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[gant_boy]

Nadine designed me an abosultely stunning layout based on a photograph that I provided. I wanted the picture because she reminds me of Jem. Mainly in the eyes and the shape of the face, the hair is similar but too short

Comments

[missnids]

It was a pleasure to make the layout for you hun. And don't worry about not knowing what to post. I have a hell of a time posting in mine, unless I really have something to say. Which apparently, of late is quite often. *smiles* Love you!

[gant_boy]

You would think that I would have something to say, I don't. I just feel very void and absent today. It's not pleasent. Love you too dollface, and again, thank you.

[missnids]

anytime.

[shadowed_jemma]

People will think I am driving you too hard. You are sick too much. ;)

[gant_boy]

I didn't mean phyisically sick that was a metaphor..Nevermind.

[shadowed_jemma]

There are times we all wonder when the bottom of our world is going to fall out. We are so used to all good things ending that we live on the border of wanting to rejoice and live, and the border of holding our breaths, incase it blows the castle of cards to the ground. We hide the stronger emotions, because to feel them, makes us miss life more than we care to truly admit. Yet we still feel them at a different level regardless of how void we feel, desire wraps around us, yet at times it feels as if we can never have all that we truly want

[gant_boy]

All I wanted was for you to see the pain and the hallow and make it right. I wanted you to seal up the wounds and fill in the void. I wanted faith and understanding. I wanted to be held and envolped in arms of strength and comfort. I felt alone. I felt empty and it wasn't you. So many doubts so much to let go of. So much to leave behind. So much to look forward to. And like I said, when is it all going to crash down? Sometimes I think I try to detroy it myself so that I can escape the wreckage with only a few bruises, rather than being un prepared and allowing it to kill me.

[shadowed_jemma]

There are times I wish to run, to hide, to avoid the feelings that gather, almost suffocating me in their wake. There are times I question my purpose, question how long it will be before change occurs and I am left aching once again. The only thing that keeps me here, keeps me beside you is my unwaivering faith in you. Regardless of whether you think you deserve it, it is yours. As am I. Now and for always. All that was, is still. In my heart and in my mind you have lived bathed in my love, even when you did not feel me, could not find me. You are my light, my love, my strength, my all. Never doubt that, even when others doubt. When you are in pain, when you feel hollow, when you need me... know I am here, that I would fall on my knees for you, do as thee wishes, courtsey, bow, cover you and take your pain. You are my all Mikael. Just as it was in the beginning so it shall be for all time.

[gant_boy]

I love you...

[april_chantia]

hi.. not much more to say then that is there?

[gant_boy]

hi.. I don't know darling you tell me. because I don't seem to know things anymore. Did you like the layout?

[april_chantia]

very nice nadine always does a beautiful job... and.. not knowing things.. isn't that the norm for anyone nowadays.. not just you hun.. not just you

[gant_boy]

Aye.

[gant_boy]

Yes, she told me and I added you back. Just be yourself, that's all I ask of anyone.