no. no thank you.

[g_gary]

so. i've been back almost a month now. christ it seems like longer than that. boredom and frustration drift on the damp sadness that this city has snaked into my veins. i don't mean to be melodramatic, but i just don't feel happy here. tubbs seems to be dragging his feet about that job in AZ leaving me here longer than i anticipated

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[woodyallen66]

I called today but got no answer. Just ring me sometime and we'll see what happens.

"Swallow My Pride" - The Ramones

[anonymous]

Ah, g-ga. That's the catch I guess. I think it's easy to meet people, but next to impossible to feel stimulated by them. So why even try? Sometimes loneliness pushes me towards involvement, but so far I've done a pretty good job catching myself in time. I wonder if it's healthy. All I know is that it's what I'm doing....maybe to gain some wisdom, eh? See what you said? You do meet people, you're just closed off to them. It's all that energy involved in getting to know someone better and then being at risk and then not being free and then wanting something different or just NOT THAT and it doesn't seem worthwhile anymore. Bitterness sure does get in the way of inspiration. What can you do?