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[garage_noise]

i dunno, today just kinda sucked in general. like how i havent been able to sleep in in 3 weeks and wont be able to sleep in for another 3 weeks is finally getting to me emotionally. i have my whole research proposal to start and finish this evening, and its 11:11. make a wish. pretty heart/earth shattering news today but i cant really talk about

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[kaizenjaganshi]

I'm so sorry to hear you're not doing as well as could be hoped - I certainly hope things begin to work themselves out. Remember, I'm always here to rant at!
And your dream sounds amazing, I would want to see it.

[garage_noise]

thank you. im just ranting though. trying to blow off some steam.
if my dream ever happens ill be sure to film it.

[anonymous]

"if my parenst could just give me one legitimate reason for moving i would be content."

Wow.....
One legitimate reason?

Maybe, JUST maybe, that their reason is so obvious that they shouldn't even need to tell you. You miss your friends.
Well, your DAD, who's lived with his FAMILY for way more than half his life probably missed his FAMILY. Maybe thats why he came back.
But no, I don't think you've stopped once to think about the effect your move has had on other people besides yourself. Have you? No. You tell us all you're fine but the next day you're mad and hating everything and everyone and smoking and making everyone (who happens to be extremely happy that you're back) FEEL bad. Maybe, for the first time since you've been here, you should stop and think that PERHAPS.. everyone's world doesn't revolve around you and that your dad has a family... and a perfect chance to be with them!

Don't tell me you wouldn't do the same.

[garage_noise]

you're probably right, whoever you are, although i can probably guess. and dont get me wrong, i love seeing you guys, and i know that my dad does, too. it's just that there are a lot of hassels that come along with moving and i wrote this a month and half ago and i think i was just angry that day, chances are at least. i had absolutely no intention of making anyone FEEL bad, honestly. And if anyone got hurt i will apologize now and in person. but please don't tell me that i haven't witnessed the effects moving here has had on my family because i have, and even if everyone here was 100% happy, i am still allowed an opinion.

[anonymous]

your call. but seriously, it seems like sometimes you are just telling everyone you are fine and then when you're alone its like...
oh, i hate everything again.
whatever.
no apologies needed.

[anonymous]

im happy you're here..........