nelvinstein (3:13:02 AM): hmm ( Read more... )

i think the sun is shining, finds its way, seeps between. the weight, impression, you're still here, but i wonder where i'll be, if i'll fit. we'll look at each other; have we outgrown what the sun can't reach, incandescent a shadow cast, feigning, fading? will we find what we've lost, or will the names be changed? i wonder where i'll be, fit, seep ( Read more... )

xIxAMxTHExEMOx (10:30:30 PM): are you afraid of your own sexuality ( Read more... )

you've left something vile,
it is inside me deeply:
a shapeshifting hope

she was a vision. cutting the crowd, benign. no two people should be allowed to make eye-contact for so long without their intents speaking for them, speaking volumes. but our eyes did meet prolonged. she must have saw something in me, past me, for me. then she walked my way, her bare feet caressing the floor little white instances, seeming to slow ( Read more... )

dreams are dreams. they are like movies in a theater, suddenly the dim room is lit up, it flickers emphatically, ephemerally. then room goes dark again. we've come to terms with this before, enough. i've spent the past couple days bewitched out of my senses, my mouth has been dry. i don't want to speak, but i have to, to you. if you could see that ( Read more... )

having access to all this sad music
is finally making me sad.

this is the closest that we'll ever get

and we're not that close at all

i feel defeated. and deflated.

my cousins from miami are visiting right now.
i still had some stuff in my apartment up in Santa Barbara to take home so we took a little trip up to pick up the stuff and i showed them around UCSB.


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