Sometimes, I feel like I need to stop all of this (nonsense) and get a real job. Go make some money, climb the ladder, get security, stability, etc., etc.
But I'd never do that. I lack better judgment.
One more year. One more year. One more goddamn fucking year.
Being locked up in Hatcher with a bunch of sick people doesn't exactly make it easy to stay healthy. Yesterday, I thought I was going to die. My fever broke at about 6 pm. I feel a little better today. I still ache everywhere though
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I'm feeling inadequate again. In life. In everything. This happens every semester, and I suppose it will for as long as I'm doing this. This. This school thing. This theatre thing.
I have these random dreams sometimes where I intentionally physically hurt people whom I really love, and when I wake up, I feel this extreme, intense guilt. This is no way to start a day.
But you can't control your dreams, right? Ugh, guilt. And I have errands to run. Damn it.