Comments | galaxylily: Writers blocks. And some things I feel like I need to talk about, whether you want to hear it or not

galaxylily

Writers blocks. And some things I feel like I need to talk about, whether you want to hear it or not

Jul 28, 2007 15:44

7/26/07: If you won $100 this afternoon, what would you do with it?

Deposit it. No questions.

What is one of the nicest things you've ever done for another person?I'm not sure. I would assume that it would be being me and being there for people, but maybe other people have different opions on this. I don't think I can pin down a nicest thing. ( Read more... )

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bluebombardier July 29 2007, 04:45:07 UTC

What I'm afraid of is something that I don't talk about much because everytime I mention it, I get the feeling that people just don't give a fuck. Often they tell me to get over it. Probably they're afraid of hearing what I have to say about it. Most of the time they make me feel guilty for even opening my mouth about the topic.

All the more reason you should speak out. Sometimes people would rather turn away from traumatic things than share and heal. This fear isn't something that you alone face; it's something all women have to worry about. We're together on this.

And I don’t feel better about it after letting it all out.

It's a start. You have healed a remarkable amount in thirteen years; laying it all out can help give you some insight into how you've healed, and where you might heal next. I'm no shrink. I have absolutely no experience with anything sexual or abusive whatsoever. But I'm your friend, and I'm here for you. Thank you for trusting me with this.

galaxylily July 29 2007, 19:37:25 UTC

You know, the funny thing that set me off on this topic was reading Alice Seabold's "Lucky." It dreged everything back up and now I'm just feeling kinda funny about it. Feeling stuff that I haven't felt in a long time.

Now that I'm older, I do know that what happened is more common than I'd thought most of my life. And I did survive it, if in a somewhat deviant manner. And I'm better off, I think than a lot of other people are in my position. Just a little uncomfortable. ;)

sobegurle August 4 2007, 15:33:22 UTC

I hope you don't still see yourself as 'damaged goods'. Speaking as your friend (which I totally still am, even if you're too cool for school, which is my way of saying "graduated")

I understand that, in oversimplified terms, this is rough. So my hope is that you don't feel damaged or broken or anything like that.

You're a great person to have as a friend.

galaxylily August 9 2007, 15:17:35 UTC

I don't. After actually being in a relationship, I know for sure that I'm not. I'm just a little weird.

I relize now that outside of this incident, I'm okay. I'm pretty normal and happy most of the time. I don't trust people quite as easily as I otherwise would, but I'm pretty much fine. And I think it's important for me to remember that.