All the world is a stage

[gavak]

Oft, when interacting with other people, I feel as an actor in a play.

Real at first, but once the role assumed, going through my lines.

The analytical is too quick to the finish line.

I want to be all the parts in the play - one set of lines is too limited.

Is there then anything ever really behind the mask?

~Gav

Comments

[d2leddy]

Funny. I was thinking about you in particular yesterday and today, and resolved to check in with you this evening.

[kev_n_r]

you need to let your guard down and feel the person a little more. We're all quick to adjust our "level" to those around us, in order to engage, instruct, indulge, intake the person we meet. Rarely do we truely, intuitively interact with them. Ask intuitive question, not archetypal ones.

[gavak]

Hmm, more they way in which my own person changes. What is important and interesting fades and becomes something else tomorrow. What I think is important, what I want to do always changes.

I have no specific reason to exist, so every day and week is some new adventure. Some new me.

Not utterly -- but on most levels which people would call basic and immutable. What I love one day I may have naught but apathy towards the next.

The emotions go with skins of the days -- I'd always thought I could build up more of a base ego; yet even now, some mornings I wake up and the person I was yesterday is just a memory I have no emotions of. Like it was someone else’s life and I'm a newborn.

Unfortunately, this newborn has been spending time digging around the bottom of bottle for no other reason than it was an option.

So I'm building a face to get myself out of the ditch; one without a penchant for bottles.

Human beings are as varied as the stars -- perhaps it's my lot to be made out of sand and imagination.

~Gav

[gavak]

*sigh* and that's just one layer of it