I want to become the old loving, trusting me again.

[gaveitaway]

"You will not grow if you sit in a beautiful flower garden but you will grow if you are sick if you are in pain if you experience losses and if you do not put your head in the sand Take the pain as a gift to you with a very very specific purpose

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[greenphan]

what is that? it sounds strangly buddhist, although with the sort of heavy-handed thought processes found in eastern europe...

provacative.

[gaveitaway]

Mmmmm buddhist people are the best. I just found it on a website and it made me feel good inside. xo

[wanttodisappear]

"Sometimes DRUGS can add color to a black mood or exterminate those insects of depression. But only ART, like shards of glass and bloodstained asphalt at an intersection, can capture the pain or lack of it with a beauty that almost resembles a bruise on god. I have seen the side effects of my thoughts and I have found that there is no cure. While it is terminal, I am spelled out in a halcyon font with an unwashed brain and a belief in my new layer of skin. I must advise, that despite the discomfort any creature endures when molting, never hesitate the agony of leaving behind the dead cells.

To stay in that rotten shell you have finally outgrown, you will surely die.

You won't understand if you are sitting."

[gaveitaway]

I really fucking like that, who wrote that?

[wanttodisappear]

Marilyn Manson, it's on my lj info. I might use it or parts as my senior quote.

[gaveitaway]

I like his mind. Or just that thing you showed me. haha

[starrynyte]

wow, that kind of hits home right now

[gaveitaway]

Well I hope it helped you out.

[anonymous]

You dont know me but I read this entry and I was touched. I sum up that you have been hurt by someone you were in love with. I understand how that is like. I am in love with someone who does not love me back. He is the man of my dreams. I will love him till I die. I know that. Even now I still pray for him. I ask God that He gives him every thing his heart desires. Even love with the woman of his dreams, which is not me. That is when you know that you truelly love some one. When their happiness matters more to you then your own. If you love like that then I shall pray for you. The road looks dark and you feel desolate but you are not alone there are many of us who are in agony and we walk in the darkness with you. You cant see us but we are there beside you. The pain will subside but the memory will always be with you. Be thankful that you can see your lovers face in the light of the day. Some of us dont even have that much. You still have hope if you can see her still. and hope is the only thing that will keep you from insanity. I

[gaveitaway]

Thank you, for more then you will ever know.

[anonymous]

Here are some lyrics that might help. Not sure if you know them already since I dont know what you kids listen to these days. I know that you feel like this is the only time you will ever love. But I promise it is not. I loved before. He was my 1st love and I still remember him but look what happened...I met HIM. Dont worry it will all turn out okay. Just keep going and keep remembering that everything happens for a reason...everything. Let go and let fate and God guide you to your destiny. It is out there waiting for you.

"now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again"

[gaveitaway]

Where are those lyrics from? I really dig them. Are you the same person that posted annomous ealier? Thanks for your concern and care.