huge f'n survey
What is your name?: Janis Virginia Bellon
What do you want it to be? J-Rock (that's short for Janis the Rockstaaaaah!)
Are you named after anyone?: Hint - 60's rocker with scruffy voice that died of an overdose.
What's your screename?: furiousrose01
Would you name a child of yours after you?: probably not.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Mom sez my name would have been Gabriel Grant
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: April's last name is Hudson...I don't know why I like that name...Her brother's name is Mitchell Hudson. That's hot.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: oh yeah...nobody spells "Janis" right (Janice, Janicse, Janize) or Bellon (Bellion, Bullion, Billion) correctly.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: doubt it. My last name would be Rockstar.
Basics
Your gender:: ::looks down:: Yup, it's a girl!
Straight/Gay/Bi:: quite lesbian, thank you very much
Single?: Painfully and perpetually so.
If not, do you want to be?: grrrr...
Birthdate:: 1 February 1983
Your age:: 22 and some change
Age you act:: older than I wish
Age you wish you were:: 22 is a nice round number to me...this year has treated me well.
Eye color:: Hazel
Happy with it?: sure
Hair color:: light brown/dirty blonde
Happy with it?: sure
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Righty
Your living arrangement:: I live with my beastly Long-Haired Siamese in a one-bedroom apartment close to LSU's campus.
Your family:: My endeared...my beloved. (Side note: can't wait until my brothers grow up.)
Have any pets?: My cat, Sterling.
Whats your job?: Intern teacher / Tutor @ LSU's Academic Center for Student Athletes (the job that pays)
Piercings?: just my ears.
Tattoos?: no, but thinking about it, now that I have a little extra cash...
Obsessions?: you know...I love music, and I love reading...and I love language. Anything to do with words - that's it.
Addictions?: Diet Coke. Well...all cold caffeinated beverages, preferably those in a Quik-E Mart cup.
Do you speak another language?: Je parle un peu de francais (something I need to work on if I'm going overseas!)
Have a favorite quote?: I have many favorites...way too many to list
Do you have a webpage?: besides this and myspace? no. i'm too technologically ignorant.
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: I try. I certainly try.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I can tolerate absolutely anything but dishonesty, blatant ignorance, and willingly refusing education.
Do you have any secrets?: Very few. And what I keep secret is usually between me and God.
Do you hate yourself?: Eh, no.
Do you like your handwriting?: Actually, I do. I think it has character (which is another way of saying that other people usually can't read it).
Do you have any bad habits?: oy...several.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Damn, you're smart (a compliment I hate...)
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "I-10 Vagabond"
What's your biggest fear?: Regretting something I chose not to do out of fear
Can you sing?: well, that's debatable. I think I can sing...but most people disagree.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Let me put it this way...I wouldn't have come out if that was the case.
Are you a loner?: I can be. I go through phases where I must be with someone. Other times...leave me alone with my comfortable silences.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: My family and friends, my education, and the maintenance of my liberties
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I'd hope so. I can be complicated, though.
Are you a daredevil?: I wish...I'm rather chickenshit.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I fear I don't push myself enough.
Are you passive or agressive?: Passive to a fault
Do you have a journal?: besides this, not really. If I need to write, I will write.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength - my communication skills. Weakness - my ability to say "no".
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I would be a bit more aggressive to get what I want.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I'm much better than I once was.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Not yet...
Do you think life has been good so far?: I dare not complain.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Life is too short - you've got to let the small shit go, learn to forgive, and know who you can love completely and unconditionally.
What do you like the most about your body?: I like my smile. I think I have a killer smile.
And least? The beer gut I've been working on for the past five years.
Do you think you are good looking?: I have my moments (and Scully told me the other night that I was hot...I was completely flattered, especially coming from him.)
Are you confident?: again, I have my moments.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I would love to be Sissy Hankshaw from "Even Cowgirls Get the Blues", hitchhiking in search of the next adventure.
Are you perceived wrongly?: I don't know. Read this survey and tell me what you think.
Do You...
Smoke?: gross...
Do drugs?: not...really.
Read the newspaper?: as often as I can.
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: not as much anymore.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: I figure they know who I am...so yeah, I talk.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: well, I have these two plush footballs...
Take walks in the rain?: I have before.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Usually, no.
Drive?: yes.
Like to drive fast?: yes, even though my driving record doesn't really show it (one ticket in seven years...not bad at all)
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: um...what?
Hurt yourself?: not physically...perhaps emotionally.
Been out of the country?: Just the Bahamas when I was a kid.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: I'm pretty gastronomically adventurous, so I'm sure I have.
Been in love?: oh yes...
Done drugs?: yes
Gone skinny dipping?: hahaha, yes.
Had a medical emergency?: if you call taking a softball to the eye socket an emergency...
Had surgery?: had eight teeth removed at once (and yes, I went under.)
Ran away from home?: not since I was eight.
Played strip poker?: god no
Gotten beaten up?: not yet ;)
Beaten someone up?: not really...have tried.
Been picked on?: ::looks at watch:: not in the last hour...
Been on stage?: yes
Slept outdoors?: yes
Thought about suicide?: yes
Pulled an all nighter?: yes (thank you college)
If yes, what is your record?: probably 48 hours
Gone one day without food?: Let's put it this way - if I did, I felt BADLY that day.
Talked on the phone all night?: Oh dear...have I!
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: ha! it was a no-brainer
Slept all day?: yes
Killed someone?: no...not yet
Made out with a stranger?: yes
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: oh, more than a few times...
Kissed the same sex?: oh yes ma'am...
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yes
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: sort of. Let's say it's in the process of becoming a reality.
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes (I live in the woods; roadkill is inevitable)
On purpose?: no.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yes, but only to save someone from themselves.
Stolen anything?: yes yes yes...I'm a klepto.
Been on radio/tv?: Only on radio, several times.
Been in a mosh-pit?: Bitch, I start mosh pits.
Had a nervous breakdown?: I've come close...I'm more of a depressive episode/panic attack kind of girl.
Bungee jumped?: no...a result of being chickenshit.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: "If not, it would be an awful waste of space."
Miracles?: sure...I guess so.
Astrology?: sort of. I'm a stereotypical Aquarius, but, once again, I did not find the love of my life this week.
Magic?: I believe in honest to god spooky magic, not parlor tricks.
God?: I think I do...
Satan?: I believe in the idea of evil...not that it is personified.
Santa?: Dude, he rocks my world.
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: Not so much luck, but karma
Love at first sight?: Don't know. On the fence about that one.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: of course.
Witches?: I know a few.
Easter bunny?: No. "Jesus died for your sins; here's some marshmallow bunnies and chocolate eggs." It doesn't make sense to me.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Absolutely. Those who don't believe it have never been in love.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: Either that, or one hell of a gay bar.
Do you wish on stars?: all the time.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: oh no.
Do you think God has a gender?: If I had to guess, I'd say God is a woman...who else could be that vengeful?
Do you believe in organized religion?: I like the idea; I can't stand the bureaucracy.
Where do you think we go when we die?: I wish I knew...
HAHAHA, just four deep theological questions...
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Ew. Gay people are gross...so 50% of my friends are gross.
Who is your best friend?: Sarah and Beth.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: hmmm...I have to give that one to Sarah.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: On his deathbed the day before he passed, I went to visit my grandfather to show him my new LSU ID card. He said, "When you go to Baton Rouge, don't forget to work hard, get through, and don't be stupid." What a moment of clarity...
Your favourite inside joke?: "Wait! Wait! I'm...stopped!"
Thing you're picked on most about?: I have this thing where when I don't hear something correctly or I misunderstand something, I go "Wait...what???" I do this waaaay too often.
Who's your longest known friend?: Beth
Newest?: Wow...um...probably my program cohorts.
Shyest?: Shy? hmmmm...I really don't know any shy people. I'll come back to that.
Funniest?: Oh, probably Jason.
Sweetest?: I don't have sweet friends. They all show their love through sarcasm...each and every one.
Closest?: Sarah, definitely.
Weirdest?: Jonathon...but in the very best way.
Smartest?: Hell...Sarah wins that one. Who the hell else does advanced calculus for fun?
Ditziest?: Sarah. ;)
Friends you miss being close to the most?: April and Josh Parker
Last person you talked to online?: Katie K!
Who do you talk to most online?: Beth
Who are you on the phone with most?: my mom and Sarah tie for that one.
Who do you trust most?: my parents, my grandmother, and Sarah and her family.
Who listens to your problems?: Beth...more often than not.
Who do you fight most with?: Sarah.
Who's the nicest?: all of my friends are fairly civil...until you fuck with them!
Who's the most outgoing?: uh...hmmm. See, it goes with the no-shy-friends thing. We are all crazy fools that will do almost anything.
Who's the best singer?: ha! Rachel and Marisa are the best singers.
Who's on your shit-list?: It takes a lot to get on my shitlist...and the list is about five people long. I'll be nice and not reveal those names to the public.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: well...
Who's your second family?: Sarah's family
Do you always feel understood?: God no. I should come with a decoder.
Who's the loudest friend?: Amy. Has to be Amy.
Do you trust others easily?: no, I don't.
Who's house were you last at?: I'm at my dad's right now...was at my mom's earlier today.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: loaded question. Next, please.
Do your friends know you?: I'd like to think so.
Friend that lives farthest away:: Laurie lives in London and Denton lives in Paris...they are the farthest right now.
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: oh no...one grows from love moving in and out of your life.
What do you find romantic?: Total drop of defenses, when someone exposes themselves to be completely vulnerable and absolutely unashamed of who they are.
Turn-on?: Intelligence. A warm smile. Witticisms. Quirks. And, honestly...boobs.
Turn-off?: Willing ignorance. Dishonesty. Refusal to read a book.
First kiss?: oh man...that had to be "Tom" from "San Francisco"
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: somewhat flattered (how many decent looking guys have I had to turn down...)
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out: oh absolutely.
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: Sure. I also think it's acceptable for a girl to ask a girl.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Well, I've always thought the people I was with were somewhat physically attractive.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: A guy I went to high school with hit on me earlier this week. Apparently, I do something...sometimes.
What is best about the opposite sex?: Physical strength.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Overwhelming tendency to be belligerant (not all!)
What's the last present someone gave you?: My mom's girlfriend gave me a bottle of vodka for Christmas! (happy fuckin' new year!)
Are you in love?: sure I am. but, I am not involved with anyone. It's not so much romantic as it is endeared.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: I lack one...
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Dr. Guillory
You wanted to kill?: Both of my brothers.
That you laughed at?: My mother
That laughed at you?: My dad
That turned you on?: psh...Elizabeth Shue in "The Saint"
You went shopping with?: Trish
That broke your heart?: April
To disappoint you?: Becky
To ask you out?: Becky
To make you cry?: Dr. Guillory
To brighten up your day?: My dad
That you thought about?: I can't answer that right now
You saw a movie with?: My 'rents and brothers (HP4, yay!)
You talked to on the phone?: Mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Beth
You saw?: Dad, before he went to bed.
You lost?: my grandmother
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: oh no.
Will it be with your significant other?: no SO
Or some random person?: not going out!!!
What are you wearing right now?:: grey gym shorts and a white t-shirt
Body part you're touching right now:: my toes
What are you worried about right now?: If we will have school placements by next week.
What book are you reading?: What am I not reading???
What's on your mousepad?: Blue bubbles
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Tired, calm, semi-productive, anxious, and simply OK.
Are you bored?: no
Are you tired?: yeah, a little bit
Are you talking to anyone online?: no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: i don't know...stuck between the two.
Are you listening to music?: not at this moment
Wasn't that exciting? sure.