most of the time i die trying

[gavino3885]

I have always felt that i was valued by my loved ones but now i feel like i am nothing. I feel sad. I want my loved ones to care for me. I care for them so i feel odd asking for their care. Shouldnt it just be there. Why do i have to be dying to get some consolation. Maybe it is my but right now i know not of my worth. In my eyes, i see no value. I

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[nobrainer202]

[21_black_roses]

Gavin! Did you get my text last night by any chance? Anyways, all it said was that I wanted to say hello to you but I just saw you as the door was closing so I didn't get the chance. Try not to be so worried about it, it's prolly just that not everyone is as good at expressing what they are feeling as you are. Hopefully I'll see you soon? Lunch next week maybe? =)

Why die trying?

[anonymous]

Many people sit around and let life happen to them instead of making your life what you want it to be. Most people think of themselves, plan for themselves, and center their life around what the want--and then when other people disappoint them, and they will--they get depressed and gloomy. Life is about choices. You can decide to be happy--you can decide to have a good attitude and even if you have to pretend for awhile, the good attitude usually catches up with you.Love is a VERB. It is an action word. If you want love, give love. It is time to grow up and create value for yourself. If you get busy giving to others-and I don't mean money--I mean--do your best at school at work and decide that you are going to do the work necessary to be happy and have a full life. Don't waste your 20's hoping someone will notice you. If you are not feeling fulfilled where you are, then expand your horizons--volunteer at the burn center and read books to little kids who have been disfigured by burns. Take another class and get an A--get an A

Re: Why die trying?

[gavino3885]

how very insightful... i wonder whom this is. For i assume you have not been around me much lately. A distant person or so to speak. Next time i implore you to wn your words of advice. I may heed them more swiftly. But i am a very busy person. in fact in October i nearly worked myself into the ground. I work 35+ hours a week, put in alot of rehearsal hours with Olivia, I am a Spanish tutor, I have classes to go to, a home to keep up, and friends to support out of the kindness of my heart. but i refuse to live life not experiencing emotions. I will not deny myself sadness. Everyone gets sad from time to time and i will not prolong my sadness but i will experience it. I own my emotions and i take responsibility for them. I am there for people in there sadness. I am not repelled by sadness. Maybe everone else is but if there is something in my power to give comfort and aid to someone inneed i will do it. I will not put on a happy face if i am not happy. I will deal with the emotion that makes me sad and get over it. I dont have to act

thank you

[anonymous]

Actually I am quite relieved to hear your response--perhaps the other entry caught you on a rather gloomy and down day. We all have them--I am not suggesting that you "stuff" or hide your emotions, have a healthy outlet and maybe journal wirting is good--I just don't know how public it should be -- what I have found is that we are lucky if we have a handful of people on the planet that really care about our deepest thougts and feelings, and even those can get tired of our pain and sadness. At the end of the day it is still our responsibility to succeed, fail, be happy, do well in school or flunk--keep the job or get fired--it is still up to us. Sometimes the best love is "tough love" where we care for others while they figure it out in life and don't enable them to use us needlessly. These comments are all in love and come from real life experience, real pain, doing it wrong and then learning my lesson.

Re: thank you

[anonymous]

Hey man, whose all the wise words comin from? Maybe he could helpme with my problems.