Next month brings an interview to determine my fate. San Francisco, the 19th through the 21st ( Read more... )

Half of this is really on, and half of this is really off...

Your Love Element Is Metal
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but I've been online all day trying to catch up on the last month of internet-less existence. The main thing I've discovered is no confirmation on the January interview in San Francisco for the Japan thing. So priority number ichi. Also, my Halloween post included some discussion of a certain Sumista. Situation: complicated. Progress: define ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to have a baby. I think I'm going to have an abortion.

His child?

Yes.

Wake up, second nightmare about her this night, fourth this week...some sick part of me wishing it were true...wondering if this was some sort of sick restitution for the last dream...

Wake up thinking, Don't come crying to me.

Thinking, Don't worry, she

Women are too clumsy to be placed on pedestals; they will always fall off.

Minutes.Ah, Hallowe'en...what can I say, those pagans knew how to party. And the art is not dead...perhaps undead, but that's besides the point. For all of you who were not at Christian's bash, Hex, I pity your sere, insipid souls. I hope Xian's recovered from it all...she looked like she was running around with her head cut off and she wasn't even ( Read more... )

Yay me. Applied to two more companies. Worried about Nova, though...read some pretty bad slams about them and they do seem to work you harder than the others. Berlitz sounds cool, but you have to go to Japan to be hired. So GEOS is my friend. I have a good feeling about them ( Read more... )

Vacation is quickly coming to a close, and though the second part of the manuscript has come into focus, I haven't done as much work on it as I was planning. But maybe I needed to regroup. And it's not that I haven't been writing...I wrote two poems on Tuesday. I guess I'm in that sort of mood lately. Also, finally got a MySpace up and running: Read more... )

Looking back at yesterday's posts, I think, wow, I am bipolar, aren't I? But I'm still reeling...I'm such an idiot...took myself all the way back to January...forgotten how painful it was...is...It's just my fragile self-esteem is hardly resilient enough to be implicitly told by the person who mattered most in my life, you are meaningless, you are ( Read more... )

You told me once that I could call you any time I needed you, three in the morning, whenever. Well, I need you ( Read more... )