*Just A Mid-Afternoon Entry
Life is crazy.
I'm trying to look happy and keep a smile on my face ..even though inside it's not a smiley face necessarily... Sometimes I wish I wasn't so shy and timid too.
I like hanging out with my friends one-on-one rather than in groups because then people don't talk over me and not hear anything that I just said ..and I don't like everyone knowing things ..it's just better ..and some people don't get thatI think .. And well people treat me better one-on-one...A lot of times, like at dinner, I tend to be ignored, except when the make fun of me/joking around and calling me satan or other things that put me down ...And sometimes I sit next to them and they only notice me when they call me satan and laugh...especially when this certain person is there...It's getting old..I'm beginning to not like dinner..or maybe sit somewhere else ..I highly doubt that they would care anyways, but it is like one of my only times of hanging out with them or seeing them ..since they rarely ever invite me or hillary to do anything with them.. that's annoying too ...They say that we're friends but where's the proof? ..When I'm 1-1, it's totally different..but I haven't done that in a while... Sometimes I feel like giving up and it's hopeless..I can't even talk to them about anything alone cause they're always doing something else..or don't want to talk or I'm just afraid to lol..it's kinda sad, but I can't do anything about it really..so i'll just have to deal with it..also it hurts inside everyday, but do I let them know or complain? noo I just try to deal with it even though it sucks and I probably couldn't get the guts to talk about it if I wanted too lol..so yea..I just feel kinda lonely and friendless sometimes-alot here at WMU.. cause it just seems that everyone has better things to do than to do/want to do anything with me most of the time
Yea I'm tired too after 2 or 3 days of only 6- 6 1/2 hours of sleep..I can't remember if it has been 2 or 3 nights in a row of that..but I'm so tired and exhausted!.. All I do is study class study class study class and study ... sigh..I can't wait until next year when it will be the 3 of us living in an apartment..It will be soooo much better for me cause it will be us 3..well maybe 4 if Jeremy is there...everyday and night ..yea that thought makes me happy lol .. and I'm soo excited for a bowl game ...And having marching band in the freezing cold and 8 inches of snow surrounding the parking lot was fun yesterday and it will be fun again today too ..and if we have it Thursday ..It's sooo cool going to a bowl game and weird having marching band in December, but I love it all!!hehe yay!..."Just Put on a Happy Face" I like that song from Bye Bye Birdie and well a lot of the songs from Bye Bye Birdie..but Put on a Happy Face is like my lil theme for now..
I love you all! and that's all for now
I'm trying to look happy and keep a smile on my face ..even though inside it's not a smiley face necessarily... Sometimes I wish I wasn't so shy and timid too.
I like hanging out with my friends one-on-one rather than in groups because then people don't talk over me and not hear anything that I just said ..and I don't like everyone knowing things ..it's just better ..and some people don't get thatI think .. And well people treat me better one-on-one...A lot of times, like at dinner, I tend to be ignored, except when the make fun of me/joking around and calling me satan or other things that put me down ...And sometimes I sit next to them and they only notice me when they call me satan and laugh...especially when this certain person is there...It's getting old..I'm beginning to not like dinner..or maybe sit somewhere else ..I highly doubt that they would care anyways, but it is like one of my only times of hanging out with them or seeing them ..since they rarely ever invite me or hillary to do anything with them.. that's annoying too ...They say that we're friends but where's the proof? ..When I'm 1-1, it's totally different..but I haven't done that in a while... Sometimes I feel like giving up and it's hopeless..I can't even talk to them about anything alone cause they're always doing something else..or don't want to talk or I'm just afraid to lol..it's kinda sad, but I can't do anything about it really..so i'll just have to deal with it..also it hurts inside everyday, but do I let them know or complain? noo I just try to deal with it even though it sucks and I probably couldn't get the guts to talk about it if I wanted too lol..so yea..I just feel kinda lonely and friendless sometimes-alot here at WMU.. cause it just seems that everyone has better things to do than to do/want to do anything with me most of the time
Yea I'm tired too after 2 or 3 days of only 6- 6 1/2 hours of sleep..I can't remember if it has been 2 or 3 nights in a row of that..but I'm so tired and exhausted!.. All I do is study class study class study class and study ... sigh..I can't wait until next year when it will be the 3 of us living in an apartment..It will be soooo much better for me cause it will be us 3..well maybe 4 if Jeremy is there...everyday and night ..yea that thought makes me happy lol .. and I'm soo excited for a bowl game ...And having marching band in the freezing cold and 8 inches of snow surrounding the parking lot was fun yesterday and it will be fun again today too ..and if we have it Thursday ..It's sooo cool going to a bowl game and weird having marching band in December, but I love it all!!hehe yay!..."Just Put on a Happy Face" I like that song from Bye Bye Birdie and well a lot of the songs from Bye Bye Birdie..but Put on a Happy Face is like my lil theme for now..
I love you all! and that's all for now