Heartache

[fyrestorming]

This is a bit of an unplanned entry, but it's something I think I need to get out and said in a public sharable way as it's been inside me for a long long time, and based on how I'm reacting confronting it it's clearly, an issue to me. So I'll just drop an LJ Cut and dive right in.

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[ext_1580446]

Gary was here. Ash is a loser!

Seriously speaking mate, know that you got lots of friends and family here that you can talk to about anything... ... ... and pizza... we have pizza... d(^_^d)

[fyrestorming]

Hehehe, yeah I know ^^, having so many is part of what makes it tricky to keep up with everyone XD. Thanks for reading my rambling though, Manjit, I already said the gist of this to you before, when we got back in touch, so I double appreciate it <3.

[ext_353368]

Stop being so paranoid man.

[fyrestorming]

Hehehe, well I try to, but it was clearly causing me problems, here, so I thought what was best was to face and deal with it ^^.

[ext_703318]

You know, quite faithfully, I love you Fyrestorm, more than I've ever loved anybody - maybe more than I ever will. If you ever fell out of touch, in that chance, you know I'll always think of you because you've left a permanent positive imprint on my life, and I know you will always be thinking of me too because I just... know you well enough to always feel that is true. <3

[fyrestorming]

I love you too Draz <3. I don't ever want to fall out of touch with you, but even if I did I'm confident you'd know I love you and will hold you as a cherished friend just as much for the rest of our lives. That I would keep you in my heart <3. Sadly there's some other people I don't think I've showed that to as well as you, that I care about a lot, which is where the painful feelings I faced by saying this came from. So I wrote this to tell them, but I'm so happy in some cases like you, you already know <3.

[ext_1583432]

Keeping in touch is hard, being understanding is harder. Not being misunderstood can be nearly impossible...

Your whole post makes me think I should try harder myself...everyone gets tired and everyone feels worn out, no reason to dwell...just gotta press on, find a way of releasing stress.

[fyrestorming]

You're right about it being hard, that's why I try really hard to understand others and see that though they come in so many different flavours, when they have problems or get busy it's probably adding up to the same end result as with me. I just get worried sometimes that because I try not to go on about my struggles, people may think I just stopped caring. But I don't <3.

I hope I can help you press on and get on top of your own struggles, too buddy :).

[valeria_15]

this entry was touching...
it was a nice read, Chris. ^_~

your birthday was yesterday...happy birthday! i hope it was wonderful...you can celebrate your birthday all week!!

[fyrestorming]

Hahaha, aww thank you V ^^! I did have a great birthday :D, although I'm still waiting to be able to arrange the party with my family, which I think is why I forgot to respond sooner, cus when I think birthday I think still waiting XD. But it was great, I had pizza and got some steam gifts, hehehe. Oh and, I hope you know this entry applies to you too, no matter how busy I am or how bad I do at staying in regular touch, you will always be a friend and mean a lot to me V, I'll always want to know you <3.

[valeria_15]

hey Chris!!

miss you. I always try to pop in every several months or so to see how some of my e-friends here from other countries are doing! Summer came and went, now it's fall, and it's getting colder.

I too am bad at regular touch, but you too will always have a place in my friendship circle.

You're an awesome buddy. Hope everything is well.