I just want to say one last thing ( Read more... )

I need to update the main page of this journal ( Read more... )

Someone asked me if I planned on having children. Normally I would answer yes, but I just froze. No answer. I don't see any future anymore. There is just a blank black void where there once was exciting possibility ( Read more... )

It's been 8 months since she left me. I honestly don't think I'll ever be alright.

I love puppies, and kittens, and animals in general. I think that some people get the wrong idea about my screen name. It was just something that I found a long time ago in a list of "offensive" screen names. I think it just stuck.

Anyway.

I'll update this thing more often. I've had a horrible year, and it will make for good blog posts.

When I was 16 my next door neighbor committed suicide. I was the last person to see him alive.

I was on my front porch. He pulled up in front of my house, parked his car, smiled and waved to me, entered his house and hung himself in his closet.

He was very clam, and it seemed to be very easy to give me that smile.

Please keep in mind that I use this journal as a stream of consciousness output. I don't edit much. It also is sort of a reflection of pure Id. Pure random unfiltered emotion, and not rational thought. I have a fairly happy life and do not hate many people at all ( Read more... )

I was taking a little nap this afternoon and I just kept thinking ( Read more... )

I'm an angel. I kill newborns while their mamas watch. I turn cities into salt. And occasionally, when I feel like it, I tear little girls apart. And from now till kingdom come... the only thing you can count on... in your existence... is never understanding why.

It's the shit