.
“There here” announced Katie to two other girls as they walked up to them. “You guys know Hyukjae oppa, and this is his friend, Donghae, right?” asked Sandy
“Yea, Donghae, Fishy” said Hyukkie
“But only Hyukkie’s allowed to call me that” said Donghae quickly, the last thing he wanted was to hear a bunch of girls calling him fishy, that was Hyukkie’s pet name for him and he would only allow him to call him that.
“Ok then, I’m Alex” said the first girl who was taller than him but who was pretty in her own tomboy-ish way. “Just Donghae, not Fishy” she said as she shook his hand roughly.
“I’m Mary,” waved another girl seated in a chair, she was the shortest of the three but Donghae could tell that on the dance floor she had an elegant presence and he could tell that she was the quite shy type.
Soon the bbq/bonfire went underway. Everyone was getting along pretty well, but Donghae noticed that Katie kept crowding around his Hyukkie and he didn’t like it. They all ate and drank happily as the night started getting darker and colder. And after they drank they drank some more, well all expect Donghae, he was never one to drink, he didn’t see the point. And Donghae also didn’t want to confess under the influence, he wanted to do it in a conscious state where he could say everything he wanted to say and not have the whole thing written off as, oh well he was drunk, what do you expect. He didn’t want Hyukkie to be drunk either, to his happiness he was hardly drinking that night. Donghae smiled, he’d like to think that Hyukkie wasn’t drinking because of him, because he knew that he wanted to spend time with him afterward and that he knew it wouldn’t be fair to him if he was drunk.
“Just Donghae oppa, why are you smiling so happily?” asked Alex as she saw that he was smiling and looking at Hyukjae. And she could tell that this oppa was in love with Hyukjae but she also knew that Katie had a major crush on him as well, ‘I think I’m in love’ might have been the exact phrase Katie used, so naturally like any good friend and wing man she got to work on making sure that her friend got the guy and no one else did. “So Donghae oppa I hear you and Hyukjae oppa are pretty good dancers” she said giving a fake smile.
“Oh, I’m pretty good I guess, but I can’t compare to Hyukkie, he’s a dancing machine” he said blushingly.
“Really, you know Katie is the best dancer in our class,” she said and Donghae nodded politely, “Katie, you should really show us some of your moves, I don’t think Donghae oppa doesn’t believes me”
“What?!?!” she said wide-eyed and embarrassed that her friend wanted her to suddenly dance.
“What are you embarrassed, Hyukjae oppa will accompany you, right oppa” said Alex and before he could answer yes or no she said, “Good, you should do that dance you did last quarter” she said with a smirk.
And Donghae saw Katie get red in the face and knew that whatever the number was she did he was absolutely not going to like it.
“Alex I can’t, we can’t,” she said horrified trying to plea to her friend
“Your probably right, Hyukjae oppa doesn’t know the number and he isn’t classically trained like us, who knows if he can keep up with you” she purposely said knowing that as a man Hyukjae wouldn’t be able to stay quiet and not dance.
“What, just because I haven’t been classically train doesn’t mean I haven’t been trained, if I were you I would be worried about trying to keep up with me” he said a little annoyed, they didn’t know him, he had been practicing dance since he was in elementary school, he’ll show them. “Do you have the music” he asked as he stood up and quickly stretched.
“Yea I do,” said Alex getting her ipod and turning it to the right song.
“Okay Katie you go first and then Hyukjae oppa just enter when you think you’ve got it” said Alex.
Donghae was not liking this, Alex was obviously setting something up. Donghae now knew that Katie absolutely liked his Hyukkie or why else would her friend go all this trouble. He began to get nervous and mixed himself a drink to calm himself down and then another when he saw Katie asking for the music.
The music started, it was low and sensual. Donghae’s eye’s doubled in size when he saw Katie move. She dance so well, elegantly and like the song very sensual, if Donghae wasn’t one hundred percent in love with Hyukkie and only had eyes for him then he would definitely be turned on, and so he reached for a bottle and started drinking so that he could have something to do other than just stare. Thankfully the beat started to speed up but so did her erotic dance moves. Donghae didn’t know what to do, he could only watch, gawking as he started drinking the contents of the bottle like it was water. Watching Katie was strangely stimulating and very intimate, like he shouldn’t be watching but couldn’t help it, Donghae just kept hoping that his mother didn’t walk in on him. And then to his horror he saw his monkey moving in closer and closer, his whole being changed the way it usually changed whenever he seriously danced, when he transformed from the goofy, kind-hearted monkey into a passionate, charismatic, intense man.
‘It’s only a dance, it’s only a dance’ thought Donghae as he saw his Hyukkie moving in sync with Katie, and he grabbed another bottle out of the cooler. ‘There only dancing, it means nothing, it doesn’t mean Hyukkie likes her, he just loves dancing too much’ he thought as he cringed at the sight of his Hyukkie practically making love to Katie on the dance floor, their bodies moving as one to the beat. Donghae couldn’t take much more of it, he thanked the heavens when he heard the song slowly die down and the two dancers awkwardly but quickly moved away from each other.
“Woooo” yelled out Alex as she loudly clapped and Mary followed suit. “You guys were…wooo” she said as she fanned herself.
“Yea you guys were great, Hyukjae oppa you’re a great dancer” said Mary shyly, still blushing at the dance she just saw.
“Thank you” said Hyukjae a deep shade of red as he realized what he just did.
“You really are oppa” said Katie getting an even brighter shade of red.
“You’ve been awfully quite Donghae oppa, what’d you think, I bet you never dreamed that Hyukjae oppa could move like that” said Alex grinning, “You got to admit the way they moved together, the chemistry, it’s like they were made for one another…sure to be a great dancing couple” she said. “That is of course if you two decided to take this show on the road and compete, I’m sure you’d blow the competition away”
Donghae stared at the girl and she was right, even a blind person would be able to sense the chemistry they shared on the dance floor. And Donghae had never seen his Hyukkie move so well with anyone else ever before. And he was sure that if they wanted to they could become professional dancers and win every award out there, they were just that good together, there was no denying it. Donghae kept staring at the girl wanted to make her disappear when Hyukkie came into his line of vision.
Hyukkie walked over to him and placed his arm over the younger boy, and looked at him with a questioning look.
“You were great Hyukkie, the both of you” was all Donghae could say as he looked from Hyukkie to Katie and sadness came over him.
“You guys should really think about maybe teaming up, you’d do great in competitions” said Mary
“Yea” said Alex
“Yea” said Donghae in agreement not being to lift his head, already thinking of how he would probably be seeing a lot more of Katie.
“Really?” asked Hyukjae as he shook Donghae under his arm so that the boy would look at him, “Then what about us”
“Us?” asked Donghae
“Yea, am I or am I not already committed to what is sure to be the greatest group this country’s ever seen” he finished with a gummy smile.
“Hyukkie…” said Donghae, he was so touched he could have cried but he told himself he couldn’t.
“Unless you plan to divorce me and debut without me” said Hyukkie with his a cute pouting face. Donghae shook his head. “Good, because I don’t want any kind of future or career if your not there… or the other members, okay” said Hyukkie as he wrapped his other arm around the younger boy and pulled him closer so that Donghae’s back rested on his chest. As he swayed himself and Donghae from side to side he wondered why he had just said all that. He hadn’t meant to say such sappy things but after one look at Donghae and the venerable state he was in, he couldn’t help himself. But he wasn’t thinking such things though, ‘So sappy… If there not coming out of my brain then where are these thoughts coming from’, thought Hyukkie.
“Aww” said Mary as she watched the scene in front of her.
Donghae and Hyukkie both blushed, and Hyukjae went back to having only one arm around his friend, not wanting to let go of him just yet.
As for Alex her eyes grew twice there size as she saw the way the two boys were acting, she wondered if Hyukjae felt the same way she thought Donghae felt. And she decided to find out.
There was an uncomfortable silence for a while and then Mary suggested that they make smores and sit around the bonfire and just have a free talk. So all five gathered around the bonfire, somehow both Katie and Alex ended up sitting next to Hyukkie, so Donghae had to settle on sitting next to Alex. They all started roasting their marshmallows and started drinking as they started to talk about their childhoods and the last time any of them had roasted marshmallows. Well everyone expect Donghae, he didn’t feel like drinking at the moment, he was actually starting to feel a little tipsy from the drinks he inhaled earlier and he was never a fan of the marshmallow, mini marshmallows yes, but big fat ones like the ones they were using now, no. Donghae sat there politely nodding, laughing when everyone else was laughing, trying not to get caught that he really wasn’t paying attention because his mind was somewhere else.
Donghae was thinking about him and Hyukkie, how later on tonight he would finally tell the other boy that he loved him. He could feel the adrenaline pumping and his heart racing, just of the thought of it but he knew he was making the right decision and he was pretty sure that Hyukkie felt the same way he did. He looked over at his Hyukkie and smiled, he thought that hopefully after tonight he will finally be able to say those words out loud, my Hyukkie. He giggled but abruptly stopped when he saw Katie lean over and whispered something in his Hyukkie’s ear. How glad he would be after tonight when he could finally be able to tell everyone to back off, not to touch his Hyukkie, that he was his and only his. He sighed looking up at the sky, he was starting to get impatient, he was just waiting for everyone to finish their smores so that he could excuse himself and Hyukkie, I mean after they ate their smores (dessert) what else was there to do.
Hyukjae looked over at Donghae and smiled, he wondered if the boy was looking to see if he spotted any aliens.
“Hyukjae oppa what are you doing?” asked Katie as she watched the dancer take the marshmallow he was roasting into his hands, she laughed, the marshmallow must be scolding his hands but he continued what he was doing. Finally once was finished he looked up and smiled his gummy smile that she thought was so cute. She looked down at his hands and saw that they were red allover, he had burnt himself doing whatever he had wanted to do.
“Oppa your hands” she said horrified, and that got everyone’s attention, as they stared over at him, “What are you doing, you have to be careful, the marshmallows are smoldering hot, why would you do such a thing to yourself” she said as she took her napkin and dabbed it in water and started cleaning his hands.
Donghae watched on, angered that she was touching his Hyukkie so freely.
“I’m ok” said Hyukjae as he pulled his hand away from Katie.
“What do you think your doing?” asked Katie again. She was really starting to annoy Hyukjae, who was she, his mother, scolding him like that in front of everyone, besides he had a good reason for doing it.
“I was just trying to cut the marshmallow in half, I didn’t realize how sticky and messy it’d be though” he said laughing at himself, biting his palm, getting the excess sugary treat off his hands.
“Why would you cut it in half?” she asked again in a belittling tone.
“Because” said Hyukkie still biting his palm
“Because…” she asked again only a little more annoyed.
“Because Hae doesn’t like marshmallows that much, only in small amounts,” he said getting up walking over to the stunned boy who didn’t think the dancer would remember such a trivial thing. “So I had to cut the marshmallow, so I can make my fishy wife the perfect smore” he said as he extended his hand containing the smore to Donghae.
“Hyukkie…”said Donghae as he took the smore and now saw how red his hands were. He quickly grabbed his Hyukkie’s hand looking at it, he was outraged and he was surprised Katie didn’t make a bigger deal over his hands, he knew he would have. How he wished he could just kiss his hand until it stopped being red, he wanted to lick and gently bite away all the bits of marshmallow that still clung to his beautiful palms. But most of all he was mad at Hyukkie for mistreating his hands so carelessly “Hyukjae” said Donghae in an angry tone and expression. But it had no affect on Hyukjae, he just smiled down at him, “Hae your cute when your mad” he said taking his hand back, “Hae aren’t you going to eat the smore I made you” he asked as he walked back to his seat and gave him a pout. Donghae smiled and took a bite of his special monkey made smore, “It’s really good, thank you Hyukkie” he said blushing as everyone was looking at him.
“Awww” said Mary, “You guys are so loving”, which only made Donghae and Hyukkie blush deeper.
“Pssh…all that just so you can give him a smore” said Alex bitterly, but Donghae didn’t pay any attention to her, because for him this was another testament to how much his Hyukkie cares for him and another piece of evidence that proves that Hyukkie felt the same way he did.
“Can I ask you something Hyukjae oppa?” asked Mary
“Sure” said Hyukkie smiling silly as he stuck another marshmallow to the end of his stick and began to roast it.
“Earlier I heard you say something about divorce and right now you called Donghae oppa your fish wife, what is up with that?”
“Fishy wife, my wifey” he corrected the girl, “It’s just a nickname that I gave Donghae yesterday after he kicked me out of the kitchen, and it reminded me of those old shows where the wife is carefully preparing dinner and then the husband comes in just to see what she’s doing because he’s curious and misses his wife but she ends up kicking him out of the kitchen, saying he’s distracting her,”
“Is that what happened?” she asked genuinely intrigued
“Yea, my wifey even banished me to the living room” he said and they both laughed, but the other two girls didn't.
“Donghae oppa” said Mary, and he was quickly pulled out of the happy memories of the day before.
“Hmm” he answered
“If Hyukjae oppa calls you his fishy wife, what do you call him” she asked giggling.
“Oh,” he started to laugh and looked over at Hyukkie to see if he could say it, since he didn’t see any protest he told the girl, “Hyukkie’s my monkey hubby” he said. And Mary’s lips curved up, she tried not to laugh but when she looked over at Hyukkie she couldn’t help it, she exploded with laughter and so did everyone else.
“Oh, I’m sorry Hyukjae oppa, it’s just you have to squint and imagine the reasons why you call Donghae oppa your fishy wife but monkey hubby suits you too perfectly” said Mary as everyone started laughing again.
“Mary, don’t be rude to Hyukjae oppa, you’ll hurt his feelings” said Alex, “Besides some people find monkeys to be very cute, right Katie” she said arching a brow at him.
“Yes, I think monkeys are very cute, they were always my favorite animal to visit at the zoo, I always wanted to cry because I thought it was sad that they were always had to be locked away” said Katie
“Really that’s very interesting” said Hyukkie.
And slowly Katie and Alex were monopolizing Hyukjae’s time again. Donghae was left there by himself, waiting and hoping that Hyukkie would remember that they still had plans. Donghae was getting frustrated by the other girls, so he got himself a drink. And when they were still all over his Hyukkie he got himself another drink and then another.
Finally Hyukkie noticed that Donghae was acting strangely, and that he was drinking an awful lot, which was very strange since he never saw Donghae drink before.
In the middle of his drinking Donghae came up with an excellent plan, he was going to pretend to be drunk, that way he and Hyukkie could finally leave and he could get on with finally confessing to him. But at this point in time Donghae didn’t even need to pretend that he was drunk, he practically was drunk, he had been drinking since the middle of their gathered, but then again he did have a high tolerance so he was still pretty coherent.
“Hae, Hae” said Hyukkie interrupting the conversation when he saw his friend twitching around in his seat. “I’m sorry,” he said as he got up and walked over to his friend. He bent down to get a good look at his friend and he could smell the alcohol right away, he sighed, ‘Idiot, I thought we were going to hang out after this, your going to have such a hang over tomorrow’ thought Hyukjae.
“I’m sorry, I think he’s drunk, I should take him home now,” said Hyukkie poking his cute fishy’s face.
“What, already, it’s still early,” said Katie while she looked on to Alex for help. And Alex looked over to the said drunken boy and he saw that a smile could be plainly seen on his face, and knew that he was faking it.
“Oppa if he’s out, then you could let him rest in the bedroom while he sobers up a bit, that way you could stay a while longer and you wouldn’t have to be stuck all alone in your cabin,” she said with a smirk as she saw Donghae’s smile disappear.
“Yes oppa you should let him rest a while, that way he can sober up and you won’t have to carry him the entire way back all by yourself,” she said with hopeful eyes
“Well,” said Hyukkie, not sure whether he should let Donghae rest a while before he tried moving him.
“Great”, said Alex making the decision for him. She smirked at Donghae but of course he couldn’t see it, he’s eyes were still closed pretending to be drunk. So Hyukkie carried Donghae over to the living room and laid him on the couch, affectionately running his fingers out of the boys face until the girls called him out again. As Hyukkie left him on the couch, he cursed those thrifty girls for coning him into staying longer.
Luckily/Unluckily for Donghae, Hyukkie left the door open so he could hear all that they were saying, there were also more bottles of alcohol around the living room. ‘How much booze did these girls buy, they seem to have spent as much as we do (Super Junior) on food’ thought Donghae as he grabbed a bottle and began to drank as he heard Hyukkie laughing happily at something one of the girls said.
As more time went on he could tell that the girls were drinking more and more as well, they grew louder and laughed more erratically, and they kept interrupting one another.
“Actually I once went to-“started Katie but was interrupted by a now drunk Alex.
“Hold on!” she yelled, “I’ve been wondering something every since you got here tonight,” she said pointing at Hyukkie. Hyukkie said nothing and just stared at her, hoping that she didn’t throw up on him.
“You and Donghae are weird, not normal…relationship,” she slurred, and Hyukkie just stared at her, trying to see where she was getting at. “This whole night Katie has been all over you…and you don’t even do anything, make a move!” she yelled at him. And Hyukkie just stared at her, embarrassed, Hyukkie was never good at telling when someone was into him, obviously. Alex saw the look on his face and yelled out again, “Seriously…seriously, you couldn’t tell…man I feel bad for him,” she said now angrily,
“Him?” asked Hyukjae
“Yea Donghae,” she spit out, and Hyukkie didn’t like the way she said his name, he started getting angry. “Aren’t you guys together, aren’t you two gay for each other” she spat out, and Hyukkie was taken a back, not because she thought that they were an item but because the way she said and looked when she said gay.
Hyukkie had never seen such hate and disgust put into any word. He started getting very angry, ‘So what if I was gay, is there anything wrong with that, if two people loved each other then why would it matter if they were both male or of the opposite sex’ thought Hyukkie, but he only got more angry, thinking about it, ‘What’s so wrong about two people loving each other, so what if I love Donghae, who is she too make such a face, like its wrong, like its something to be ashamed of’ he thought. And he went over what she said to him again and finally erupted in anger, “Gay, Gay!” yelled out Hyukjae, “Me and Donghae…” and he got in closer and whispered “You should be so lucky to find anyone to love you as much as I love Donghae, bitch” he finished as he heard glass shattering coming from inside the cabin, and he immediately ran over, hoping that Donghae hadn’t hurt himself.
~*****~
Donghae was still drinking listening intently when he heard Alex loudly say his name
“You and Donghae are weird, not normal…relationship,” said Alex and Donghae didn’t like the way she was talking to his Hyukkie but he kept still because he was suppose to be passed out drunk and he started listening again.
“This whole night Katie has been all over you…and you don’t even do anything, make a move!” she yelled out and Donghae about charged the door, he knew it, that this whole thing was just a way to get his Hyukkie with that girl but he stopped himself when he heard Alex talk again.
“Seriously…seriously, you couldn’t tell…man I feel bad for him,” she said and Donghae’s heart started racing, he wanted to go out there and yell at her, he knew where she was getting at and he hoped that she would stop, he wanted to tell Hyukkie, he didn’t want some drunk bitch to reveal his secret.
“Him?” asked Hyukjae
“Yea Donghae,” she spit out, “Aren’t you guys together, aren’t you two gay for each other”, Donghae gasped, he could hear the hate and disgust even from inside the cabin and he waited to see what Hyukkie would respond.
“Gay, Gay!” yelled out Hyukjae, “Me and Donghae…” Donghae listened and he had never heard Hyukjae so angry, was the thought of him and Donghae really that angering. Did he too feel disgusted thinking that someone thought they were a couple, his heart started to ache, not only had he misread all of Hyukjae’s actions toward him, he actually believed that the other boy loved him back. He couldn’t take it anymore, his heart was making things unbearable for him, he needed to leave. So Donghae downed the rest of the bottle in his hands and threw it across the room in a fit of sorrow, and he ran out of there before Hyukkie came in to check on him.
~*****~
“Hae, Hae” said Hyukkie as he ran in to see that Donghae was no longer in the living room and he saw that the front door was wide open. Without a second thought he ran out and went to search for his fishy. But wasn’t long until he found him, Donghae was staggering around, trying to get some distance between him and Hyukkie, but being drunk doesn’t help when trying to run away.
“Hae, what are you doing?” asked Hyukkie as he caught up to the younger boy. Donghae said nothing, he just kept trying to walk to their cabin, he wasn’t sure what to say. He staggered again and fell to the ground. Hyukkie reached over and tried to help his friend up but as soon as he touched Donghae he yelled out at him, “Don’t touch me!” But Hyukkie ignored him thinking that he was just an affect of the alcohol, so he grabbed his friend again only to feel Donghae flinch and pull away.
“Don’t touch me Hyuk” he yelled out. And Hyukjae staggered back in shock and pain, it felt as if he had been slapped in the face, how could Donghae reject his help, his touch.
“Hae, what’s wrong? Are you mad at me?” said Hyukkie as he walked beside his friend, making sure that he didn’t touch him. When Donghae didn’t say anything he continued, “Hae I’m sorry, whatever I did, please forgive me” pleaded Hyukkie, he didn’t know what he did or that he had even done anything wrong but he knew that he didn’t want Donghae to flinch away from him, he felt his throat closing and his tears swelling in his eyes. Still Donghae didn’t say anything and soon they saw the light from their own cabin up ahead and Hyukkie was happy that they were almost home and out of the woods were Donghae couldn’t fall and hurt himself on anything hard.
“Hae, Hae please talk to me!” he yelled out as soon as they walked through the door.
Donghae stopped dead in his tracks, he was hurting but he hurt even more after he heard Hyukkie call to him. He quickly wiped his eyes and turned to look at Hyukkie. As soon as he saw him he fell to his knees and sobbed.
Hyukkie rushed over to him and hugged him. “Hae I’m sorry, I’m sorry” he said and he was, he was sorry that he didn’t look after him and stayed longer with those girls, he was sorry that Donghae wasn’t talking to him, and he was sorry that Donghae was obviously hurting. Going on his gut feeling he then asked, “Donghae didn’t you want to tell me something?” he asked and Donghae sobbed harder. Hyukjae didn’t push it any further. After a few more minutes Donghae fell asleep in his embrace.
Hyukkie picked him up and placed him on the bed, he watched Donghae sleep for a while, brushing his hair out of his face. He was memorized by his face, he took in each of his beautiful features until he ended up staring at his flawless pink lips. That’s all he could see as he went over the last two days in his head, Donghae making dinner, his fishy wife kicking him out of the kitchen, finding Donghae on the floor asleep with dry tears on his cheeks and fixing his dinner, watching how happy Donghae was when he thought had cooked the meal well, and then today how happy they both were eating breakfast going on a hike and having a picnic on the trail. Hyukkie didn’t notice how truly happy he was, just the two of them, so he kicked himself when he thought how he ran into Katie and how he agreed to go over and have their little gathering, when he had it so good when it was just him and his fishy wife.
He continued to stare at those beautiful lips, and thought about what Alex said to him and then he thought about he said in return. And it wasn’t until then did his words really sink in, “You should be so lucky to find anyone to love you as much as I love Donghae…” ‘As much as I love Donghae’ thought Hyukkie, ‘I love Donghae’ and Hyukkie felt this sensation in his heart which made him know that he was right, as if his heart was confirming something his brain wasn’t getting until now. And he looked over at Donghae and gave a small smile, he thought maybe he should be in shock or be freaking out that he was in love with one of his best friends but he wasn’t, everything was like normal only now his rose colored glasses were off and he could finally see and appreciate Donghae on a whole new level.
This new level made him see his fishy better now and he saw how beautiful he truly was, and how his lips seem to call out to him. Hyukjae couldn’t control himself anymore as he bent lower and lower, brushing his fingers through Donghae’s hair and he closed his eyes and met the others lips. He stayed still for a while, his lips still on Donghae, how he loved the way his lips seemed to fit Donghae’s perfectly, how warm and soft they were, but something was wrong. And he felt Donghae stir underneath him, and that’s what was wrong, Donghae shouldn’t be asleep not knowing he was kissing him, Donghae should be conscious, kissing him back, letting him tell Donghae how much he loved him.
Pulled back and got up and left to get dressed for bed. When he got back he watched Donghae again before he crawled into bed. As if Donghae knew that Hyukkie needed him, he cuddled next to the man. Hyukkie smiled and thought that for now their embrace would have to do, until he knew what to do and how to go about it.
The next day Donghae woke up with a horrible head ache. He felt like shit, and then he looked over to see his Hyukkie’s arms holding him tightly. ‘This is new’ thought Donghae as he was always the one who draped himself all over Hyukkie. He tried to get up but his head was spinning, he tried to remember what had happened yesterday, but he could only remember snippets of the night. He knew that he should be upset with Hyukkie, but he wasn’t sure why, ‘Judging by how hung-over I am we he probably forgot that we had plans to leave early and which means we probably stayed there way too long, which means I didn’t get to confess’ he thought and got upset, he was now getting angry at his Hyukkie, he was hung-over and felt bad because of him and he didn’t get to spend time with him and confess because of him.
The rest of the morning was spent in silence, Donghae was angry and felt bad so he ignored Hyukkie and Hyukkie was avoiding Donghae, he didn’t want the boy to know that he now was thinking of him as more than just a friend and he couldn’t stop staring at those lips, so he kept his distance.
Around mid-morning they heard a bus pull up and saw their members filing out. Everyone came in and greeted Donghae and Hyukjae. They all told them that they missed the two boys every much.
“So you guys were stuck here all alone, how’d that go?” asked Teukie with an arched eye brow. And both Hyukkie and Donghae looked at each other, then looked away and blushed.
“Do you think something happened?” asked Hankyung in his broken accent
“I hope so, they need to do it and get it over with, can’t stand all this will they ever crap” said Heechul with a rotten smile.