thank you, roz.

i was turning the page in my bio book today, and i realized i was really close to burning my hand on my lamp. i was about to lift my hand up a bit more so it would be burned ( Read more... )

sorry i haven't updated in a while ( Read more... )

i just want her to know that i feel all the same things that she does...and that i feel horrible as the one who had to do this. and i don't even know if it will help, or need to be helped. i am sorry. i just don't know what to say...

i feel the impending need to describe something. this is a journal. that means that i put in it stronger emotions than i can let out of my mouth in everyday life. like to my friends and stuff. that means these things in my journal will be much more densely emotional and usually much more depressed than i am actually feeling. all it is is the ( Read more... )

that last entry was just too harsh. it's been great...that's how i feel...it's just that when i'm not talking to her, the world comes back, and i get confused as to what i am to do with my feelings. i get upset. advice still welcome.

alright. someone's best friendship just ended because of me. it seems that this fantasy we've had has brought so much pain, part of me wants to stop torturing me and her...should i pull the plug on this liaison?

i don't quite know what to do. i don't know what i feel. i really enjoy talking. you know what i'm talking about. another 'til 1:30 last night. am i torturing myself?
(i am the other side of jack's brain) i love it. i take what i can get because...because. HER.

>>>FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK>>>
\ouch.

feelings kill men.

i spoke to emilene for like a while...it was really nice...i like her a lot. we are going out. WOOWOO. i like this girl tons. WOOWOO.

IN OTHER NEWS>>>LIFE IS GOOD.
CARLY AND COLE HAVE REESTORED THE MATRIX<<<<>>>>(CARLY KNOWS< NINJA NAPE)
GARE BEAR IN THE HOUSE<<<<<>>
COHO STYLE

*OUT*