I finally went to see my doctor, I told her that I couldn't keep using marijuana it's effective but too expensive and my body was in bad bad shape, I couldn't seem to find the stamina to do any of the yoga or pilates I was doing, she said I have depression and arthitis, I took a test for depression. I don't want to fool myself anymore this body is ( Read more... )

In the now all time is contained ( Read more... )

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  Thank you for that heart emoticon Its okay no worries, i couldn't keep any nasty letters either because I didn't want to have a reason to harbor resentment. My mother was the most difficult lesson in my life. (A jw bi-polar alcoholic)I am very grateful to have the journey. She taught me everything, like, who I knew I didn't want to be, she ( Read more... )

I guess just after my apple laptop was submerged in coffee :( I haven't logged in because I never had a computer to log in too ( Read more... )

Five years and counting. I don’t pray to a bullshit god and I only hope that the ones who are still JWDUBs hope they WAKE UP and SMELL THE COFFEE so their children don’t suffer!!!! OH YEAH THAT IS WHAT THAT GOD OF THEIRS WANTS SUFFERING ~~ POOR CHILDREN IS ALL I CAN THINK OF!~~~ THE DUMB FUCKIN ADULTS CAN’T FIGURE IT OUT THEY DESERVE WHAT THEY ARE ( Read more... )

I just started to write in my journal and my lovely son Avery comes along and asks me if I would like to see a trick. The thing is I am supposed to be writing my book but I can’ t write the fuvkin book when everyone disturbs all the time ( Read more... )

That is the door mat that I got for the house on Lariat Loop. We arrived on about May 5th officially ( Read more... )

The beloved is alive and is weaving her essences of separation and union inside you ( Read more... )

Death as an event is a ritual, a rite of passage like puberty or marriage or any of the big things that are dramatic new moments in life.

After all those learnings, I had become my own vessel and my own harbour. Instead of looking for it beyond myself, I found it right here, in the bones of my being. I was the sail that gathered the wind, and I was the shore I landed upon. Perhaps this was the ultimate gift of the connection- the gift of my own encapsulated presence. After your ( Read more... )