Comments | garrisonwithaz: a revelation

garrisonwithaz

a revelation

Sep 01, 2007 02:40

I finally figured it out. I finally know why I am so insecure and worried that I am gonna lose everyone. I have abandonment issues. It all goes back to my dad. He left me, never even makes an attempt to see me, if my own father can do it, my own blood, then how can i trust that everyone won't do the same. It happened again, i was in love, ( Read more... )

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humanemotion September 1 2007, 06:59:12 UTC

i'm sorry. i have the same deep abandonment thing. i don't want to get too personal but, my dad left me and my mom. when i was six years old. i remember everything, like my mom crying in the dining room table, me wondering where my dad was on christmas. it's all so sad. and it doesn't leave. my dad IS in my life NOW but he wasn't for years. it's still hard. the pain is still there. no matter how much he says he's sorry, it hurts. and a lot of people can relate it to this ( ... )

humanemotion September 1 2007, 07:00:27 UTC

ugh i forgot to continue: like, it's up to you. how you want to be, who you want to be, what you want to do, how you treat people. don't let your abandonment affect that. feel me? love ya!

garrisonwithaz September 1 2007, 18:44:53 UTC

when i wrote this i wasnt wasnt using it as an excuse for why i do anything. i was just saying that i think that this is the reason i am so insecure about everything. im not trying to justify anything, just saying i realize now why i feel the way i do sometimes. And i realize i have ignored peoples calls, and other things like that, but to me that is not abandonment, abandoning is complete. its not just a one time thing.. its like forever. i just think that this is why i get so insecure. i always think everyone is just gonna leave me alone in the end. thats all im saying kitty =]

xyourxxxmomx September 1 2007, 17:11:30 UTC

Shes right ya' know? I mean everyone has felt some sort of abandonment but some are just more severe then others.. but you have to choose if you want to turn out like your father, do you want to abandon those who love you? I don't think so.

garrisonwithaz September 1 2007, 18:46:19 UTC

im never wanna abandon anyone. especcially those who love me <3 thanks for the love

xyourxxxmomx September 2 2007, 03:15:33 UTC

Just when you ignore those phone calls or text or blow off your friends for something else, it feels like abandonment even if its just for a momennt or a couple days,I mean believe me.