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So, I met him on NYE, he does engineering at my uni, we talked for several hours, we both gradually got drunk and we made out as drunken idiots do. He had to leave before the midnight fireworks, and he got my number, though once I sobered up, I assumed he would never use it. He actually suprised me by calling while i was away at orange, and because the connection sucked, I had to call him back the next day, once i had returned to sydney. So I called him back we got talking, and decided to go out that friday (last friday). We both brought mutal friends, and had a good time. Who would have thought that mcdonalds could be so busy at 3 in the morning? By this stage i still hadn't decided whether I liked this guy that much. I was still focusing on newcastle, and assumed it would go nowhere past the 19th. But we've had many more phone calls (all taken once i had closed the door to my room, as I didn't want my parents overhearing). Today we went to the tennis, and had a great time. We seriously didn't want to leave. I could actually like this guy. I've been bouncing around the house since I got here. It's so sad, that I am so happy over some guy. I always vowed not to be that 'type' of girl, who needed a guy to make her happy.
He's taking me out on saturday, it was a suprise, but he confessed it today. He's taking me in a light aircarft, because he has a pilots licence! How bloody cool is that?!?
Here are the problems. My family doesn't know about him. He doesn't know about newcastle being a posibility.
While I suspect my mum knows something is going on, she would not approve of me having a boyfriend (yes, I'm 19, she thinks she owns my life). I have spent the last year developing my freedom, but this would make her try to control my life again. My father would probably try to track him down and have him killed. But they need to know eventually. I should not have to hide a boyfriend. I'm 19 for god's sake! This is too stupid. He thinks my parents should know, but isn't going to push the fact. He understands that my parents are INSANE and massively overprotective. I think they're just going to have to learn to deal with it. But I won't tell them before saturday. There is no way in hell, boyfriend or no, that they would let me in a light aircraft. And I wanna go! I have hidden it thus far, but it's annoying, involves stretching the truth (I haven't yet lied, just avoided the question) and should be completely unneccessary.
The other problem is more difficult. If I don't get the offer, I will be upset, but I could live with it. Although it would raise some huge questions, like, if I have failed twice, should I really be trying to do med? If I get the offer and accept, I've got to break it up, because long distance relationships rarely work, and this one is too new. If I decline, I will always wonder if it was because of my emotional attachement to sydney. This is just to fucked up.
I was talking to some good friends, they're all happy to see I've found someone, and understand my confusion about all this crap. Mostly they just told me to forget about it until next wednesday. I like this advice. So, in the interest of forgetting about this until wednesday, I am writing it in livejournal, so net friends, and not family members can read it, understand how messed up my life is, and give me advice if I have it. Geez, I love livejournal.
So, stay tuned for the next installment of Kate's Messed Up Life.