A mystery wrapped in an enigma.
Name: Melissa.
Nicknames: None. Never had one; never needed one.
Gender: Female.
Sexual preference: Male.
Age: 16
Chinese Zodiac: Horse.
Western Zodiac: Virgo.
Likes: Reading, writing, listening to music, singing, all kinds of fan-works, (fanart, fanfics, FSTs, banners, etc.) Japanese culture, edged weapons (I love sword, and am proud to say that I own a real Katana) movies, feeling loved. I love the people around me to pieces (friends, family) and would die if I were ever alone. I love laughing with my friends and just having a good time.
Dislikes: Bullies, ignorance, bigotry, stupidity, self-weakness, writer’s block, not having something to be passionate about, isolation, letting down those I hold dear, hurting others, mornings, cynicism, and people who take advantage of other people.
Strengths: I can appreciate the simple things in life, like feeling loved, being happy, etc. I have a very strong sense of justice, am loyal to a fault, and believe in upholding a standard of honor and integrity in my actions. I have a high level of self control. I am very creative and imaginative; I’m very introspective and aware of myself and my feelings. I’m intelligent, and I care about the people I love and want to protect them. I’m also a bleeding heart for others (unless you’ve wronged me) and would not hesitate to sacrifice my dreams or anything else for those I love.
Weaknesses: I’m incredibly insecure about myself. I often feel worthless and can sink into deep depressions. While I love most people, I hate those who have hurt me with a passion. I have a violent temper, but often regret the decisions I make when in that state. I can’t stand up for myself often, I’m painfully shy around strangers, (although this has started to change) I have a hard time hiding my emotions from others, am physically weak, and have a hard time speaking my mind. Fear of being hurt has caused me to not trust people, but an act of kindness toward me can win me over very quickly. I can’t stand isolation from other human beings. I like to have my alone time, but I also need to feel connected to others. (And I’m not talking about just being around random humanity-I mean the people I care for.) I also have a tendency to procrastinate on schoolwork.
Hobbies: Writing. I love to get lost in a story I’ve created, something that can make you cry and laugh and break down; it’s where I can feel powerful. I also love to read; basically immersing myself in anything that tells a story I can get lost in.
Talents: Writing. I’m extraordinarily talented in this field, and am constantly improving. Appreciating the things in life that are often taken for granted. I can also lie on the fly and with a straight face.
Personality in three words: Hopeful, deep, imaginative.
For yourself...
Leader or follower: Both. I don’t like to be told what to do, -unless I like the person and trust them- but I rarely have good enough ideas to lead, and hate speaking up and ordering people around.
Agressive or passive: I tend to be passive out of a fear that if I try to speak my mind, the people I’m up against will kick me down with no effort, yet I have no trouble flying off the handle with my family, because I know they won’t hurt me where it counts.
Outgoing or reserved: I’m incredibly shy, and am intensely private. I never speak up in school, and usually just sit in the back of the class and read. However, when I get around my friends, or when I’m home, I’m very lively and outgoing. (BTW, this produces a very funny reaction when a person used to the first type sees me the second way. XD)
Love or lust: Love, all the way. I cannot wait to have it, I’d give the world for it, and I believe in it above all else. I’m a romantic to my core, and I believe love is one of the most powerful forces in the universe.
Share feelings or bottle them up: Share them with my family, but keep a strong face in front of the faceless crowd.
For your ideal partner...
Leader or follower: I don’t have a preference, but I do need someone strong. Cowardice or passiveness is an instant turn-off. I need a man who will have a force of soul and the courage to back it up.
Agressive or passive: Aggressive enough to stand up for his beliefs and mine, but passive enough to respect that I’m not always able to do the same. Understanding and acceptance of me is key.
Outgoing or reserved: Either is fine. With an outgoing type, I would like someone with a sense of humor, who can cheer me up when I’m down, and will be my light in the darkness. With a reserved type, we can have our own private happiness, and will join me in that darkness, and help me see the light because he’s been through the same.
Love or lust: Love, all the way. I want the serious stuff: soul sharing, living life together, and having a man who loves my soul and everything else about me will be the greatest wish that could ever be granted. Being romantic is a definite plus.
Share feelings or bottle them up: Share them, maybe even cry with me a little. I want someone sensitive who is not afraid to look into himself, and share what is there with me.
Favorite Fruits Basket chapter/s or episode/s and why: I couldn’t choose a single chapter, but my absolute favorite Furuba moments are where they overcome their sadness, and grow stronger. That’s what I love about Furuba, not the angst or the hot guys, but how sadness and despair is overcome. The strength of triumph these moments fill you with is what keeps me coming back.
Favorite Fruits Basket character and why: Hatori and Kisa Sohma. Hatori, because I love the whole tragic love story he has with Kana, and while he mourns for what was lost, he also wishes for Yuki, Kyo, etc. to have something better. Kisa because I can relate to her because she was getting bullied, (as I was for most of my life) but also because afterward she strives to better herself and overcome weakness-to be a stronger person; I just love that about her. And I also love Tohru, just because she has so much strength in her; how she lends that strength to each of the Zodiac in turn…I guess it’s because if there was ever anything I’d strive for, it would be to be able to do that. I’ve depended on others for so long, and I’d like to return the favor.
Traits you are looking for in a partner: Strength of heart, force of will, a deep soul, intelligent, someone sensitive, romantic, will love me for me, someone who will help keep the darkness from taking me, someone who has beliefs and will stand for them, compassionate, gentle, is not afraid to show me what he feels, will accept my weaknesses and help me overcome them, and above all, someone who makes me feel loved, strong, and whole.
Traits you dislike: Stupidity, cruelty, arrogance, cowardice, shallowness, sexism, whiny, doesn’t take me seriously, fickle, never tells me he loves me, never shows any devotion to me, constantly looking at other girls, never wants to spend time with me, too realistic, cynical, someone who I always have to make the first move, someone who never shows that our relationship means anything to him, and I will never date someone who will strike at my weak points in an argument, and I mean the things I always hate about myself, the things that are the very shame of my existence.
Describe your ideal first date in detail: The setting or time of day doesn’t matter, nor does the surroundings, the weather, or any other external factor. Only the feeling I get when I’m with him: a sense of security, warmth, and that I might, for the first time, be falling in love.
Anything else? If you can, please describe why you pick the results that you picked; I’m curious to know.