I feel so much better about life. It's not because things have changed. For they haven't. I enjoy a disguise every once in awhile. My friends make me laugh. My friends make me happy. But I will continue to feel ugly inside until I change. I don't need anyone telling me how there is "something beautiful inside" of me, blah, blah, blah. Because ( Read more... )

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
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Time Passes

When I was a child, everyone told me to enjoy my childhood because it's the best time in my life. The trouble is- I didn't listen. As my childhood passed and I became a teenager, everyone told me to enjoy my teenage years because it's the best time in my life. Once again- I didn't listen. Then I reached my senior year in high school and ( Read more... )

I am writing because I have no one to talk to. & even if I did, they wouldn't understand. So before anyone begins reading this, understand that I am writing this solely for myself.

I feel strange. I feel tired & emotionally wasted. I feel sick. Jack's funeral was yesterday. It was very somber. Death is so real. His body was like a shell. It was odd ( Read more... )

I realized last night that I actually have a sincere passion to go beyond the limits of America.
Most people would like to study abroad or you know, just travel . .
However, after a conversation with someone, it became clear to me how fascinated I am in other countries, cultures, & languages . .
I am excited about my future and what God has in store ( Read more... )

I skipped school today to look at art and "chuck some cracks" at silly birds.
Have I ever mentioned how much I love laughing?
We [nik, eli, me] were sitting in the cafe downstairs & Eli was making noises like he was birthing children.
Emily made a violent attempt at imitating a rooster.
Sehee makes me smile.
Then after school, Eli & I went to Wendy's ( Read more... )

There are some moments in life that you will never forget.
There are some people in life that you will always remember.

- - -

You never disappoint me.
You never let me down.

Why can't you change and turn things around?
Why can't you care just a little bit more about what really matters?
 Why can't you see that I care..

A girl bit me in my soccer game today.
It was pretty gross.
I have teeth marks in my finger.
We won two to zero.
Andy wasn't there and I was QUITE sad about that.
And I played really well.
Just watched The Notebook con mi madre.
It was more depressing this time around.
Gosh, Ryan Gosling is cute.

You suffered sweeter for me than anyone I'd ever known.
Don't ( Read more... )

I talked with my sister today for more than five minutes!
I miss her so much.
It's ridiculous.

Okay.
I have something to say in response to my last entry.
 "Love is patient, love is kind.. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4

I need to love others more.
I'm sorry.

Last night ( Read more... )

What I was isn't what I am.
I'd change back, but I don't know if I can.

I'm sorry I can't please everybody. If I could, I would, but it seems like I am always letting someone down. Maybe I am blind, but I don't see how I am at fault. And I have thought about it over and over and over and there is really nothing I have done wrong. Maybe we are just ( Read more... )