Phillip's back in livejournal bizness!

At the moment/Today...I'm sitting here realizing how retarted I am, becuz I pay for a livejournal account and never ever use it. My (AMANDA!) is commin to get me soon. Luv her. We don't know what we're going to do but I have some ideas. I got my report card and I got 2 C's 3 B's and 1 A. That's like the ( Read more... )

Today I worked, and now I'm sitting here... crying my eyes out. Why? Hmm only 3 people would understand, part of it is my Anxiety. God I just hate relationships and love. If I ever get involved with anyone just shoot me dead becuz it feels so good and then you just get ripped up. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.

Lately I've been feeling soooo much better. I went to the game yesterday with Greg, haven't chilled with him in years. We visited people and then went to Applebees. I came home and then everyone was getting ready for homecomming and I'm not even bothered one bit that I didn't go. I'm happy everyone had a good time... from what I hear. I hung ( Read more... )

"Of loving you ( Read more... )

I wrote this one becuz of how I feel when I 'get in trouble' (I wrote this in my saturday detention...

Am I guilty? I sit here, with the thought in my mind of my innocense. Do I deserve this? I question myself repeatedly. Even if I don't recieve I yet again try to prove my point and suffer the consequences. It's not worth it, I fight with ( Read more... )

I wrote a little something on having ANX below... maybe this will help you understand better...

" The first step into the doorway angers, not my emotions but my body physically. My stomach bites at my body parts. The comforting thoughts of being at home run through my mind, constantly causing myself to function improperly socially. Why does ( Read more... )

School ( Read more... )

Today was day #2 for me. I feel like it's hell all over again. I didn't go to school until my 5th and 6th hour. I went to the doctors before that and they told my mom I have the stomach flu, but get this... I suffer from anxiety. I don't see how this could be true. Maybe all the times I've dramatized this is what it really was. It's never ( Read more... )

1st day of school, and I left in the middle of 2nd hour...


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FAKE.