Went to Stix last night after poker and got trashed off 6 beers. How did that happen? I don't know. Amanda Guzik brought one of her friends to the bar and somehow she knew i was queer and though Ryan was my boyfriend. Just because you see someone with me doesn't mean they're gay you know. I hang out with Cherylee a lot, so I must be Asian. See how ( Read more... )

Okay I tried making an entry but got distracted because I'm addicted to internet and AIM. Therefore, I am giving a quick summary of this past weekend. It was the party weekend ever down here and some friends from church, Patty, Christina, Sandrel, and Candace, came down to see Courtney and stopped by the party. They turned the party out when they ( Read more... )

I called Pete yesterday and left a message. I'm pretty sure he'll call back today. That's what happened last time. I doubt he's into me because he didn't call me all week. Wouldn't you try to call a person you were interested in? Went to PK's with the boys last night. What to my wondering eyes did appear but Kegan. I knew if he was there then Ryan ( Read more... )

Had my date with Pete on Saturday. I'm still confused as to what he thinks about me. He picked me up and he seemed to look better than he did the last time. We talked about the soccer game he had to write about (I thought he was coaching for some odd reason). We went to see Amnityville Horror. Before we went inside he saw two of the kids that stay ( Read more... )

I told Ryan about my date. Didn't feel as much bliss as I expected, but I think it's a step to me getting over my true feelings for him. He and Keegan are now official, good for them. I saw Matthew last night at PK's. I remember him saying he goes to Upside Downtown a lot and he has curly blonde hair. I noticed the kid from the bar and I said hi ( Read more... )

I forgot to mention something, I called Pete Tuesday night. I was too anxious to ask him out and with the advice of Ryan and Emily I called him to ask him out to a movie. He didn't answer so I left a message on his voicemail. And then the story goes to my entry. Sorry to confuse you all. My bad yo.

Played poker again yesterday and lost $10. I swear never again. I lost the first hand because I went all in hoping that I could with with pocket Ace's but lost to a 3 of a kind on Kings. Then I bought back in and then lost it due to not paying attention. Pete called me! One of the reasons why I lost the second time :-D. He apologized for not ( Read more... )

I saw Brian AGAIN at the library. I just walked away and didn't say anything. Then I realized I that I was gonna regret it and I pushed myself to go out there and make him nervous. I went up to him, tapped him on the shoulder, and then said hi to him. He nervously turned said hi and turned back around. Then I saw him leaving the library and he didn ( Read more... )

Thanx to all who've consoled me and made me feel better. I'm getting over it but not completely yet. We're supposed to meet up sometime this weekend for drinks. I think I wanna tell him about how crappy I've been feeling and how the situation has been very depressing. Even though we already had the discussion about how we weren't gonna date, but ( Read more... )

Well Ryan has a boyfriend now. I called him yesterday because I haven't talked to him in forever. He told me he had a boyfriend and I asked who. I thought he was gonna say Matthew because that's all he ever talks about. Then he told me it was Kegan. For those of you who don't know, Kegan is a drag queen. I was like "Kegan?! You're dating Kegan?!" ( Read more... )